"Hahah yes hahhaah"
"NO, I won't do this" I scream with determination.
"Oh, baby it's not a matter of whether or not you want to. You simply can't sweetheart hahaha just do it"
"Braze please please please don't. Stay with me. Look at me,you can do it don't close you eyes" His sobs audible as he begs me to help him.
Then the screams came...
*Beep Beep Beep Beep*
"Braze what the hell, turn that damn thing off!"
I roll my eyes as I slowly turn off the alarm clock while closing my eyes once again. I swear to god Jace voice woke me up more than the alarm clock but at the same time, I'm grateful. I turn around intending to flip over on my stomach which apparently was a grave mistake because the next thing I know I hear my bedroom door open at the same time as I fall off the bed.
"Does my perfect face baffle you so much? Seriously Braze I thought you've gotten over that already but well...I can't really blame you"
I sit up with a flushed face and just stare at Alex.
"I wasn't baffled I was just trying to flip over at the same time as you...nevermind what are you doing here?" Because Alex never visits my room. Not him. Not Jace. Not anymore at least. They used to. We used to always sit on my bed watching movie and eat popcorn. The keywords in that sentence are "used to". Past tense. Because after the incident that happened a few months back everything changed. They changed. I've tried multiple times to tell them the truth about what really happened that night at Tommy's party but I couldn't. I wanted to but I couldn't. I want to but I can't for the sake of my family. The family that started looking at me like a freak and like I don't fit in.
In this family adopted Alex is the oldest (my parents didn't think they would be able to have kids so they adopted Alex) and then there is Jace and then Sam that died before I was even born. He died when he was one month old in a car crash that everyone survived but him. Then there is me. Fourth in the family. But am I really? It feels like I'm the oldest when Alex and Jace always get drunk and I always have to look after them (not that they're thankful nowadays) or when I always wake them up to school (except for today) and prepare their things and make sure they actually go to school. They used to look at me with gratitude but not anymore. Not after that.
"Mom told me to get you because apparently, we start earlier at this school."
Oh yeah.. new college. They previously went to United high but they moved during the summer break and recently enrolled in Thailand high, they started at 8.20.
"When do we start," I ask tiredly.
"7.30. Seven. Fucking. Thirty. Can you believe it?"
"7.30...SEVEN THIRTY?? Alex, it's 7.00 we'll never make it! It takes fifteen minutes to get to school and I have to get dressed a-an-and..!" I keep on blabbering, clearly stressed out. This was their FIRST day and they are going to be late! Way to go Braze. First impression=ruined.
I'm a straight-A student and I have to impress my teachers but first I have to take a shower because I barely got any sleep today thanks to the nightmares and I'm all sweaty. I never had nightmares up until that day a few months back. Now I hear the screams in every single dream like it just happened and I try not to think about it when I already live through it every single haunting night.
I jump inside the shower and finish within ten minutes and when I come back inside my room Alex is already gone. I grab a normal black sweater that covers my arms and put it on me with black jeans and black boots while I with great stress try to multitask and brush my hair at the same time. The result is not that..satisfying with my hair standing up almost spiky from the shower but it'll have to do.
We arrive ten minutes late with a scolding look from the receptionist but she says she would go easy on us because it's our first day. I think her name was Aline? She each hands us our schedule and we go our separate ways. Alex is a senior, Jace starts the second year and I start the first year of my highschool.
I knock on my classroom door nervously. Great, now I have to excuse myself for coming late to the teacher and on top of that, I also have to introduce myself. I never come late and I'm every definition of awkward. Socially and in general. I have no idea what to say and just end up stammering and eventually say something that shouldn't have been saying. I usually prefer to just plug in my earphones and shut out the world.
I wonder how Alex and Jace are handling this. They're probably not having as much trouble as me. They can literally walk into a room and win over everyone's heart like they're some sort of Cupid in teenage form. Well, I'm the opposite. I'm like a demon in the teenage form: you avoid them and you're good. Okay, not a demon..maybe a zombie. When I do think about it that's kind of how my previous classmates looked at me. They looked at me like I'm about to start a zombie apocalypse and infect everybody with my "obvious" nerdiness. Like seriously guys? Just because I'm quiet and distant and have straight A:s doesn't mean I'm a nerd.. it just means I care about my flipping future and that I'm socially awkward. I actually do have pretty interesting hobbies.
Okay, I have to stop myself from thinking because apparently, the teacher didn't hear me because I've been standing here for the past ten minutes. I knock again and this time a large muscular blonde man opens the door while slowly raising one of his eyebrows and stares down at me. Literally. Stares DOWN at me because hell, this man is hugeeee. Is this dude the fucking teacher?
"M-my name is Braze .I-I'm new" I mumble fiddling with my earbuds.
"Kid, I seriously can't hear a thing you're saying if you're even talking at all"
I start blushing. This man's voice is seriously scary and then all of a sudden he gestures me to come into the classroom and I turn to see what in my eyes looks like one hundred eyeballs staring straight at me and my blush deepens.
