Driving home

"-Do you know him?" I asked Lilly if I would be her old friend and not a stranger. But she just shook her head from one side to another showing me the answer no. Still looking with her worried eyes to the side where that old man was going.

"- Do you?" She asked me the same. But I couldn't answer her, some words were kept in my mouth, her light green eyes mesmerized me. It was like a green diamond. Her little nose with those freckles and full lips took my attention away, now her hair looks a little bit red when the sun was slowly moving down. But not all only some of it.

When I didn't answer her she finally looked at me. Her eyes locked with mine. She curiously looked at my long black hair which easily was laying on my shoulders. Her pupils traveled to my neck, she noticed my necklace and kept her eyes there for a moment, then she looked at my chest and her cheeks became brightly red.

-"We need to go I need to get rid of the bodies." I said calmly and couldn't help and watch her reaction, but her speed of heart was still normal. In her eyes, I didn't see fear or any uncomfortable gaze because of my words. She even isn't surprised by what I said to her. Soon she shivered. Was she still in shock and maybe for now she understands what happened just one moment ago and what her eyes had have witnessed? I calmed my voice and tried to speak as soft as I could also I put one step away from her if she would feel more scared being near me. I should delete her memory. I should delete myself from her. She would forget me easily and think about this my heart was thrust with huge pain. But she steps one step closer to me if it would be some competition. Why would she want to be closer to me after what she just saw? 

-"Thank you". She whispered and bowed her head that I couldn't see her beautiful eyes of emerald. What in that little head of her was happening? Did she just have thanked me that I cruelty killed her kind?

"Can I?.." She shyly wanted to ask me something but stopped. Just a moment ago she was so brave, even if stupidly brave but still she was very brave, and now she is all shy. And it's confusing me, she is so strange. 

-"I can call a taxi if you want?" I said to her in not letting her have more time today something to me, I couldn't let her go on her own, because of her security and I knew she wouldn't want to come with a monster's car full of dead bodies, but somehow her eyes lowered and they became sad. Did I make her sad? 

-"Oh..." she sighted without looking at me, her attention was stolen by a black kitten. She nervously brushed with her little fingers through its fur" Sure it would be good," she continued again but her voice was sad, she stopped talking again. I tried to be patient with her, humans did everything more slowly so I needed to not forget to wait for her words which she had to find not very easily. "You did for me too much I couldn't ask more " She whispered but my ghoulish ears could easily hear what she had been saying to me. I couldn't help but my eyes widened did she just wanted something from me. Sure she wanted to ask something and I didn't let her of my fear to hear something from her what I wouldn't like. I was so selfish not to let her talk because I knew she just will push me away, so more easily was to keep my distance from her.

-"What you wanted to ask me? Don't afraid I won't hurt you, you can ask whatever you want" What bullshit I was talking about? Of course, I wanted to hurt her and of course, she should be afraid of me and she should run from me...No! she can't run if she will and make sudden movements of fear I will kill her, my hunting voice can't keep me from adrenaline which people feels it effects me with pleasure and their huge speed of heart, and when they run it's fun to catch them and I thought how Lilly would run and I would catch her, I began to feel poisons in my mouth and shame crossed my body. Nooo! Not Lilliana Storm not her, my chest hissed. I turned from her I couldn't look at her eyes when I told her such a huge lie.

-"Um... I just ...wanted...can you drive me home?" She sighted the last words with relief if she would be glad that finally, she could be available to finish her sentence. It took her some braveness to say it even if her voice was so uncertain like if she would be afraid, but her heart was still calm so she didn't feel fear? What did she feel then?

I couldn't help but turn around and look at her again. I raised my eyebrow with disbelief. Did she really want that me the dead one would give her a ride? Isn't she disgust with me? She looked at me and more redness came to her cheeks.  I didn't know how long I will keep myself from not letting darkness take possession of my eyes, she is making me want her so bad. And I want to give up on demons' senses.

