ALESSANDRA
The time was over now and I was relieved. Thank God, I was leaving. Thankfully, today I was lucky because I was troubled by this person a lot but at last I was leaving. He is only beautiful in appearance, otherwise this person is very arrogant. Neither does he know how to talk well nor does he answer anything properly. Sometimes he does not even answer my question. I was dumbfounded many times. Literally many times. But I was happy that I was free now.
“How was your day, huh?” Arabella asked me as soon as I came out.
“Not bad.” I scrunched up my nose. “He’s kinda arrogant.” I added, shrugging my shoulders. Sorry, but I could not keep it to myself. If he is arrogant then I am going to tell everybody that my patient is arrogant and does not even reply to me. Sometimes he even insults me by ignoring my questions.
“After all he’s got an Apollo face!” She giggled at her own joke. I rolled my eyes. It was not that funny, right?
“Ah, did I say something wrong?” She stopped laughing when she found I was not throwing my head back with a loud and terrible laugh.
“No, you’re actually right.” I nodded, agreeing with her statement. “By the way, what does he eat?” I ask her, going closer to the huge desk. Maybe he eats some kind of ‘arrogance’ and ‘being an asshole’ fruit?
“That tasteless food.” She tells me monotonously.
“Hm,” I nodded. Actually in many asylums, I found the staff treating the patient just like normal people but here it is not like that. Otherwise he’d have been ruling here because of his beautiful appearance. I do not understand why my subconscious is drooling over his appearance every time?
“Okay, I’m leaving now. Bye,” I wave my hand and leave when she turns and kisses on my cheek.
I sigh once I sit inside the car. I drive to my place and reach in a few minutes. Coming out and locking the door, I make my way to the entrance. My day was hectic because my patient was damn annoying. Anyway, forget about him, Allie, he is just a patient. I make myself understand and knock on the door.
It takes some minutes to open the door as I keep standing outside. I cross my arms over my chest and suddenly, I start feeling someone’s gaze over me.
I frown when this foreign feeling sits inside my chest. Why would someone stare at me? Especially when I am at my place. I shake my head as I close my eyes. By reading criminal psychology, I am becoming insane that I am starting to feel someone is watching me.
Seems funny!
The door finally opens, revealing my charming young lady.
“Hey, young lady, welcome home,” she says and holds my bag from my hands. I let her hold it and follow her.
“How was your day?” She asks me midway and I answer her, “Good.”
We reach the living room and I flop on the couch, taking a deep breath. I missed this comfy couch. By sitting on that wooden chair for almost two hours, my ass is hurting.
“But you know my patient is kinda arrogant. He insults me by ignoring me.” I tell her in a loud voice. She giggles from the kitchen and soon arrives back with a glass of water in her hands.
“Thank you,” I mumble, taking the glass and relieving my dry throat.
“Then I wonder how you tolerated him?” She giggled and I joined her as only one thought beamed inside me—that’s my lady! She knows I am allergic to arrogant people. Especially the one who does not show some respect. And that is why she asked me directly.
“Right! But mom, he’s my patient. I can tolerate anybody for money!”
She giggled once again.
••
Once my dinner is done, I enter my room. As soon as I push the door open, an unfamiliar scent ascends my nostrils. Wait, am I dreaming? I frowned bitterly. Just why does someone else’s scent float in my room?
Is it my imagination once again?
I think I am just overthinking. My mom visits my room many times.
I walk ahead and look at myself into the mirror. I rake a hand through my short and silky hair and settled them behind as the strands were poking my cheek and eyebrows.
I lean forward and take a close look at my pretty face. The skin is clear and I admire it. I stroke my cheeks and an unwilling smile makes a way to my lips. Yes, I am self obsessed but sometimes only. I do not praise myself every time like this. I mean while looking at my own face and smiling on my own!
I then hurriedly grab the bottle of night cream. I apply it on my skin and suddenly, a pair of eyes catch my attention through the mirror.
With a small gasp, I snap around but find nobody.
