It was the mid year season again. The time that students gets eager to vacate and start a new session; a new dawn. I grew up to note that you won't realize when you exhaust the season.
But God created that year a different one for me. Instead of being eager for the season to end, I never wanted it to end. Fear came over and changed everyone completely.
My father slipped out a note briskly from one of suitcases and handed it over to my mum. Instantly I felt a pain rush through my body and leaned against the door for support. I had believed in forever, that everything will stay the same.
But I believed there's a secret and I don't know about this whole thing. I watched them as they kept stealing glances at me while they exchanged papers.
The reality is here for me to face but it wasn't not easy to. What about the memories, the love we shared together, is it just going to crash within a couple of hours? Just then, his phone rang and he stared at me like a thief that stole a seasoning cube in the market before picking it.
"Hello! Where are you?!" A female voice yelled from the phone aggressively and my mum chuckled. He quickly turned off the loud speaker before continuing his talk with the person.
"Tell her you'll be right back, why's she so eager" my mum rolled her eyes at him and my dad hissed.
"What happens in my life now is none of your fucking business" my dad snapped at her. Their fights had always been my scariest nightmare. My mum was stubborn and rigid, sometimes she'd throw her shoes and other dangerous things at him and he'll hit her back.
People around had always consider us a happy family with the best couple. But there was more to it that they can't see. This divorce would shock and explain things better to them.
"Like it has been?" She confronted him with a question, standing up as if she wanted to fight him. I staggered back for the fear that they might want to start another thing again.
He turned to me as if he wanted to say something but stopped again. I could feel his heartbeat racing like a Mercedes sport car.
A lot of my classmates are from divorced parents as well. A good percentage of them did not take it too emotional like I'm doing. The strong bond between me and my dad is irreplaceable.
I've made up my mind to be stalking him or leave with him to wherever he's going.
I virtually had no friends at all. I was the antisocial type because of the time he devoted for me, I could not have time for friends. I never thought of a day like this.
I imagined myself fitting with those irritating spoilt kids and I felt like throwing up. He had refused to tell me where he would going since a day before. But I know he'll come for me one day.
Probably his departure is called for. He tried a lot living with my mum all these while. I'll just join him one day.
I don't even know how my dad and I became this close, probably because my mum was buried in her modelling work or my dad wanted to be a large part of my story.
The look on my dad's face was blank. He wasn't looking sad nor happy. Is he not sad of loosing me?
I don't even know how I'll feel coming back from school tomorrow not to find him at home. Or school hours ending without him coming to pick me up. That implies that it's Bernard that would be taking from school as from tomorrow onwards.
Heartbreaking; I would I face my classmates with numerous wound digging questions like; is it true that your parents are now divorced, wait a minute, did you cry? How did you feel? Oh sorry! I just got to know about your parents divorce.
Geez how on earth won't I cry.
No one was looking at my direction, they were all engrossed with the divorce file I guess. I don't know how a divorce file looked actually but I think that should be it.
"Chill Tiana, this something small you can deal with and get over with time" I assured myself.
Nothing hurts more than this! I wanted to prove strong but it was proving abortive.
"You will see my lawyer anytime from now, Patience" My father spoken, breaking the goddamn silence.
She just nod her head and smiled. I knew this was what she wanted all these while. And fortunately for her and unfortunately for me, she got it.
She kept acting as if she didn't give a damn about me while making her decision. She should have known it's something that would definitely affect for a life time. But she care less!
I know my mum, she doesn't give a damn about who gets hurt while she's making her decisions. She's so stubborn, rigid and desperate. That
"Save journey" she winked her nose at him.
She stood up lazily and dragged her legs nosily along with her. She began to sing a Nigerian juju song titled I don't care. That's song is for the helpless me. She doesn't care about how I feel as long as she hits her target. I'm just an option behind the bars.
My dad took his luggage one by one, I watched in silence still battling with the thought that he would never come back again; it's just too hard to believe.
