Is it worth it?

Kabanata dalawa

Bago niya ako ulit mahalikan.

A phone rang.  We both looked where the sound was coming from.

Nasa loob ng bag ko. Shit Shit Shit 

Anong oras na?

Bumangon ako at dali-dali kong hinanap ang phone ko sa bag.

Shit. I'm sure it's Dad.

I saw who's calling. Wait. Unknown number? Sino ito?

I felt Leo's body at my back. 

"Sino yan?" tanong niya.

"I don't know. It's unregistered." sagot ko.

"Answer it." he demanded.

Niyakap niya ako sa likuran ko.

"Hello? Who's this?" I asked the caller.

"Ms. Cindy? This is Simon. Tumawag sa akin si Mr. Lopez. Kailangan na po nating umuwi." Oh. The driver.

I totally forgot about him. Wrong timing.

"Just give me a couple of minutes. We're almost done. Just stay in the car." I dropped the call before he could speak and put my phone in silent mode.

"Bodyguard? Maaga pa." Leo pouted.

I chuckled. Napaka-cute niya kapag ginawa niya iyon. He looked like a baby with tantrums.

"That's Simon, my new driver. Dad gave me my dream car for my birthday. He said I can't drive it yet because I'm still a minor. Apparently." Tumalikod ako at tumingin sa kanya.

"A new driver huh. So, where are we? Couple of minutes? Well I can do that." he smirked while pulling me again to bed. 

Oh this guy.

"Babe, do you have protection?" Well, we need to be careful. Hindi ako handa na magkaroon ng anak sa ngayon. I'm still enjoying life.

This is my first time but we studied sex ed. I know some basics. Besides, my friends talked about their experiences all the time.

"Syempre, always ready." Binuksan niya ang bedside cabinet.

I saw three boxes of condoms. Woah. Bakit ang dami mo niyan?

"That's a lot of protection there hmm." Hindi ko mapigilang mag salita.

Tumawa siya.

"Don't give me that look baby. It's in a different flavour. I will let you choose." Kinuha niya ang lahat ng mga kahon at ibinigay sa akin.

"Flavour for what? Geez, I don't know condoms have flavours." 

We both laughed.

"Come on, pumili ka. Strawberry? Chocolate? Or vanilla?" Tanong niya habang hinahaplos ang mga binti ko. It tickles me.

"Ewan ko, baka Vanilla?" This is embarrassing.

"Plain vanilla for my baby." He threw back the two boxes inside the cabinet like he's playing basketball.

Binuksan niya ang isang kahon at kumuha ng isang packet ng condom. Hinubad niya ang kanyang polo at doon ko nakita ang kanyang tattoo na dibdib. It doesn't bother me that he has tattoos. It made him sexier.

He unbuckled his belt and removed his pants.

I gulped. I guess this is it. He's almost naked and I'm still fully dressed. Should I get naked too?

Umupo ako at pilit inaalis ang damit ko ngunit pinigilan niya ako.

"Let me do that." Dahan-dahan niyang hinila pababa ang damit ko. Tumingin siya sa dibdib ko.

Nag-init ang pisngi ko.

I'm a little conscious. I absentmindedly covered my breasts.

"Huwag kang mahiya. Maganda ka." Nagawa niyang matanggal nang mabilis ang bra ko.

Alam na alam niya ang gagawin. I wonder how many girls does he had sex with? Oh stop it Cindy!

"Fuck, you're so sexy. I can't believe these are mine." He cupped my breast gently. 

I gasped.

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.

His hands travelled down my body. Napapikit ako.

It feels so good. His hands are big and warm.

I opened my eyes when I felt his hand pulling down my underwear.

Nanginginig ang mga paa ko sa sobrang kaba.

He kissed my left breast before pushing me down to bed.

"You're mine Cindy. Your heart. Your body." he cupped my face. Our eyes met.

"I'm yours Leo. All of me." sagot ko.

After saying those words. He attacked my lips. Nararamdaman kong nawawalan ako ng hininga ngunit ayokong tumigil siya. 

He touched me down there. I can feel my heat rising up.

"Ahh baby." I heard my own moan. 

"You like it huh?" He asked. He's gently teasing my nips.

I kissed him this time. Hot.

I'm feeling hot all over my body.

Narinig kong umuungol siya nang hawakan ko ang abs niya.

Ohh those toned muscles. I always wanted to touch this.

Tinanggal niya ng tuluyan ang underwear ko. Tumigil siya saglit at tiningnan ang hubad kong katawan.

"I won't promise you it will not hurt. I'm trying my best to be gentle but fuck. Your body should be illegal. Perfect curves. Shit. Can you feel this? Only you can make me this hard." Inilagay niya ang kanang kamay ko sa loob ng kanyang boxer shorts.

Namula ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagkalalaki niya. 

Bloody hell. He's so huge. I'm suddenly scared. Can it fit inside me?

"Leoo." Hinalikan niya ang tiyan ko. Pababa. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang mga mainit niyang halik.