What? My forehead hurts as I frown too deeply and tightly. There was literally nobody behind the long curtains on the balcony side.
I shake my head at my imagination. I am literally becoming insane. Seriously!
I turn around and continue applying the cream. Once I am done with a tender massage, I put it back and go to my bed. I crawl inside the sheet as I am already wearing my night dress, and close my eyes after covering myself with the sheet.
••
My eyes opened because of the coolness I was feeling around myself. It was pinching the skin of my legs and I felt as if my chest was being pressed harshly.
When my eyes opened, I saw my blanket was not covering me anymore. It happened for the first time in my life that I had removed the blanket from my body while sleeping. I do not sleep so carelessly most of the time. I always keep myself covered like a cocoon in bed due to the cold. I am ashamed to say that but I feel a bit more cold. More than anyone else feels.
I huffed and grabbed my blanket to put on my body. Even though I did not want to notice, I slept like an idiot. A careless certified idiot. My shirt was heaved up a bit and my flat tummy was in view.
I huffed, but hurriedly closed my eyes to sleep peacefully. I swear I am not going to let the blanket fall from my body.
••
The next morning, I do my daily routine before going downstairs for breakfast. When my mom finds me entering the kitchen, she wishes me a good morning with her morning smile. It is beautiful and fresh like always.
“Good morning.” I say and sit on the chair. She serves me pancakes and I start pecking on it. She then serves herself and sits with me.
“How did you sleep last night?” She asked me and unwillingly I remembered what happened to me last night. I am still telling myself that it was just a coincidence. I mean, nothing meant last night. I was just overthinking.
“Good. What about you?” I ask back with a smile which is not convincing. I do not know why it is getting hard now. Even though I am trying hard to convince myself that it was just my imagination, I am not ready to understand anything. Or my mind?
“Good. I’m glad you didn’t get in any trouble last night.”
“What?” I muttered as I could not stop myself from doing it. Just why would she ask me something like that?
“Allie! You couldn’t hide your problems from me! You looked so tired last night, that’s why I was just concerned.”
I sighed when I got her.
“No, mom, I’m completely fine. It was… it was just my patient and he’s mentally disturbed so it’s obvious to react like that.” I rolled my eyes when his face flashed in front of my eyes. That arrogant patient.
“Oh! Well, I can understand.”
“Do you?” I cocked my brow and she chuckled when she understood what I meant.
“Don’t forget I’m older than you, Allie, I’ve seen much more than you.” She patted my head before getting up as she was done with her breakfast. My eyes stuck on my empty plate but my mind was replaying her words. Yes, she has seen much more than me. She knows more than me.
“What? It’s empty, kiddo! Should I take it?” She giggled when she saw me clicking my spoon against the plate, but her voice interrupted me.
“Yeah, I was just thinking—,”
“About?”
“This world.” I looked at her. My answer just stopped her for a moment and she took a whole minute to stare at me.
She sighed. “You should.” She nodded and then took my plate. I got up and held my bag. She is washing dishes now. I go to her and hug her from behind.
“Bye, will miss you.” I say and kiss her cheek.
“Me too. Did you take your jacket?” She asked me, without turning.
“Yeah, I didn’t forget this time.” And I see her smiling. She nodded. “Take care.”
“You too.” I say and rush to leave. Today I am not late so I do not have to rush to the hospital. I take my time and settle myself inside the car before leaving.
••
“Hey, good morning, Allie.” Ara wishes me and I wish her back.
“How’s he?” I ask her as soon as I pull myself away from her as I just gave her a morning hug.
“He has taken a shower a while back.” She tells me.
“Does he get up this late?” I point out, remembering his pride-holding face. Mr Arrogant is not perfect. He gets up late in the morning.
“No, he wakes up by 4 in the morning but takes a shower at this time to give some time to exercise.” She smiles.
Okay, I take my words back. Mr Arrogant can be perfect if he wants.
“Oh, the man is impressive with such habits.”
“Quite.” She winks at me and I just roll my eyes.