When he came back for his last, luggage, he stopped and walked closer to me. He held the both sides of my head and said.
"Dad please don't leave me here, take me along to wherever you're going" I pleaded with a teary voice.
"I'm sorry, I can't. You need to stay by your mum, this is the time she needs you most. You'll be fine okay" He assured.
"Are you still going to be paying me a visit, even if it's once in a while?" I sniffed, looking up at him with hopeful eyes.
"Okay I promise" he said before pulling me closer for a hug. I soaked his tears hugging like he wanted fly away from me.
"I'll miss you dad" I cried, crashing in his arms and weeping hopelessly. I cried my pains out. I cried for my new beginning. A phase of my life that I never prepared for.
He pulled back when my mum called me from the stairs.
"I might cease to live in this house again but that doesn't change the fact that I am your biological father and your best friend" He concluded before taking his bag, leaving the house for good.
I slowly watched him till he drove out of sight. I stood there still trying to digest what just happened. Few minutes later, I regained myself. I left for my bedroom for a deep nap, I had enough for the day.
Tiana's POVIt's been days now and I saw him but traces of things he left behind. He never came to visit me like he promised. I forced myself out of the bed and stretched myself. I feel like my whole joint have been stiffened together and I felt lazy and weak. Even if he was still going to stay in touch with me, it's not gonna be like before. My mum told me that he has another family to return to when he leaves.The fact is that the intimacy has been lost. I screw up strength to move, I felt so light; never felt like this before I swear. I crawled up to my bed and slept back again. I rolled to and fro on the bed and collapsed on the bare floor. I couldn't go climb the bed anylonger so slept off on the floor. **************I woke up with tear stained face and broken body. I stared at the wall clock;it was 8:05pm. "Fuck it"I mumbled to myself trying to get up. I feel less pain now, I mean emotional pain. I crawled to my bed and climbed up. I took
7:30am...Tiana's POV "Ding Ding"I know I would definitely wake up late, I don't know what's wrong with me I can't just help it . I stared at the wall clock,Goddd!!! it's 7:30am already.I jumped from my bed and dashed to the bathroom. After I had taken my bath, the rest of my dressing was a rushie.I posed in front of the mirror. I think I look okay now. I stucked my phone inside my jacket breast pocket and plugged in my earphones to my ear to listen to Back to you by Selena Gomez.I was about to rush the stairs when I remembered my mum, I paused; confused. I don't just want to see her but I must.I reluctantly dragged my legs to her door. I knocked patiently waiting for response."The door is not locked" She said following the sound of my knock. I creeped in to find her eyes glued to her phone."I am leaving for school"I said waiting to be ignored."Bye" she replied not looking at me. Then I saw some five hundred Naira notes on a nearby table beside me."I am taking this money alo
Tiana's POVI was still at the entrance of the lockeroom with the paper in my hand. I couldn't stop staring at it with so much pain. I don't deserve this even if I wasn't his type.I picked up the remains of my broken self and put on the best of my smile on my face and pretend as if nothing happened. Because if I don't, I'm about to whack garnished beans if I loose concentration on reading.I dusted my book that dropped on as a result of excess thinking and shrugged off the remaining pain off my body. The piece of paper dropped on the floor. As I bend to pick it up I read it once and broke down again. I used my left palm to clean my face."Hey bby doll!" I looked up to see Tinashe Benjamin. The upcoming cheerlady of Stockfield high. Another name for perfect is Tinashe Benjamin only that she isn't that good at academics, but this girl is fucking hot. Pink small lips,brown eyes, and natural facial beauty. She have this pear shape that gets my class boys on their knees. No wonder why Bl