He travelled lower. His lips are on my peak. I'm embarrassed and in flame at the same time.

"Sweet baby." bulong niya.

My hands are clutching the sheets. Something inside me is building up.

"Baby please. Ahh." Hindi ko makilala ang sarili kong boses. What on earth is this feeling?

"Yes love? You want me to stop?" He teased.

Shit NO!

Before I could protest he kissed me deeper in my glory. Langit. Nasa langit ako ngayon.

A phone rang again. 

Huminto siya at tumingin sa bedside table. Kinuha niya ang phone niya at itinapon sa pader.

I saw the shattered glass of his phone.

"Stop bothering us!" Sigaw niya bago hinalikan ang labi ko.

I can taste myself in his mouth. He cupped both of my breasts while kissing me. Massaging it. Then he put my left niple in his mouth. Every flicked of his tongue makes me arch my back.

"I'm the only one who touches it baby? Tell me." he demanded while cupping again my breast.

Minulat ko ang aking mga mata. “Yes.” tugon ko.

He positioned his manhood in my entrance. Teasing it. 

"Ahh. Babe take me. Please I can't hold it anymore. Please. Love me." I closed my eyes. 

Readying myself.

Instead of his glory, I felt his fingers in my entrance. He gently pushed one finger in. I arched my back once again.

I came in his finger. 

I looked down at him. Catching my breath. Nakangisi siya. So proud of himself. 

"Leo!"

"Sssh. I'm enjoying your first. Like it huh?" he added one finger while pumping me.

I'm losing my sanity. Just don't freaking stop.

Dinoble niya ang galaw niya. I can feel it again. Before I exploded, in one swift motion, he entered me completely. 

And it hurts like hell. I tried to push his chest.

"Stay still baby. I cannot stop now. Mas sasaktan ka. Shhh. Hindi ako gagalaw. Relax lang." he imprisoned my wrists in his hands. 

Umiyak ako. Ang nararamdaman ko lang ngayon ay sakit. May napunit sa loob ko.

"Masakit." Humikbi ako.

Hindi ko akalain na ganito kasakit. Shit.

Dahan-dahan siyang gumalaw habang hinahalikan ang leeg ko.

"Babe masakit talaga." Tumulo ang luha ko. “Hindi ko ata kaya.”

Marahan siyang tumingin sa akin at hinalikan ang luha ko. 

"I know, sorry. It will pass. Pangako.” He played with my niples while gently going in and out of me.

True to his words. I can feel pleasure in my pain. 

"Hmm." Daing ko.

"There you go. Hmm. You're so soft." he nibbled my left ear.

Napahawak ako sa buhok niya.

"Shit I'm coming." He moved faster. 

Me too. I came in his last thrust before he pulled his manhood and spilled his seeds in my belly.

"Sorry. I got excited. I forgot to wear the condom." He collapsed besides me.

Pareho kaming nakahabol ng hininga nang marinig namin ang limang katok sa pinto.

"Who's there?" Sigaw ni Leo habang isinuot ang kanyang boxers.

He gave me a box of wet wipes to clean myself. 

Aww. It still hurts down there.

"Dude, we need to get Cindy home. Her dad is on his way to Arri's house right now." Narinig kong sumigaw si Paul.

"Shit. Baby can you walk?" kinuha niya ang mga damit ko at binigay sa akin.

"Babe, ano ang gagawin natin?" Nagmamadali akong nagbihis.

Tawagan mo si Arriana. Sabihin mo sa kanya na papunta na tayo at huwag hayaang makapasok ang Daddy mo sa loob ng bahay." Bilin niya habang nagbibihis.

Tumingin siya sa akin bago buksan ang pinto.

"Ready?" tanong niya.

Tumango ako.

Hawak niya ang kamay ko habang nasa elevator kami. Si Paul at Steven ay parehong tahimik. Nararamdaman ko ang tensyon.

We're all dead if dad finds out.

I almost ran to Leo's car. Shit it hurts.

"Thanks guys. You owe me one." Leo said to the boys before starting the engine.

10:15 na. I should be on my way home. Knowing dad. Napakahigpit niya pagdating sa kanyang curfews.

Tinawagan ko si Arriana at sinabi sa kanya ang plano. She's almost hysterical.

"Tell Leo to drive faster, I don't know what to say to Dad. Your dad called him, any minute he will be here." she's panicking.

Kinakabahan din ako pero kailangan kong magisip ng maayos.

"Arri relax. Leo's doing his best. Hang in there." I dropped the call.

"Sorry baby. Alam kong nasasaktan ka ---

"Okay lang babe. Pag-usapan natin ito pag-uwi natin,, okay? I love you." Hinalikan ko ang pisngi niya.

"I love you too. You know that. I don't want you to be in trouble with your dad." sagot niya.

Iyon ang huling bagay na nais ko ngayon.

Nakita ko si Stef na naghihintay samin sa likuran ng bahay ni Arri. Napatalon siya sa tuwa nang makita ang sasakyan ni Leo.

We hurriedly opened the car door and ran to her.

