I could feel my face heating up in embarassment. I can't even look at him! I tried to look at everything else but him. I probably look like a fool now.
"I'm sorry," I heard him say. He shouldn't be apologizing now because it's no one's fault. But gosh, I can't grasp the thought of it!"I'm sorry too," I said. I looked at him briefly and quickly looked away. This is just so embarassing!"Should we go back inside?" He asked and I nodded so eagerly without looking at him. I can't look at him just yet because it will only remind me of what just happened.We went back to the Karaoke room and it was the most awkward walk of my life! Good thing we won't be seeing each other in school after this. We won't, right? The University's quite huge and I don't usually go to their building. And I will just make an effort to avoid every person wearing an all-white uniform.Yes, I can do that!When we got back to our rented room, it wasn't as messy as earlier. Daisy was already asleep. And guess what, she's sleeping on Jed's shoulder! I knew she has a hidden agenda!I suggested we just go home because it's pretty clear that these girls are wasted and they agreed. I had to retrieve the rest of my stuff from Daisy's car after getting the keys from her and gave it to Jed. Daisy was already drunk so we decided to just take a cab. The guys will take care of Daisy's car.I only got to breathe freely when we were finally inside the taxi. Even breathing with Zandrey around is proving to be difficult.Ugh. I knew this night will do me no good.-Daisy was still soundlessly sleeping on my bed. I decided to just let her spend the night here in my condo because she was too drunk to go home. I can't also let her be alone especially when she's this wasted.I woke up earlier than her so here I am, standing in front of her, waiting for her to wake up. I want my face to be the first thing she'll see once she wakes up."Oh. Good morning, Ai," she greeted smilingly upon seeing my face. I arched a brow at her. "Did you not sleep well? Why do you look like you're in a bad mood?""Last night will definitely be the last time you will ever get to ask me a favor like that," I muttered. She sat up and looked at me while furrowing."You didn't enjoy it?" She asked. She doesn't know what happened to Zandrey and me last night."NO!"I saw the surprise on her face upon hearing my reply. Well, it was probably because of my tone. But she recovered quickly and even looked at me weirdly."You're weird," she mumbled. "I thought you enjoyed Zandrey's company last night.""No, I didn't!""Are you mad?"No, I'm not mad," I said, this time, in a soft voice."My God, Ai, you're making my head ache more," she mumbled as she stood up. She went out of my room and went straight to the kitchen and I followed."I will never join you next time!""Okay!""'Don't force me next time.""I promise I won't."Silence enveloped us. No, we're not fighting. We really talk like this most of the time."What's with your face?" Daisy asked laughingly. She was making a coffee for herself while I was leaning on the kitchen counter, watching her."Nothing," I muttered dismissively.I know it already happened and I can't do anything to erase it. And that really sucks! Because no matter how much I try to erase it from my mind, I couldn't.I'm really blaming Daisy for this!I just occupied a seat at the dining and took a bread. Maybe I just need to eat."Where's my phone?" Daisy asked."I don't know.""Ai," she said with a pout. "I'll just go find it. I'm pretty sure Jed texted me," she said while a big smile was pasted on her face. She ran to my room and I just let her. She really gets excited whenever it comes to her crush. I just always end up shaking my head, because even if she's like that, I like seeing her happy.I chose to just enjoy my bread and tried to forget about Zandrey for once. Although, a huge part of my brain really slips and thinks about him and what happened last night.I slapped the side of my head when that thought came to my mind. Maybe I damaged my head or something. But why am I so affected? It's not like we kissed for real. It was just a quick peck on my side lips and it wasn't intentional. Ugh!Suddenly I heard Daisy screamed. I was about to stand up and go to her but it was quickly followed with "Oh my God! He texted me! He texted me!" I could even imagine her jumping in joy.I rolled my eyes, but there was a slight smile on my face.-The day went... normal. Well, I tried my best for it to be normal.Daisy spent more hours in my condo but she had to go home because she's meeting Jed later. She will fix herself to look good for him, as she said. It was Jed who took care of her car last night. They will meet later to bring her car.So I was left peacefully alone in my crib again. I took out all my materials and decided to do some plates. I have a lot of hobbies but I'm an Architect student and I don't get to spend my time on my hobbies anymore. Because of plates. Freaking plates.My brows were knitted together when I heard my phone beeped. It's just probably Daisy. So I didn't pay attention.But then a few minutes later, it beeped again. It was annoying. So I just picked up my phone to check who was texting me.I furrowed again when I saw it was from an unregistered number. I opened it and suddenly, I felt my heartbeat doubled its pace.The text says:Hi, Aira! This is Zandrey. I was just wodering if you're free today?Another text came in:Or tomorrow? Whatever works for you.And then another one:I just want to ask if I can have my ID back? I can't enter the school premises without it.