Chapter 2

I really did go back in time where I was still a baby; I wonder how many months I have. Everything looks just the way it looked before when I was young. Let’s sort out the situation. I am still a baby, so I can’t do anything besides watching them move around me. Even if I returned to the past, that means the problems that will happen will still happen, except if I interfered maybe I could change our fate and protect my family. I can’t talk so I can’t say that I am happy to see them. I am glad. I’ll explode from joy. Since I know the future, I will try to change my destiny myself.

I don’t want to go through that again. First, I need to learn to move, walk and speak. I am still curious about how I managed to go back in time, was it because of the spell? Was it because the spell failed? I don’t know. I was given a new life from now on; it’s important to know how I will live it.

"Ooooh! Miss don’t cry too much unlike other babies, " said one of the maids. I think her name was Sasha.

"You are right, I remember Damien was a troublesome one, I still can’t get over it when he spilt all his milk on me," said another one.

"Miss is quiet as the young master Durian; I guess she will be like him."

"Maybe, she is sleepy or hungry, I don’t think that she’ll end up like him, Miss is so considerate, she smiles whenever she sees us, " replied another one.

Really, they can’t even give privacy to babies. I can’t even think properly. Anyway. I fell asleep while thinking after struggling against it for the tenth time. A baby’s body needs so much sleep to grow up healthier.

"It’s so small; her hands are too small; look at these, she can only hold one finger, " he said, putting his finger on my small right hand.

This was my brother Damien. He is older than me by 7 years. His hair is blond and has blue eyes. All of my family members have blue eyes. We are distinguished by it. Now that I see it with my own eyes, he was childish and spoiled. I kept hearing them over my head while sleeping. They disturbed my sleep.

"I can’t believe that there are nails on her fingers. I thought that babies are not born with it, that they grow it later, " he said, looking at me with astonished eyes. I never saw him looking at me like that. He always had a cold aura around him.

This was my oldest brother Durian. He has black hair like my mother. I want my mother. I am glad to see them all again. I am so moved by it that I open my eyes and begin to cry.

"Look, Durian, you woke up our little sister ! " scolded Damien.

"It’s not my fault! It’s you who said that Bonine looks like you while she has the same hair as me, " responded Durian.

"You are so childish! She doesn’t look like you; she is like mama. "

"And I have the same hair as mama, and now Bonine has the same hair as me. "

I am speechless. They argue about such a trivial matter. I was so speechless that I stopped crying. I see my brother Durian trying to touch my hand, but he felt awkward and backed off. Ohhh! I remember he was shy even when I was a grown-up. He couldn’t speak to girls normally. That’s why he always avoided them. Later, he fell in love with a commoner that was working for him as a knight. I saw her. She was beautiful. I guess I have so much work to do. When the time comes, I will educate him to talk to her normally. He always had trouble with girls for that.

" Brother, she fell asleep quickly. "

" She is a sleepyhead like me. You see Durian. "

Will they quarrel again? Yet, I am glad to see them like that; so lively. When I was a grown-up, my brother Durian used to keep a distance from me. I wondered why in my head for a long time, and I still don’t know. I was only closing my eyes to picture my two brothers as a grown-up. Geez! Why did they assume that I slept?

I caught them in surprise. They looked at me with mesmerizing eyes. I am happy to see you, my dear two brothers. I smile at them, making some baby sounds. Damien pats my head, making his mouth in a zero shape. There, there, I’ll smile for you too, Durian. He blushed to turn his head away.

" She is so cute, " said Durian.

" I agree, I need to kiss those cheeks; they are so adorable. "

I feel sleepy. I guess it’s time for me to return sleeping. As I fell asleep, I dream about my past. The day my father died. I was accused of planning to murder him for money. He was the first one to die. I still remember the speeches of that day clearly, because it was a shocking fact. We were sitting all together, William was there too. He tried, little by little, until he gained my parents' consent. That day, he was planning to discuss my engagement with him with my parents. I still remember that I felt uneasy. We received the news of his murder that same day. It was a shocking matter for all of us. My mother became unconscious; if it weren’t for my brother Damien, she would have fallen to the ground. My brother Durian was shocked as well, but he got himself altogether to fix things. A bullet in his head killed my father.

The investigation was ended with me being framed. Of course, I couldn’t accept it because I didn’t do it. The proof was a brooch that I lost months ago. A silver one that William gifted to me. They said that they found it in the murder scene, and there was nothing more than it. Why was it me? When I remember, I was a big fool. William used to come a lot, so he could’ve had sufficient time to plant his spies in our manor.