"Nasaan si Arri? Ano ang nangyari?" tanong ko kay Stef.

"She's at the gate with his Dad. Your dad just arrived too. Halika na." Hinila niya ako sa hagdan.

I looked at Leo while Stef was climbing the ladder.

"Call me. Hihintayin kita." Sumigaw siya.

Tumango ako.

We're at the kitchen when I heard my dad's voice. I stopped running and fixed my dress.

"Tito, they're s-sleeping in my room." I heard Arri. 

"I called her five times and she's not answering." My dad answered.

They're on the stairway when I saw them.

"Dad anong ginagawa mo dito?" Nilingon nilang lahat ang direksyon ko.

"Cindy Anne Lopez, sinabi ko sayo na sagutin mo ang telepono mo kapag tumatawag ako sayo. Akala ko may nangyari na sayo." Bumaba siya para harapin ako.

"I'm sorry I silenced my phone because we're watching a movie, then we fell asleep. I'm fine dad. I'm not a baby anymore." I acted hurt.

Shit Pinagpapawisan na ako.

"Let's go home. Grab your things." Humarap siya sa Daddy ni Arri.

Stef pulled me up stairs. Arri followed us.

We all jumped in joy when Arri closed the door. 

Success. This is my best birthday ever.

"Bitch you owe us big time. We're like ninjas waiting for you to get laid." bulong ni Arriana.

"I will chat with you guys later. Shit. Nakalimutan ko ang bag ko sa condo." All of my things are in there. Luckily I got my phone.

"What's the color of your bag?" Arri asked and ran in her walk in closet. 

"Black birkin." Sagot ko habang inaayos ang buhok ko.

I looked like a mess.

"I don't have a Hermes bag you spoiled bitch." she hissed at me.

"Just get her anything black and square bag Arriana!" Stef looked so tense.

"Sige, naghahanap ako." sagot ni Arriana.

Binigyan ako ni Arri ng isang itim na flap chanel. Magagawa nito

"Thank you girls." Niyakap ko silang dalawa.

"We need a detailed story of what happened. You chat with us okay? I can't wait. But now, go!" Arri exclaimed.

My cheeks burned up.

I'm not a virgin anymore.

Ibinigay ko ang aking sarili kay Leo at hindi ako nagsisisi dito.

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"I know today's your birthday but I don't appreciate what you did. Princess, I'm counting on you. Gusto ko lang na ligtas ka sa lahat ng oras." guilt suddenly embraced my heart.

"Sorry Dad. It won't happen again." Niyakap ko siya.

"Okay, I trust you. Halos hatinggabi na. Matulog ka na. Bukas ang unang araw mo sa opisina." Wait, what?

Anong office?

I gave him a confused look.

"I want you to learn our business. Magiging sayo ito balang araw, kaya bakit hindi ka magsimula ng maaga?" My mouth dropped. It's not that I don't like it, I'm just shocked. I'm going to the office tomorrow and he informed me just right now?

"Are you being serious dad? Did you talk to Mom about this? It's weekend tomorrow! It's family day." I pouted. He's the one who told us that weekends are family days.

"Mayroon pa tayong mga Linggo para sa family day. Don't worry, it's Mom approved." he chuckled.

Great.

"Alright, go to your room. Goodnight princess." He kissed the side of my head and went to the Calen's room. Pangalawa kong kapatid.

My mind is still processing the office thing when my phone rings.

Tumatawag si Paul.

"Yes Paul?" tanong ko.

"Baby, nasa bahay ka na ba?" Narinig ko ang boses ni Leo.

"Oh, yeah. Why are you using Paul's phone?" Ibinagsak ko ang aking sarili sa aking kama.

"You know what I did to my phone. I'll just get a new one tomorrow. He's staying at Arriana's room so I borrowed his phone for tonight." may naririnig akong tunog ng sasakyan sa background.

"That guy, are they not afraid to get caught? But hey, where are you?" tanong ko.

"Still on the road. Tumawag si papa kanina pa, kailangan kong pumunta sa bahay namin sa Tagaytay. May business meeting kami bukas ng umaga, kaya pupunta ako doon." Aw. I'm sure he's already tired and he's driving for 2 to 3 hours? My poor baby.

"Naka speaker phone ka ba? Alam mo namang ayoko na gumagamitka telepono kapag nagmamaneho." Paalala ko sa kanya. 

I know he's a good driver but it's still not safe. 

"Opo Ma'am. Nasa dashboard ang telepono." Narinig kong tumawa siya.

"You sound like my Mom, babe." Oh he's teasing me again.

"Well, I just want you safe. I'm your responsibility now." It's my time to laugh. You are mine forever.

"Syempre, simula nung araw na nakita kita, nangako ako sa sarili ko, kahit anong mangyari, I'll take full responsibility for you. You're making me a better man, love. Tandaan mo yan." I'm touched. I hold back my tears.

Nag-usap kami ng maraming oras. Making future plans. Dreaming of travelling the world together. 

I slept with a big smile on my face. I had a long day, but it's all worth it. 

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