I saw my reflection sitting and huddled in the corner wiping the tears on my eyes.
Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've cried in my room when nobody was watching. Nobody knows how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've left like I'm about to snap, but I just don't, for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody. Knows. Me.
I saw how messy I am on that picture until a hand came and offer me to stand up.
"Baby I will be by your side, I will stay by your side, I will be with you forever, I love you and I will always love you"
Who was that?
The sad face I once had become like a flower that blooms.
"You are safe with me I promise. And when you get scared: look me in the eyes,
I woke up very happy today different from other daysAfter I took a bath, I quickly ran down to the kitchen to cook and prepare foods for the two of usI heard a voice coming from the master's room, as I looked back I saw Joash yawning and rubbing his tummy"Good morning," I said and waved" Aww your preparing foods, here let me give you a hand" he offered a hand to help meHe was slicing the meat when he asked me a question" Jordan, what happened last night?" He suddenly asked me and smirked"Huh?, nothing," I answered, I tried my best not to look obvious, I need to help him forget everything that had happened yesterday.My face is burning and I can feel that it is turning red so I quickly looked on the other side"Are you sure? Why are you trembling?" He added" Can you hand me the radish?" He sai
Joash povAfter every storm, there is still hopeAfter every rain, there is always a rainbow.After every suffering comes relief.Maybe it's not always about trying to fix something broken. Maybe it's about starting over and creating something better.I'm starting over again. We are on process having a fresh restart.A new pattern of thoughtsNew emotionsA new connection to the worldA new belief system in myselfIn my life and my family.After the shift, I decided to walk in the park. I've had experienced so many bad things these past days and I needed to unwind.I was walking when I guy suddenly appeared in front of me. I was just staring at him while he was busy talking to his phone. HIis smil is very perfect." Who was that? And what are you doing
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