Isn't it crazy how your whole life can change just from the few people you meet? How they have the ability to trick you, manipulate your mind and have you bending over to their own will.
The fact that one person can make you change your whole outlook on life and how you see yourself is scary and truly amazing too. That they can make you forget your morals and true values.What you believe in and how you look at life. That was K for me. He made me feel good about myself and accept myself. True we had our differences but I like to believe we helped each other grow...apart eventually.My name is Rina, and I'm running away from home, something I seem to be very good at, running away when things get tough, but that's a story for another day."Are you sure this is what you want?" My mom asked me over the phone and I rolled my eyes."Mma, I'm already in Cape Town. What difference will it make?" I asked and she squealed."Don't get mad, but I already had purchased the return ticket for today and you still have about thirty minutes to turn back," She rushed out and I rolled my eyes. Why am I not surprised?"Mma. It's not like eighth grade this time, don't you think it's time I grow to be independent, like you?" I asked almost pleading for her to let me go."Yeah...but you could still do it here, at home. With me your mother.""You know the reason why I chose Cape Town.""But is it the only reason?""It's a good reason. But I'll talk to you once I reach Mr S' house. Wait, you told him I'll be staying there while I finalise everything right?""Suuurrreee," She dragged out, which meant she didn't call him. Did she really believe that I would turn around like I did last time? In my defence, I didn't want to be far away from my mom, same as it is now but I don't want to be around...him."Mma.""I'll call him now! I forgot. I'm so sorry baby," she didn't forget, she just didn't call because of her high hopes."Ha ngoho." [Wow]"Don't you say it!" She hates it that I tell her she's getting old every time she forgets something important. I like playing around with her."I won't. So what should I do, order a taxi to go to his place or wait for him to come get me?" I leaned against my suitcase."He is on his way. I'm sorry again. I'll stay on the phone until he gets there," she said and I chuckled."I won't tell you what he's wearing," I teased and she whined as I laughed at her."Why not!" My mom and I were very close like sisters people would say. She would tell me whenever she's got a boyfriend and at first it sucked because it wasn't my dad but as I got older I understood.My dad can go jump over a bridge for all I care."Because...I don't know. Just ask him to take a selfie or something," she's been dating Mr S for a year now, they met when I was in grade eleven and she played hard to get for about a whole year and she finally gave in to his charms.I honestly gave in when I met him and he bought me something my mom didn't want to and sent me money every month. So I've always been on Team Mr S."Argh, whatever. Anyways guess who came by when I dropped you off?""Who?" Please don't say Andii, please don't say his name."Andani!" Shit!"Yay," I said, lacking enthusiasm and she carried on talking about him despite knowing how I feel about him."That boy was beautiful though Rina," she said and I rolled my eyes."Not everywhere," I said and she sighed."Why don't you try listening to his side of the-""Whoops, mom Mr S just arrived, talk later," I interrupted her because 1. I don't want to talk about it and 2. Mr S is really here."Let me talk to him.""Call him," I hung up and I felt really bad about it but I was angry."Hey, sweetheart," he hugged me and took my bags from me, "I'm sorry I took time," he said and I shook my head."No, it's okay. It was my mistake, I didn't check if mom called you.""Oh, but I hope you're hungry. Martha has cooked up a storm upon your arrival.""She really didn't have to do that.""She wanted to," he placed my bags in the backseat of his car and closed my door as well. Such a gentleman."You guys are so sweet," I smiled at him and he kissed my forehead. This man is awesome and I'm glad my mom met him."I'm glad she met me too," He said and I looked at him shocked."I said that out loud?""You have no idea how much stuff you say out loud," he laughed and I shrank in my seat. "It's not a bad thing."His phone rings and I see my mother's name written across the screen, although it's not really written as 'Grace' it's much more...in a relationship writing."Hey, baby," Eew."Hey. Is she angry at me? I mentioned Andii and she got really angry and hung up the phone.""You're on loudspeaker baby. Are you angry, Rina?" I shook my head no and he smirked knowing that I don't want to talk to her yet. "She's fine, she's got her headphones on," I gave him a thumbs up and grinned, he really knows how to cover up