“I should go now.” I say and she nods. I take my bag and bring out some papers. I present them to her and she scans them through her eyes.
“Oh, agreement.” She mumbles while her eyes never leave the papers. “Okay, you can take him out.” She tells me and I nod at her before leaving for his ward.
When I reach there, I knock twice before pushing the door open. I know he is not going to say anything.
Please, do not think I am mannerless but this man is quite irritating. He does not speak, yet he expects others to understand him. How? Well, that is not possible for the staff around him but being his psychiatrist, I know I have to enter the room without even asking for his permission.
He does not bother to say a small ‘come in’ but I understand he cannot stop me from entering.
“Good morning, Hayyyy—,” my words die peacefully right on my tongue when I see his muscular naked body in front of me. Not fully, but his upper half is in view and he is wearing a pair of bottoms. His one hand is rubbing the towel on his hair—drying it, and his eyes are looking at me—emotionlessly.
Neither he is scared or embarrassed by seeing me here but I feel my cheeks burning and my eyes widening with his mere movement.
His body is just perfect!
I gulp hard and immediately push myself back. I take a deep breath once I lean against the wall and look up.
Oh no! I should have knocked. I should not have used my brain. It already works a lot. And just because of it’s working, I embarrassed myself in front of him once again.
So what? I even got to see his muscular body! He is like some Greek Gods. I gulp hard, realising he looked desirable like that. Like shirtless. My eyes accidentally even noticed his abs and I must say wowww.
But that was literally embarrassing! He must have seen my red cheeks and widened eyes. Shit, I must be looking like a cartoon at that time.
“Idiot!” I curse myself under my breath and shake my head. “So shameless of me!”
“You can come now.” His deep but low voice interrupts me but unfortunately I flinch like a fish.
God!
I prepare myself and rub my cheeks. I hope the redness has decreased now because the heat was still felt by me. I take a deep breath and then straighten myself before entering the room.
I close the door behind and then look everywhere but not at him. I did not even try to confirm if he had worn something or not.
“Good morning, Psychiatrist.” He muses and I feel so annoyed right now. Yesterday he was like a stone and today he is chirping like a bird.
“Morning.” I say, still looking down.
“Not good?” He taunts like yesterday but I find excitement in his voice unlike yesterday. How is it possible? Did he practice for this?
I sigh and shake my head, not bothering to answer him. I take my seat on the chair and ask him to sit in front of me. He does it quietly and then rests his elbows on the table. I unwillingly notice his muscles flex a bit when he does so. He is wearing a half sleeved t-shirt today. He does not wear a uniform.
“Hades,” I begin telling him but his smirk does not let me continue. It is evil as well as sexy.
“I’m all ears.” He tells me once he notices my silence just after his name. It is attractive and sounds good.
Hades… means God of the dead and underworld. A giver of wealth.
“I have submitted the agreement, according to which you can walk out with me but only for an hour. I hope you will not have any problem with this.” I say, gathering some courage. For fuck’s sake, I am a psychiatrist and I have met such patients many times. Then why should react this stupidly around this man? He is a mere patient who cannot control me.
“I don’t have any problem.” He says and I am happy this man is behaving like normal people today.
••
Soon, with no argument, we came out of the ward. He follows me and I feel uncomfortable once again. I do not know why but I feel him drilling holes on my back through his gaze.
They are mysterious, no doubt, but why would he scare me like that? Or am I overthinking once again? I believe that sometimes our brain plays tricks on us but only when something is eating us inside. I am not depressed. I am not anxious. I am not scared of anyone, yet I am feeling stares on me.
No! I cannot fool myself again and again like that. God has given me senses from which I can sense what is happening around me. I just cannot ignore them.
But I cannot even accuse Hades for staring at me like that. I have read that they avoid eye contact but as they like manipulating others, they use their psychotic stare to manipulate the person or to scare them.
Once we reach the lobby, I look up at the TV. The news is being shown on the screen.
“Wait a moment.” I tell him, without looking at him. I focus on the screen and read the headline. Another murder. I had to focus more.