The man continues sarcastically:“Could anyone here hear what he just said?”Some guy from the front row raises his hand and I’m relieved that someone decides to save my soul. That is until the guy actually opens his stupid looking mouth and answers:“Something with…” he says and imitates my incomprehensible mumble and people start laughing. I wish he never opened his goddamn mouth.“Shut up Aldertree!”What the hell? This teacher is something else. Then he turns to me”And you. Mind telling me who you are because I have never seen you before?” Then he eyes me from top to toe.”Are you someone’s little brother?” A lot of people tried to stop themselves from laughing again .It’s not th
The rest of the lesson is less embarrassing and after I look at my schedule I see that I have Hodge in English, Math and P.E. So I'm going to have this exact class and that exact same teacher in three subjects. Two of them I have three times a week each . Fuck. When the lesson ends I quickly get the hell out of there completely not hearing Sammy calling my name because of my loud music.The day goes smoothly and then it's lunch. I take one look at the food and I want to throw up. I look around in the cafeteria and notice Jace and Alex sitting in their own groups clearly having made friends already. There were times where I could have just walked over to one of them and started talking but not anymore.Flashes of the night from Tommy's party starts to manifest and I could hear the screams and the laughter and...."BRAZE!" I ju
I run down the hallway to find the school bathroom turning my head left and right. Then when I turn left again I see the Group of Seven and Oh. My. God. What. Is. What?!. And I run into a trashcan.To keep me from actually falling into the trashcan, I push with my hands in front of me trying to balance myself but end up falling on the floor.A lot of people start to laugh and I look up at them. Or more specifically I look up at one guy because how can I not? He is gorgeous. He is mesmerizing. He is basically shining the light of beauty into my eyes. Mr Popular has smile applied to his face but it's not too much and it's not too little. It's fucking perfect. His eyes are so flawlessly drawn and his face is just as flawless and his styled black hair matches everything and his skin is goals and..."Are you okay in there?" A girl next to His majesty asks and I think it's either Nee? Nia?My cheeks tur
I spend the last three days studying my ass off because not only is Hodge’s mouth big but also his homework so I haven’t been able to watch the Fast and Furious films. So here I am on my way to our meeting place outside Starbucks with no clue as to what we’re going to watch because I didn’t watch the trailer either. Not only that but Ash texted us yesterday saying something that almost made me cancel.Ash:GUYS I'm SO SORRY BUT I KIND OF TOLD ALEXANDER THAT WE’RE GOING AND HE IS STILL SUSPICIOUS OF BRAZE AND CLARE SO HE ALSO WANTS TO COME. HE AND THE REST OF THE GANG I AM SO SORRY.First I didn’t understand why only me and Clare and not Sammy as well. Turns out Sammy is in love with Mark but Clare don't have any crush. Wow, good thing Alexander doesn’
“...just breath with me. In and out. Inhale. Exhale. Slowly. Focus on my eyes and only my eyes and don’t think about anything else."Brandon.I do as I’m told and it’s starting to get better because now I finally see his eyes. That eye. Are they even real eyes? I know they’re dark brown because I’ve seen them before but in this light, they are golden green-like even though it’s impossible. They are so fascinating that all I can do is stare.“Good. Really good. You’re doing great Little Flower. Now count down from ten with me..10...9...8…”Brandon continues and what did he just call me?I do as I’m told again and after a few minutes it’s over and reality kicks in and I start to blush because Mr Sexy just saw me in this state and now I’m noticing the hand he has on my back and the hand he has o
Thankfully I don't have to think about food anymore because Brandon enters Starbucks instead and I just follow him silently. Did he sense my panic when he said that we should go out and eat? He did say his mother is a psychologist maybe he got some of her observing talents? Or I'm just overanalyzing things but I really don't want to be an inconvenience to him or be the reason that he's having the most boring day in his life.We sit down at an empty table and a girl comes over to take our order. So, what would a normal growing teenage boy order?" I will take a grande chocolate chip cream frappuccino. And with blended cream of course." Brandon says and winks at the girl. The girl smiles and winks back and then she looks at me with an almost annoyed expression. He ordered what now?
" You know what I like about you? You're honest and say what's in your mind like the first time we met. I don't think I've ever heard someone get my name wrong or call me "His Majesty" straight to my face. That's what makes you so fun to be with. You're straight up when it comes to things."I smile at that because me blurting things out has always gotten me into trouble before with mostly my parents. And then I remember our first meeting. Our first horrible meeting and I can feel panic starting to build up and I open my mouth to explain myself but Brandon beats me to it and changes the subject:"Your siblings huh? Alex and Jace? I must say I enjoy Jace because come on, his style is not to compete with! Of course, that applies to everyone except for me I could easily win because I'm fabulous, but that Alex though? No thank
The girl probably going to go around all day or week expecting a phone call and will she get it? Maybe, maybe not. And if she doesn't get it maybe she'll get sad, disappointed or angry and all because she fancied the boy laughing in front of me that called her an angel.But still, I laugh and not because of what he did to the girl but because of the cheesy pickup line but still, I feel extremely guilty afterwards. He really is a total asshole but somehow. I really enjoy being with him and I don't think I've ever laughed this much in a really long time.Then Brandon starts to talk about his group of friends while we drink our frappuccinos and I briefly comment on how much I ship Alexander and Ash. Brandon entire face lits up and he starts to talk about how much he also loves them together and how much they love each other i