for me."The way you two cover up for each other is annoying! But since I know you are listening Rina, I'm sorry I talked about him and I will try my best not to bring him up okay? I love you both. Bye."I finally understand why I'm attracted to toxic men, my mom doesn't have the best history with my dad nor do I but what I've heard from her is that he was quite the toxic one and she always seemed to be blind when it came to his red flags.So am I, I was blind when it came to Andii."Bye," We both muttered. Every time we came to Mr S' house I was amazed! This house is enormous!"What is it you do again?" I asked as I looked out the window, the large black gate opened up as we drove in through the driveway. Mr S chuckled at my expression and said."No matter how many times you've been here, you always wear the same expression.""Because it's hard to believe you're just a lawyer," I said as I got out of the car. "Can't we just move in with you?" I pouted as I looked up at the house."Believe me, I've tried to convince your mother but she's being really- how do I say this?""Hard-headed and wanting it to be just us two because she doesn't trust any men anymore?" I asked and his look told me that he had already thought of that. "She's just waiting for you to pop the question," I joked smiling and he looked surprised."W-what?" He stuttered and I laughed."I'm just kidding, it's not time yet," I waved my hand as I entered the house, such a beautiful house. "Are you sure you're just a lawyer?""For now, yes," he nodded, smiling. What does that mean? "Your room is still arranged the same as it was last time.""Thank you, Mr S, I'm gonna go take a nap. See you at dinner," I said after greeting Martha who was still in the kitchen cooking."Alright, I'll be working if you need me."I walk away to the bedroom he gave me last time, we've been coming to this house for our holidays and it never gets boring. I guess it's the privacy in this place.I jump onto the king-sized bed and stare at the ceiling before falling asleep. I hope college is way better than high school ever was.So here I am standing in front of the administration office about to get my student card and dorm key. I'm not a fan of staying in dorms, from past high school experience that I don't wish to discuss, but I guess this will have to do for the next three months until I have got enough to rent out that beautiful apartment, I saw in an ad. I already called the owner and he said I'll have to live with a roommate, and that's cool with me...as long as the person is clean and doesn't mind listening to music. The kind of music I listen to is considered weird, but that's only by the narrow-minded population. I love listening to artists that aren't given enough credit, I would like for them to receive recognition but I don't want that to happen as well. I'm in my dorm on the third floor and as soon as I step in, I'm welcomed by a short girl with hazel eyes, short curly hair like an afro and a sweet dark chocolate skin colour almost a replica of Lup
Butterflies in my stomach and legs wobbly like jelly as we reach an isolated place which is surprisingly beautiful. I think we're in some artsy environment because there are paintings all over the walls and blank canvases all around and it smells like paint so yeah. DID I REALLY JUST FOLLOW SOMEONE I DON'T KNOW TO AN ISOLATED PLACE FILLED WITH PAINT? He leads me to the stage and I immediately sit on it, my legs dangling on the edge, I put all of my torso weight on my hands and lean back admiring the room. I see Ian looking at me from the corner of my eye, grinning. "What?" I ask him matching his smile. "Nothing, I was just admiring your beauty Ri," he says with a wide smile...he shortened my already short name to 'Ri'! I'm already thinking he is my boyfriend' and I can't help the blush that rises to my cheeks after what he just said...I'm beautiful! "Cheesy line, but thanks," I try to
School begins today after such a heavy weekend. From Zo's endless disappointed stares and getting used to the campus, I'm pretty hyped for class. I get in and choose a seat somewhere in the middle but good enough to hear what the lecturer will be saying. Some guy sits next to me and he's really good looking like amazing! He's got nice, actually perfect sharp cheekbones, beautiful eyebrows-bushy like. His lips are just wonderful and I wonder how great it would be to kiss those. Wait why I'm I thinking like that...I'm attracted to Ian, YES I AM. His hair is properly styled and looks very good...a guy who takes care of his hair is to be appreciated. He wears a grey shirt that says 'I don't like being looked at.' And I feel as if he's telling me because he shifted his body in order for me to read that. Jerk! "Hi, I'm Rina," I told him with the most pleasant smile I could muster, I'm sure he can tell it's forced...
