I woke to my own crying and saw my two brothers again. They were looking at me in such an intense way that I like it. They are lovely. When I saw my startled brother Durian, I saw in his eyes fondness and happiness. Even though he was in front of me, I was sad, remembering the dream that I had. I kept crying but showed my feelings with a smile. I didn’t want to make them worry about me. I’ll make sure to protect them this time. I’ll pray in their places to have a great future. My irreplaceable family members, I will do anything to prevent their death, and you, William, I’ll work on your downfall, I swear.
" Where am I? Here I am… ", said brother Damien hiding his face with his hands and showing it again.
This Damien, he will tire me from laughing. Does he think that he is hiding from me? I had to laugh because I must show that I am happy that he plays with me. Well! I find him cute and lovely. He brightens up every time that I laugh and laughs too. My jaws are tired.
" You see she smiled at me, " said Damien
Oh no! There they go again. Why are you quarrelling about everything? I’ll stop them. I’ll laugh at my brother Durian too.
" You are mistaken. She laughs all the time, " replied Durian.
He looks at me, and I smile. He shows a soft look. Oooh, it’s mealtime! My mother’s close maid came looking for me. We went all together to my mother, who was working on the manor’s accounts.
" Oh my! Bonine, come to mama, it’s mealtime. You came with your brothers, how lovely! "
She begins to feed me with her breast. My mother is amazing to handle my brothers. They are so… lively.
" I bet you are hungry. Sorry for making you wait. All full now it’s time to burp. "
I don’t want to. I don’t want to burp. It’s embarrassing!
" It always takes awhile madam! Maybe, it’s embarrassing for her ! "
You are right, aunt Riza! It’s embarrassing! How can a lady burp! I must act like a proper Lady, unlike my last life, I was too casual. I mustn’t embarrass my mother… I mustn’t… I burp.
" Bonine is amazing ! " beamed Damien.
" Do you love Bonine that much ? " asked my mother.
" I love Bonine more than the world. I love her to the moon. "
He draws the moon with his hand showing that he loves me too much. I also love him, my brother Damien. But he is showing too much childish behaviour, no wonder he is a big troublemaker in the future. I gotta work on it. I can’t leave him like that. We mustn’t give our enemies any means to plot against us.
«Mom, can I hold Bonine, just once. I promise I won’t drop her like my father. "
Ooooh, why did you make me remember that? Father wanted to heft me, but he dropped me. It hurt too much.
" No, you’ll injure her. But maybe if you learn your numbers, I’ll consider it. "
" Mom, I learned my numbers, even how to do the addition, subtraction, and multiplication. "
That’s my brother Durian! He is the best in learning! But my mother is the most amazing negotiator.
" Wanna hold Bonine. Be careful! There. "
" Why is he holding her? No, I want to hold her too. "
I see Damien glaring at Durian, angry. They are fighting over me again.
" If you want to hold Bonine too. Be a good student, and don’t slack around. "
" You’ll see. I’ll learn it. »
" My son, give me now my daughter Bonine. It’s enough! She is heavy for you. »
" She isn’t heavy at all ! " insisted Durian.
" Give me my daughter, you rascal ! " cursed mother putting both her hands on her hips.
" What is a rascal mom ? " asked Damien.
" Durian don’t learn everything that I say. Even if you’ll need it to curse someone, in the future. "
" I get it, mom! "
I got used to it.
I see my father entering the chamber that we’re in. He is still as I remember him, showing a stern face. He asks us if we’re all here, turning his face towards me. He seems lonely. Father, Even as a child, I never remembered him holding me, but I am not the same. I’ll make him hold me. I move my hand, trying to reach him. My arms are too small. I need to grow up fast. I try to call him papa, but only weird sounds came out. I am embarrassed!
" It seems that Bonine wants to hold her dad. So lovely! Rayan, hold your daughter. "
" Come here, Bonine ! "he nods.
" You can’t hold her. I’ll hold her for you! Remember when you told us the body’s knight must be taken care of very well! You are tired. You need to rest, " said Durian.
" I am not tired. Give me Bonine, " commanded father.
My family loved me this much. My father was always stern because he didn’t know how to talk with me and my brother Durian was a shy person; he couldn’t form the words that he wanted to tell me. My mother is still the same. I am scared that these happy times will disappear and everyone will die early. I don’t want to see it again. So this time I will definitely protect them, protect everyone. I won’t allow those tragedies to happen again. I fell asleep again while thinking. I lost for a hundred times against sleep.
I must practice how to move. First, I need to flip. I must fight against gravity. I can’t back down now. It’s good that I am alone. A little more to the right. I did it. Awau!
I flipped successfully. I am so proud of myself.
" Oooh, my lady! It’s mealtime! "
Aunt Riza! I am embarrassed! My stomach showed that I am hungry by talking with a weird sound.
" You must be hungry from using all your strength while flipping. "
When did she see me? Now that I am 6 months old, I need to eat other things than drinking my mother’s milk. Aunt Riza feeds me with a spoon a potato soup. Saying nom nom nom. You know aunt, I have an adult mind. I’d like to eat quietly. Still, the attempt failed. I will think of how to protect my family in a quiet environment now in my bed.