They show that another man of the city was brutally murdered. His body was found in some street. And after investigation, the report came out that the killer had stabbed his chest with a knife about twenty times. The man’s thumb was also chopped off.
This all sends a chill down my spine. To scare me more, they even showed the place from where they found the body. And I realized that that street is two blocks ahead of my house.
“Oh Lord, it’s horrible.” I hear a voice from my side.
“I guess it’s the same serial killer who killed a black man two days ago, right?” A musculine voice interrupts and I eventually realize he is Oliver.
“Can say! Only a serial killer can kill like this.” She says monotonously and then leaves. Maybe it was Sofia who left with Oliver after muttering with him. I look around and find Arabella and Yami with me. I ignore them and look around to find Hades.
Fortunately he is sitting on a desk and drinking some water. His eyes emotionlessly look at his front, which is a wall and a poster is pasted on it. A poster for the schedule of psychiatrists here.
I go to him. His mouth is full of water and he senses my presence. His eyes, which were down, now land on my shoes. I do not know for what reason he lifts his eyebrows and then he lets his gaze travel up to me.
“Done?” He asks and I nod.
“Ready?” I ask him and now he nods. Closing the lid of the bottle, he gets up and I crane my neck to match his gaze but he avoids looking into my eyes. He looks away and gulps for no reason before heading towards the door.
There in the room, he was trying to catch my gaze and now he was avoiding. What is that for? He is mysterious.
ALESSANDRA“So how was your day today?” Mom asked me as soon as I put my glass back on the table. “Berrer…” I sighed. She chuckled, “It’s better, not berrer…” She rolled her eyes and giggled when I did the same. But there was a difference. She did while pronouncing my accent while I rolled my eyes because I was a bit annoyed by this. She was teasing me. “So, how did your day go on better?” I saw excitement in her eyes. “He behaved nicely and normally today. I noticed that today he was not numb and even talked to me.” I shrugged my shoulders, behaving like nothing affected me but to be honest, I was so happy today. I was happy because once again I was successful in my case. “Well, I believed in you from the very beginning. I knew that just like you take care of other patients, you will heal this one too.” She grinned and I could not help but fall flat on her smile. Her smile is too young and beautiful. I love it when the skin around her eyes crinkle when she smiles heartily. It i
ALESSANDRA“Why did you choose to become a psychiatrist?” He asked me as soon as I settled myself in front of him. Expected! Of course, he cannot get something private to ask because I think the man can guess there is nothing I have to hide. “I was interested in it. Human brain excites me with its thinking. It’s indeed a miracle for me.” I said and I was honest. He nodded and while doing that, his one brow arched. “Then what do you think about my brain?” He smirked and I was literally patting his bravery. Inwardly. Even I took some time to ask what he thought about me but this man asked me directly after just one question. Boy, if you wanted, you would’ve asked me more straight than that? “Ah…” I parted my lips to say something but nothing came out. God, he just trapped me badly. What should I tell him? That I think of him as a brutal murder who did not think twice before killing his parents! “Ah...what?” He cocked his brow as he reminded me I should complete it. I nodded and
ALESSANDRATrust me, I was not fine at that time. I was a bit scared. Well, I say I am always scared around him but letting him not see my fear is another point.Today I left again without saying anything. Because my service time was over. I came home and went into the room telling my mother about my day. It was good. I know I am uselessly scared. I went into the room and then fell on the bed. I am tired. I am tired from today. The fatigue of the day, which was singing a melody on my shoulders, calmed down for a moment. As soon as I closed my eyes, my ears also fell silent, which were filled with sound. The honking of vehicles in traffic jams, people shouting from behind, dogs barking on the way, the full rustle of the moving wind, all these sounds had settled in my ears. In my ears, the sounds have become like a shelter, as if they are looking for a way to enter my mind. I am really tired. I am so tired that I have heard the voice even in the silent room. I lay in peace. The horr