Three months later. So much time has passed and life has been a bubble of bliss. Ian and I are still going strong but lately, I feel as if he is pulling away. When I asked him about it he said I was looking for a fight. "Baby, is there anything wrong with us?" "What do you mean?" "Tell me if I'm wrong, but lately it feels as if we're not connected like we used to, are you comfortable being with me?" "Where's all this coming from Rina!?" he raised his voice and YEAH he called me Rina! That hurt so bad...what happened to 'sweetcakes' "Woah! Why are you shouting? It was just an innocent question. No need to get all riled up about it." I raised my voice as well. He sighed and enveloped me in a hug. "You're being insecure because I'm about to leave, but sweetcakes there's no need
My alarm rings at six o'clock to wake me up from the deep slumber I was in. It is time to face the world again I guess. I get out of my bed and go into my wardrobe to get my towel and toiletries and leave the room for the bathroom. I go over to the bathtub and open up water to fill it and brush my teeth by the bathroom sink. When the water has been filled, the room is a little bit steamy, I get in and soak my body. It feels so good. I don't know why my muscles hurt so much but this right here is heaven. After I'm done bathing I wrap my body with the fluffy towel Zoé bought me as a 'house warming present'. I get out of the bathroom and bump into Khalil. He is in nothing but his boxers only and looks really cute after he just woke up but is very grumpy. "Watch where you going, Rina!" "Good Morning to you too Khalil," I say with a smile and leave him, I am not going to let him ruin my day by his negativit
The party is going great and the atmosphere is fun, but what has me worried is the tension I'm sensing between Ian and Zoé. What the hell is going on here that I don't know. Thuso also seems to be looking at him with pure disgust but when she looks at me, it's a look of sympathy. I get up from Ian's lap to go grab some water, I feel no need to drink alcohol because I feel shit is about to blow up and I need to be sober for it. "Where are you going, baby?" Ian asked me while holding my wrist. "Why does it matter to you!?" Zoé asked angrily, woah! "I wasn't talking to you Zoé, mind your business!" Ian spat out and Zoé got up to stand in front of Ian. "You know what Ian, you're full of shit! I can't believe you outta all people would do that, how could you be so cruel and selfish. Screw you!" "Okay...what is going on..." but none of them answer me "Zoé? Ian? Why y'all f
"We were just giving Riley what she asked for," K answers with a smirk. "Well you gave me more and I'm glad. That was truly heavy." "Whatever man. I'm outta this game!" Ian answers and gets up but not before looking at me as if to say something but he doesn't. Everyone leaves, Khalil and I stay behind. "So, do you think it worked?" He asks, breaking the silence. "What?" I am confused because I'm still recovering from what just happened. And as if he knows his smirk just grows bigger "I'm that good huh?" it wasn't a question. More of a declaration that I laughed and punched his arm."Shut up!" He gets up, then helps me up. We part ways once we get into the kitchen. I sit on top of the marble counter lost in my thoughts which is when I smell some alcohol fanning my face. I look at the source and see Ian pissed off. Why is he? "So tell me how long has i
So it's been two weeks since Ian left for New York and it's been really hard walking around as if I'm okay when I'm not. Well, Zoé and Thuso have been there for me but it's not enough and Khalil has been behaving although he has his days of just wanting to piss me off. Nothing new there though. Well, the semester is about to end which means it's time for me to go home, super excited about being around family, happy energies will help me heal right? Well, I do hope so because a girl is hurt! Got heartbroken the same way by two different guys. Somebody should really help me choose boyfriends because I suck at it! We are all in my apartment and by all I mean Zoé and Thuso and we are just chilling. Talking about what we'll be doing during the holidays, oh and I probably forgot to mention Zoé and Thuso are living together now...and they're the most beautiful couple I've ever seen. I pray for eternal love in their relationshi