It was hard to be near her. She smelled more tasteful, she looked that as well, she acts in the way that I wanted to know about her more and it was insane.  She is making me act stupid, being near her I feel somehow weaker and still I like this feeling, to be a weak, it is making no sense. This feeling is making no sense...

-"Sorry I shouldn't ask that and trouble you even more" She lowered her head in shame and turned around from me. What she is talking about? About what problem? Does she think that she is making me a problem by asking me for a ride? But she doesn't think about a problem that four dead bodies will be near her? Does she? She isn't in shock, isn't she? Somehow her face looks that she would be in shame, that somehow she would have done something wrong. The more I look at her the more confusing I feel. But one reason I know I don't like to see her sad. And for now, her eyes are sad and with shame.

-"Do you want that I would ride you?" I couldn't help and ask her. And I was right in thinking that she wanted exactly what I asked because her face soon became joyful. No, it can't be. How could she want to be near me when she knows who I am. And why she won't run from me screaming at the same time? In fact... it would be a disaster and I glad that she reacts in the way she does.

- "Yes I would like it very much" she shivered again but on her face was a sweet smile. It again made me think does she really understands what is happening here? I couldn't help but put one step closer to her.

-" You are shivering, do you afraid of me ?" I couldn't keep myself from curiosity and somehow with her, I felt playful. But this playfully was different as sometimes I felt with my victims, it wasn't as I used to be when I wanted to seduce them, this playing was more of happiness for unknown reasons. 

"-No, I'm cold." She answered while one hand tried to warm her and another keeping a cat which was shaking too. She brushed with her hand up and down to another of her hand. Yes of course humans are addicted to temperature, I forgot that. I couldn't give her my jacket because it was wet. It would make her even colder. So I went to my car and opened her doors. I curiously watched how she reacted again to my invitation. But she looked calmy and quickly ran into my car. I didn't wait and turn on the temperature in my car. Behind my back was the little window I closed it that the smell and view of the bodies wouldn't disgust her. But she reacted in a way like those bodies wouldn't be here at all.  It didn't bother her at all. She is the most strange human girl I ever met.

I was driving slowly, the journey with her by my side relaxed me and I didn't want that it would end soon. This silence between us was comfortable, but it didn't last for a long time. Her question broke this silence. And I wasn't mad about that too.

- "Umm you didn't tell me your name." Lilly asked without confidence in her voice, for a moment she looked at me but when I turn my head to her side she quickly lowered her head with shyness.

-"No I didn't" I answered her and began thinking if my voice didn't sound too rude now and after some silence, I continued, "It looked like you already know my name." I tried to sound more cheerful but I think it wasn't successful because her face soon became very pale.

-"I hadn't. I really don't know your name." She defended herself and I didn't understand why she felt so insecure. Oh yes of course she is sitting with a dead one who killed other people, sure she will feel insecure with me. She didn't look to my eyes even didn't look at the kitten in her hands, she looked through the window with her serious gaze, she was thinking about something very serious and it bothered me what was in her mind.

-"I am Jack." I said after a moment to her and gazed again at her face, she turned her head from the window to me. If in waiting for something more from mine lips.

-"Jack who?" Her eyebrow raised in curious.

-"Only Jack," I said and turned my head from her to the road. Her question made me feel uncomfortable, I don't like to remember my past, the time when I was an ordinary human. It was a difficult time.

-" Ok...Only Jack, nice to meet you." she said and some giggle left her mouth I looked at her sweet smile.  So she also was and funny to talk, her smile infected me to smile too.

- "Nice to meet you, Lilliana". Firstly my mouth let words out, then my brain understood what mistake I have made. I said her name without letting her introduce herself. Coldness took my body. What she will think about me now?  That I am some creepy stalker. I'm worse than that and still, I try to meet with her. I couldn't look at her. But she kept surprising me with her next question.

-"How long you have been watching me?"