😅Ugh that ID! I should've given it to him when I got my things from Daisy's car last night so I wouldn't have to meet him! But at that moment, I couldn't think about it because I was prioritizing the thought of going home.Now I have to reply. And meet him to give his ID. Ugh.I typed:Hi, Zandrey. Is it okay if I give it to you on Monday? Before class. What time is your first class? Because I'm really busy.And it's just a matter of seconds or perhaps a minute when I received a reply from him.He replied:Sure. My first class will be at 9 am. Is it okay if we meet at 8:30?I replied:Yeah. I guess that will be fine. Let's meet at Gate 1.He replied:Okay. Great! See you, then.☺And finally, I replied:Yup. See you.Okay. That will be just once and this will be the last. After it, I don't have to see him anymore. Sure, our worlds are getting smaller but I will make sure to hide from him and avoid him.-The most dreaded Monday came. While on the way to school, I keep on fidgeting. I tried to think of ways or excuse just to not see him, but nothing came to mind.I'm good at this! Why is it that my mind becomes blank when it comes to him?I already got to school before 8:30. I still have a few minutes to calm my nerves or better yet, think of an excuse.I looked around and saw the guard house. I smirked upon finally being able to think of something.Zandrey's still not here so I approached the guard and asked if I could leave the ID, and that someone will be picking it up in a while. Good thing, the security guard was very understanding.I texted him and told him I have an emergency meeting with my groupmates so I left his ID there. I smiled widely when I finally got passed the gate.See? I'm good at this!I then went to my classroom for my 9 am class. It was a minor subject. It was the kind of minor subject that feels like a major subject, so one has to attend because once you fail to attend even just one meeting, you will miss a lot. I don't want to self-study for this subject because I already have a lot of major subjects that I need to self-study for. I also have a lot of plates to do.After that class came another class and then a vacant time. I have two hours of vacant until my next subject which means more time to spend sa Library.The journey to the Library was never easy. I feel so paranoid whenever I am about to meet someone in an all-white uniform. Gosh, why are there so many medical students here?!A heart attack was threatening to happen whenever I see someone in white. God, this is not good for my anxiety!I managed to get inside the Library without bumping into him so I kind of felt at peace. I sat at the farthest corner, my back facing everyone else. I won't be able to concentrate if I keep seeing people in white.When lunch time came, Daisy texted me and invited me for lunch. I was going to accept it but then she mentioned Jed and thought they might be with Zandrey so I declined. I'll just let them have this time for themselves.The plan was to eat lunch quickly and go back to the Library because I left my stuff on the table I occupied.I was still being so careful. Too careful to the point that I feel like a weirdo. I keep on looking around and whenever I'm about to meet someone in white, I quickly distance myself. Seriously, this is making me look like crazy. I just really don't want to see him just yet. What happened last night was still carved in my head.My eyes grew wide when I saw him near the student center. He was approximately 6 meters away from me and I'm not sure if he saw me or not because I quickly hid myself behind the huge trunk of a tree. I really wish he has not seen me!The students who pass by me would always look my way. I wanted to scratch their eyes out because Zandrey might see me! I hope they realize I am hiding for a reason. Now I am not safe because of their stares!I waited for a few minutes before checking if Zandrey's still there. And a sigh of relief instantly comes out of my mouth. I noticed he was no longer there.Phew!"Who are you hiding from?"But my eyes grew wide and my heart started beating crazily inside my chest when I heard his voice from behind me.Fuck.Me.Zandrey's POV "Hey, a slot for the medical mission just opened up," Troy said when he saw me in the hallway. "Who backed out?" I asked. The slots had been fully taken since the list went up. Most of the interns signed up. I’m just not sure why there’s suddenly an opening. Maybe someone backed out. "Celeste can’t go. Said she has something important to attend to," Troy replied. "I have to ask my wife first," I said. I know we’re not legally married yet, but I’ve been telling people at the hospital that she’s my wife. We’re getting married soon anyway, so it feels just right. In fact, we already live together and have kids. She’s not officially my wife yet, but in my heart, she’s been my wife for a long time. Troy just shook his head at my response, a teasing grin forming on his face. "I wouldn’t be surprised if you end up having another kid." I laughed at that. "You and Hope too. It’s about time," I mumbled, referring to his girlfriend, who’s also a doctor here. She's currently
