The unexplainable expression in Uno's face was still etched on my mind the moment we found out that we are pregnant. He bought me three kinds of pregnancy test kits and paced back and forth, he didn't even go out of the bathroom even when I am taking a pee. He just waited for me, leaning against the sink while biting his lips or playing with his fingers.
Two lines appeared on both three kits and after that, he screamed like a crazy man saying "I am going to be a father!" and jumped with a wide smile plastered on his face.
He was happy, that was what I know. I only watched how pleasant his laughter, how excited he looked like, and how his eyes glistened at that time, and I just stared at him...trying to remember every detail that is etched on his face and careful not to miss anything.
Because moments like that are priceless and can be seen in a limited time. From that night, he didn't let me do things. He just told me that he will buy books to search for our baby
Uno is not cheating on me. Uno is not cheating again. Not when we are already married and having our firstborn.Those were the words I chanted inside my mind as I tap my fingers at my forearms. My arms were crossed, same as my legs as I leaned my back at the sofa's backrest. It was already late, about ten pm and I should be sleeping by now but the things that I saw in Uno's shirt were etched on my mind.No matter how hard I try to convince myself that it's just nothing, I know there is something going on. I can't sleep with those things running inside my mind. The thought of Uno, hugging another girl to the point that her scent transferred to his shirt makes me want to cry. But I am still having a glint of hope that Uno will not repeat the things that my parents did.I don't want to make conclusions, I don't want to be like the old Farrah who closed her ears and mind to the things that she should know. The only thing that makes it different right now is that we
My hand felt like they are weak, my fingers trembled, making the holder of the paper bag crash against the tiled floor. My eyes widened as I glanced at the people in front of me. My lips are parted, and my heart slowly felt like it was being stabbed by knives. The booming heartbeats felt like they want to go out of my ribcage as a mixture of wrath and grief gushed inside my system.My legs felt wobbly, but not so weak to stop me. The next thing I knew, I am already pacing towards Uno's wooden table and pulling the hair of the girl."What the fuck is the problem with you, Uno?!" I huffed. My fingers curled against the Hazel-colored hair of the woman in front of me."Ah!" The girl shrieked in pain as I made my hold more intense. I can't believe this!"You bitch! You have no dignity! Dirty!" I yelled continuously."Farrah what the hell!" Uno's voice thundered. He hastily stood from his swivel chair and turned to remove my hands from his mistress' hair
I opened my eyes when I felt a pain on my stomach. I groaned and wandered my eyes around the whole room. White walls, a closed room with a small window at the right side covered with blinds welcomed my eyes. The room was almost silent, except the small noise coming from the room's air conditioner and the ticking of a machine beside my bed. I tried to pull myself up using my right hand and grunted when I felt the stinging pain on my lower body.The door opened and revealed Vanessa's troubled face, behind him is Dylan with the same expression, but with food on his hand.I furrowed my brows."What happened? What's with your faces?" I asked and touched my tummy. My eyes darted at my dress, and then I remembered, I slipped on my unit's bathroom and lost consciousness.My heart started to beat wildly, I touched belly. It feels so strange like I lost something inside me. Fear crept inside me. My heart beats loud as the corners of my eyes heated, my chest tighten
"What do I deserve to know, bastard?" Uno, in his brows puckered in a frown and usual scowl, uttered in a deep voice. He was wearing his rectangular glasses, his hair divided in the middle, and his white long sleeves polo curled up to his forearms."Uno..." I licked my lips and carefully walk towards him barefoot."Is there something that you don't want to tell me, Farrah? What is it?" His dark eyes darted at me. His face was already dark, his lips pursed in a grim line, and jaw clenching tightly. I bit the lower inner part of my lips and shook my head."Nothing, Dylan told me that...that he will tell you that I don't want to eat. That's it." I held his arm, my head bowed a bit, refusing to meet his eyes and be caught that I am only lying.I saw in my peripheral vision that he scanned me from head to foot, and then I felt his hand touching my waist. My heart hammered fast and my cheeks burned in both nervousness and embarrassment."The Doctor told
This life is so unfair to me. I wish I could ask the creator to reincarnate me to a life where I can be happy. Not like this. Not when I have everything that I want but not everything that I need. I hate that I got all the riches but not the life I am longing for.Everything that you are asking for won't be given to you unless you make an effort. What level of effort should I exert just to get my happiness? What more can I do just so I can finally have the life I am trying to hold?It was almost. Almost a true love, almost a great every day, almost a happy family. I thought when I married Uno and watched how happy he is when we finally succeeded in making a family will make my unsaid dreams come true. I thought that maybe I could do the things I wasn' able to do with my family.I thought that I would wake up first and cook for them, wake them up with a kiss and call them to eat with me. The things that I saw my mother doing was my silent dreams. Those things tha
"I told you I don't want to eat! When on Earth will you get everything that I will say? I don't want you here!"His voice was loud and harsh. His eyes were red, face contorting and his breathings are fast as he pointed at the door. He stood up and walk towards me, making me step back until my back was leaning against the cold, white wall of our room.His bloodshot eyes made my legs and lips tremble, my hands were also shaking and my tears won't stop from falling down my cheeks."I'm sorry...I just want to make you eat and–""I told you to leave the house! I told you I no longer want to be with you but it seems like when you slipped, a screw also fell from your head that you wouldn't comprehend anything! Fuck!" He put his left hand beside my waist, his fingers spreading wide as it sticks on the wall and the other flew from his side down to the concrete, making me jump and close my eyes in shock and fear."Uno I'm sorry, but I don't want to lea
"Annulment papers..." I whispered. The papers fell on the floor, my hands are shaking as I darted my confused eyes at him."I already signed it. Yours is the only thing that is needed to pass that. You can also review the terms if you want." His eyes were blank, he was just there, standing without showing any expression on his face.A lump in my throat built up as I sit and pick the papers one by one. A tear fell from my eye. This thing hurts. I just thought that we could still make all of this work but he was so fast. I am still hoping for a chance to make us whole again but he already broke my heart for the nth time.I stood up and throw the envelope on the sofa."W-why are you doing this? Do you not love me anymore?" I asked in a tremulous voice. My lips quivered. I walk towards him, closing the gap between us. "Is this so easy for you that you will just throw me out of your life? Am I some garbage that can be disposed when you no longer want to use, U
After all these years, I realized that my dream was too much. It was almost unreachable. Only a few people would be able to achieve and get a hold of it and they are so lucky.When I was a child, I thought, happiness is one of the easiest things you could get every day of your life. Whenever your Mom gets out and will go home with a barbie, whenever your father will carry in his arms while you are pretending to be Darna or superman, whenever one of your classmates will greet you a happy birthday. Those were the simplest things which can make your mood so good and brings you happiness.But as I grow up, I noticed that I am losing my grip. I couldn't get a hold of it longer than I used to. The contentment that I got was already shortlived and I couldn't accept how it slowly vanished on my hand. Happiness is not some kind of a normal dream which you can get after you graduated nor get married.It's not something you can hold onto for the rest of your life. I alread