Tiana's POV2:35pmI just got home now. I couldn't find my mum at home and I sighed. it's something I've got used to.I laid on the bed with my back, trying to figure out what happened today. I laughed at myself hailing myself for what I did to him even though a strong feeling of insecurity have overwhelmed me.Will he hit me back? No, he doesn't hit girls but that doesn't make him a fool. I was still trying to figure out a kind of punishment he would give a girl like me when I thought my phone?Where the hell is my phone?? Or has he taken it as a sign of punishment?? He can't do anything else but not my phone!Just then Patricia came in. I raised my face up and gave a look of what_can_do_for_you??"Benard said you forgot your phone in car, so here you go"she said, handing over the phone to me.My face softened and I smiled"Ohhhh thanks alot I do appreciate extend my gratitude to him"I said as she leaves and I bolted the door behind her.I collapsed on the bed and began to check my
Tiana's POV7:30amI came down from the car with random thoughts flowing on my little head. My heart kept skipping beats like mad. Then I offered a silent prayer.O God, as am about to enter the class may I not encounter evil (Blake).Then I made my way to the class. I was just about to step on varanda when I saw him running towards the direction of Mr. Jaiye's office. Probably for submitted notes. When I saw him, my legs failed me. Like he knew I was beside him, he turned and stopped. I had wanted to run back but I my legs were dead.He shrugged off and continue his race.Hallelujah!!I entered the class, went for my literature textbook. Our literature teacher might want to distribute our scripts back to us. I went back to class immediately. All these while I never saw Blake and I was grateful for.As I was busy thanking God for his grace, Blake entered with the literature teacher.Gbam!!What made me choke was that he was coming towards me where as, our seats were no way together.
Tiana's POVI got home thirty minutes later. The traffic pitied me today. "Mom?" I called settling on the couch. She was so engrossed with the conversation she was having with a guy that only God knows that she might noticed I was around or she intentionally ignored me."Huh!Kini yen?" She asked as if I was disturbing her from doing something relevant."Hey! Let me greet my baby" the empty headed dude said turning to me." My name is Michael Bamidele,but you can call me Mike."Should I now be running away?He gestured an handshake and I just keep staring at the crook. Then my mum shot me a death glare that made me to reluctantly gave in my hand. And removed it immediately."What's your name pretty" he asked with this sheepish grin refusing to leave his face."Tiana" I murmured softly."What a beautiful name for a beautiful girl like you. Baby you've got a beautiful name for this girl" he said the last statement to my mum.My mum was just beaming with smiles like a person that won a big
7:35am"Are you not to going to school today, Blake, and you're still on your ned!" Blaire yelled nosily, waking me up from my sweet slumber."Wake up!" She was already beside me in my room, shoving the blanket off my body and hitting the pillow on my head."Fuck!" I groaned and rolled from her."Fuck?!" She laughed hysterically. "Wake up and dress up for school, thank goodness we are not going to same school, this is not a matter of wait for me" she laughed againWe were not attending same school; I liked it like that. At least; she's free from wicked claws of boys that lost their girlfriends through me and would be willing to take revenge from any kind of sister; even if it's a day old baby. Mad boys."Better be going,am not leaving this room till noon" I replied trying to cover myself with my hands. The harsh breeze blew on my body and made me felt like screaming."Mummy, Blake doesn't want to go to school"she screamed over to our mum and I felt like covering her mouth. It was more
Blake's POV3:05pm"Looks like someone's getting better" Nicholas noted, grinning before I pulled him in for a sideway bro hug. My other hand was glued to the drip injection.Drake, Justin and others got the same. Some of girls were there as well; Tinashe, Clare, Halima, Oyindamola and Damilola.If only one was among; I won't even be bothered if others never came.We'll she's not here, and I must appreciate those who came. I gave Tinashe a kiss on her cheek; everybody was shocked, that's unexpected. Even herself could not hide the surprise look on her face. In fact, I was surprised at myself.Anything to get her out of my brain.Other girls got a wave. (I cannot come and kill myself).Tinashe sat beside me on the bed holding my hand. Weird and unexpected abi? I pushed her away and disgraced her yesterday yet she's here to check on me. I never did that to her (Tiana) and she's behaving like deputy Jesus.Everyone sighed coincidentally at once; it won't last (Tinashe's sudden treatment).