It's been days since I last saw him. I hear him come home to see the kids, but he never stays long. I still refuse to see him, and I'm standing firm on that until now. A day has also passed since the last time I cried because of what he did. I'd like to think that would be the last time because I'm truly exhausted from crying. But I know it won't be the last. I have unlimited tears, and they always fall for him. Nobody else knows what happened yet. But no one has seen us together either. So far, no one's asked us anything, so I haven't had to tell anyone. I don't really want this to turn into a big issue. But who am I kidding? What he did is already a big deal. I still wonder most of the time... what if they find out what Zandrey did? What if they learn that the wedding won't happen anymore? I'm sure it would be a huge disappointment. Even I deeply regret it. But what can I do? It already happened. It can’t be undone. All I think about now is the welfare of the kids. I've been thi
The whole ride, I didn’t say a word. I just quietly cried in the back seat. Even Dominic and Daisy didn’t pressure me to explain what had happened. They just let me pour everything out, and I’m so grateful for them. If they hadn’t come, maybe I’d still be there. Maybe I’d still be facing him right now. Maybe I would’ve looked even more like a fool. It was so hard for me to process everything I had just seen. And then I thought back on how these past days, I already felt like something was off. I could sense something different, but I tried to brush it off. I forced myself to ignore the things I was noticing. But God, how could I have been so blind? I still couldn’t stop crying. He made me believe he truly loved me. The kids love him. But how can I continue what we’ve started if it’s already tainted with betrayal? I’m not the type to just tolerate something like that. But what about my kids? What about me? What about us? So many thoughts were racing in my mind. After this, then what
I kept walking until I made it back to the car. I clutched tightly onto the paper bag I was carrying - the one with his lunch inside. I was initially lost for words, lost for any reaction. The moment I saw it, it was like my brain just stopped functioning. It was only when my phone beeped that I realized this was reality, that I wasn’t dreaming or hallucinating. Everything I saw was real. I tried to reach for my phone inside my bag. That’s when I realized my hands were shaking as I fumbled to get it. 'Are you coming?' It was a text from Zandrey. The moment I saw his name, my tears finally fell, the ones I’d been holding back since earlier. That’s when I felt the pain resurface. I started crying loudly, not caring if people outside might hear me. My chest felt so heavy. I couldn’t cry earlier, but now it was like my tears wouldn’t stop falling. The image was still vivid in my head. He was kissing another girl. And if I wasn’t mistaken, it was the same girl I met months ago, the
"Good morning," Zandrey greeted as he kissed my bare shoulders."Good morning," I greeted back. It’s been quite a while since I had this smile on my face upon waking up.He quickly got up from bed while I remained lying down for a moment. Then he went to the bathroom.I just stared at the ceiling as I willed myself to finally get up. We have a long day ahead, so I really needed to move. Anytime now, the kids might wake up.Before I could get up, I already heard a knock on the door. I quickly stood up and put on the clothes I had worn last night. I almost lost my balance because of the rush.I heard Zandrey laugh. When I turned to look, he was leaning against the bathroom door while brushing his teeth.I rolled my eyes at him. "It’s your fault," I grumbled. He just chuckled again.After getting dressed, I finally went to the door. I even checked the bed to see if there was anything scattered around. Luckily, there wasn’t, so I freely opened the door.Upon opening it, I saw a little boy
"Nooooo," Andrei cried. He was clinging to Zandrey's arm and it seemed like he didn’t want to let go. His tears were falling one after another, and my chest tightened at the sight."Drei, Dad has to go," I said softly, gently trying to take him from Zandrey, but his grip was really tight."Should I just not go?" Zandrey murmured. It looked like he didn’t want to leave either because of Andrei’s cries."No, you should go. I’ll take care of Andrei," I said. I could see the worry on his face, but he really had to leave. He’s needed there."No, Daddy. Don’t leave, Daddy," Andrei cried again.I wanted to cry too. I didn’t want to see him like this. I could feel his fear of his dad leaving, even though I’d already told him he’d be back. I had to keep reassuring him that his dad was just leaving for work and would return soon. But he just kept crying."Dad will be back, Drei. Don’t cry, baby. He just has to work," I explained again."I wanna go with Daddy!"I was close to giving in. When I l