" The investigation is already over. If you keep pestering over a lie, the punishment will be heavier. "

" Bonine, my love, how can you do such thing ? " asked William showing a disgusted face.

" But I did nothing! I swear! I have done nothing. I am the same as you were shocked by the outcome. "

" That’s right! How could such a gentle person do such a thing, my love I believe you, I will conduct a proper investigation, and you’ll be freed. "

Because he said those words, I felt happy that he was with me, so I went with the security guard to the prison. I was a fool. I thought that he was smiling at me to reassure me, but it was more of a smirk than a smile, I couldn’t realize it until now. Until the second investigation is over, they said, I will stay there. I stayed in that dirty place, waiting and waiting for William to come and say those words. But he didn’t come. Instead, a messenger came and told me the dreadful news. I felt hopeless for the first time in my life when they wanted to switch the prison to the main one. One far away from the capital. I kept hearing people talking about me behind my back. They said that I was disgusting to plan all of it, that I was only showing a gentle face, but I crave more power, that I made a mistake and it was revealed by God, to show what kind of person I am. I tried explaining what happened again to the judges, my friends, and acquaintances, but it only made things worse. People hated me to the core; I was evil in their eyes. One day, after a whole week of being in the main prison, my brother came to me. He held me in his arms, and for the first time, I knew how he held me, dear, to his heart. I cried like I never cried in my life. His arms were so warm in the chill of this prison. I was beaten up and bullied here because I was a noble child. Most of the prisoners were commoners, and they hated the nobles a lot.

" I’ll find out the truth behind my father’s death and get you out of here because I don’t believe that you could kill the father. I can doubt everyone except my family. We can’t do this to each other, and there was no reason for you to do so. Try to sleep at ease. I’ll do whatever I can to support you. After all, you are my dear sister. "

For the first time in my life, I saw a soft look on my brother’s face. If only I knew back then, if only I used my brain a little, I had a brain only for decoration.

" Durian, I am sorry for mistreating you sometimes, " I said, feeling a feeling of remorse.

"Don’t worry! We are a family. "

Live your life; don’t die for something you didn’t do. Try to be yourself, change for the better not, the worse. That was my brother’s last word to me. He never came back, neither his corpse. I began to hate myself to the core. Everything was chaotic. I thought William believed them; what they said about me.

I was a fool, a complete idiot, my family suffered, and I was selfishly thinking about my love. My brother disappeared because of me. I stayed in prison for some days. Then, Damien came to see me. It was the first time since I came here.

" Bonine, I believe in you. Since Durian disappeared, it means that someone is trying to hide the truth. Now, think only about yourself. I’ll get you out of prison first to come home I found a way out. Don’t worry! You’ll get out tomorrow, " reassured Damien.

I returned home after becoming slim from the malnutrition. Seeing me like that, my mother fell into tears, she held me and cried in my shoulder. I couldn’t shake her. I was waiting for Damien, but he never came back. He left home and didn’t come back for a while. When he came back, he was a corpse.

"Damien, my baby, not you too. Why do you have to leave me? Bonine, Bonine, stay next to me, never go far. Please don’t leave me you too! Oooh, Damien! Ooooh, Durian! Ooooh, Rayan ! "

First, my father, second, my brother Durian and then it was my brother Damien. My mother couldn’t handle it. Her yelling indicated her breaking heart. What did my brother do to come back all black and with many cuts? His bones were twisted, and he was unrecognizable.

" Don’t look, Bonine! They did horrible things to my baby. But who is targeting us? "

 Later on, my mother becomes sick for thinking too much about them. She committed suicide after a week after my brother Durian’s death. I was shocked. I was alone with no one to rely on. It was unbearable. All my family's assets were confiscated. I was alone with nothing. I used to rod on the street when I met William again. I knew magic, yet no one wanted to employ me. Yet, he offered to help me by working with him. It is just what would I do was odd. To be there in the upcoming war to lend him my power. He will use my powers for his benefit to appear as he did it himself. Like he protected the country himself. To take all my credit for it. I didn’t think about that a lot back then, since I thought that he was angry with me. I was happy that he found me and sheltered me. I was grateful that he took me in. So I did everything to make him happy.

I woke up crying.

" Bonine, my baby, you are awake, don’t cry! It was only a bad dream! "

Right mother! It was only a dream. A dream that I was going to change. A fate that I will avoid doing everything in my power.

 But first, let’s learn how to move.