ALESSANDRA“No, I’ll come. I’m just leaving in ten minutes!” I used my voice low, looking down at Ara, who was sleeping, while her head was resting in my lap. After my work was done, she asked me to stay with her because she was all alone in her home. Her mother goes out to work and her father is no more. Her elder brother is a soldier in the army. Her mom comes nearly ten at night and that is why she wanted me to stay over at her place. After talking about Nate, who betrayed her, she kept crying and at last, slept like a baby. “No, sweetie, you should stay there. It’s already late at night.” She tried to convince me but there is no way I am letting her stay alone. “Mom, please! Don’t act like a child. You know I don’t want to leave you alone.” “And I don’t want you to travel at night.” She protested in my tone. “I will! And I’m coming, okay? You don’t have to wait for me. Sleep, because I’ve spare keys, okay? I’ll manage everything.” And without listening to her answer, I disco
ALESSANDRA“What the hell is this! Isn’t it your duty to take care of the patients here? So how did this mistake happen? Are you kidding us?” “We are sorry but we ourselves do not know how this happened!”“Meaning you were not focused on your responsibility! Then there is no point in this for employees like you!”“We’re—,”“The fuck! Stop begging!” “Sir please, It’s not that they did this intentionally!”“Would you like to lose your job with them too?” “But sir, please listen to them at least? These people must have known something or the other.”“I fucking don’t care! Due to the presence of CCTV cameras here, we don’t need the eyes of these people! These people are lazy! They should die by drowning in—,”“Sir please?!” “What please!”I looked at Nathaniel from the corner of my eye. Ever since he came, he has been shouting in anger at the people working here. This person is unable to bear the death of his brother. And Nathaniel is not able to digest this thing at all that his brot
ALESSANDRAToday was like the rest of the day. There was not much difference. Even today Hades spoke to the most of all the people he met. Seeing him, for a moment, I felt as if Hades did not need me at all. He needs me because he does not show what he is. We also went to the arcade where we both played many games together. At first he said that he is not fond of playing games. I thought that I would win because he never had any interest in playing, but I turned out to be wrong. That person is adept at playing such games. I thought that he would not even know how to run his hands on the machine, but he was moving his hands like a pro, as if running water. He beat me in all the games we played. “There is no need to make such a face now. You were the one who was jumping to play!” He said, walking with me, while his hands were resting inside the pockets of his pants.“You’re a cheater!” I gritted out.“How?” He rolled his eyes when I just glanced at him. He looked hot while doing tha
ALESSANDRAWhen I was remembering the feelings I felt in the night, in the same way, the pain in my brain was flowing like tears from my eyes. I was surprised till now because I did not even understand who could do all this. Who would do this to me? Someone came to my room at night and went away after doing whatever he wanted to my body, and I was not even able to know who could do such a thing. How worthless am I! Today for the first time I was feeling angry that even after gaining so much knowledge in life, my mind had become numb today. When I was in desperate need of thinking, understanding and peace, none of them were with me. I palm my face and realize that it is wet. I dip my face between my knees while more tears spill out of my eyes. I cannot be weak like this. So should I complain to the police? They will definitely believe my words because I have hand marks on my thighs and I am not even lying. Nodding at myself, I quickly wipe my tears away and then get up from the b
ALESSANDRAAs my hours were done, I walked ahead towards my car. Today was very different from other days. Till today I had not seen such a form of Hades. Hades is a terrible kind of person who just wants to kill people. He did not think before killing anyone, nor did he think of saving anyone. In front of him two men were fighting fearlessly like wild animals. He broke the head of a human in front of him, but Hades still did not have mercy in his heart. He did not think of saving him, but seeing him dying, Hades was getting peace. I already knew Hades was still sick. He is still battling with mental illness. He has an urgent need to learn the present peace. Not only peace, but he has to learn a thousand habits related to human beings. He cannot get out of this place by becoming so cruel. Because no one knows when his terrible form will come out. Today only he saw violence as an interesting drama, but tomorrow he can make such a drama. He can raise his hands to kill a human. I also