" Is this your sister? She is adorable. She is very calm. I remember my sister was crying all the time. "
Black hair with red eyes. I know him. Brother Durian’s friend Gasus. Oooh my God! I am happy to see him. I like it very much. He is the only one who stood up with my brother to help me, and he used to play with me a lot. Tears run down my cheeks. I remember he died too for trying to find out about the murder. The news came that he found decisive proofs that’s why he died. He was the only one who tried to know about brother Durian’s death. I cry.
" Look you made her cry ! ", said my brother Durian.
" No, I didn’t. Bonine, grow up as an amazing and intelligent lady, unlike your brother, who is rude to me, " he complained. He is still funny like he used to. Oooh, I am in the past now.
Brother Gasus. Thank you really! This time I will also prevent your death. This time I will definitely protect you. You and Belladone, your sister who used to play with me. He is cheerful. I smile at him. He asks me whether I am really a baby. Oooh! I forgot. I am not supposed to understand him. He tries to touch me, but Durian prevented him from doing so.
" You are a rascal! You hit me for trying to touch your sister. "
He lifts me to his arms and pokes my cheeks. He hugs me tightly glaring at Gasus with a look that says that I am his sister, that I belong to him.
" I want to hold her too, Duriaaaaaaaaaan ! " said Damien.
" You haven’t mastered your mathematics ! "
" Wait and see! I will soon. "
Brother Durian…. Brother Damien…. Brother Gasus… They are still children, but I will look after them very well. I try to cheer brother Damien, and he looked proud. He kisses my cheek. I am still not used to skinship brother. I never remembered him even holding my hands. But we were good with each other.
" Bonine is so cute ! "
" What are you doing? Stop touching my sister casually. "
I spent the last months like that, in bed. I am now seven months. I’ve been practising my movement and talking. It was hard. I really didn’t know it before, but it’s hard to be a baby. No wonder, we forget everything when we grow up. It’s a hard experience.
" Bonine doesn’t cry that much. Have you noticed, Durian ? " inquired Gasus.
" Yeah, I have been worried. I heard mama and papa talking about it. But the doctor said that she is healthy and that we can’t diagnose a baby’s mind. "
" Well, I think that she is a reticent person. My sister was too loud, the complete opposite of Bonine that we were worried about too. But it was normal, and we got used to it eventually. I guess she’ll be wise when she grows up. "
" She doesn’t play with her toys too, and she doesn’t try to leave her crib. But when I hold a book like that, she’ll want it. Look ! " said Durian. I heard you, brother.
" Oooh! She’ll be a genius ! "
What are they talking about? Discussing things about me like that in my presence. I indeed like books, I can’t resist when I see one. No matter how many times I tried. And now he is shaking it again. It’s the theory of Glunden’s magic. My favourite book. That magician was ahead of his time; no one understood him. Even now, no one tried to understand his complexes.
" Right, Bonine is a genius. Look at her she’s too adorable, " said brother Damien.
" She is more than a genius, " replied Durian.
" Right, she is an angel, " said Damien.
" Cuter than an angel ! " replied Durian.
" Are you quarrelling about Bonine now? Such childish behaviour! " Scolded them Gasus, at least, someone is in his right mind in this room.
" Comparison impossible ! " added brother, Damien.
" Are you even listening to me? In my eyes, you are the problem, " commented Gasus.
No way! I’ve started sucking my fingers in front of my brothers. That’s embarrassing! Wait. It seems that my teeth are growing. Oooooh !! That hurts a bit. This is perhaps the reason why I started sucking them. It’s understandable !!
Aunt Riza is one of the people that I should protect too. She was there for me when our house fell to ruin. She knew how I felt, so she tried her best to support me. I am too small. There is nothing I can do now with it. I’ve received another chance so I should use it well. I could start with the minor things—learning words. Since now, my teeth are growing. I will be able to speak a little. I try to say father and mother but instead came out weird sounds. Tears fill my eyes. It’s so hard; I can’t believe it. But it’s so hard. How did we manage to speak normally? Yeah! I remember that I read a book about habits. We have, in our brains, different places where we stock what we learn. Habits help the brain to memorize things faster; when you see a similar thing or situation, you act by the habits that we do not with our intelligence. For a knight, they can defend themselves well if they are trained to fight without relying only on their eyes. Habits make it easier in a lot of situations. S
A length of time has passed since my first tea party. It was enjoyable at last. I was able to arrange people in categories. The huge first pace that I did was befriending Madeleine Sarlintine. After meeting him, a lot of things in his life began to change. He became more aware of relationships and began to build more, but he would often visit me. He is gotten better in handling his ability and wasn’t called insane anymore. His mother became more gentle towards him. It’s been six years now since that time. I changed my ways of dealing with people and a lot of things in my life. I spend a lot of time with my family and go wherever my mom went to. I needed to know more about the flow of powers. To understand a lot of things that I didn’t care much about it in my last life." Good morning Lady Bonine! Oh, no ! Look at you. Your hair is all messy. You are already eleven now. Weren’t you able to sleep last night ? " said my personal maid. I am at an age where I have to own one." Good morni
I need to take the next step. I need the power to protect my family. That teacher that used to came has found his carrier destroyed because he slapped me. It was something that was bound to happen. I didn’t know how to behave before. Before, in my last life, I studied a lot to go to the academy but meeting William was a turn event. He insisted that going there was a waste of time. I still remember the load of books that I read. First, I need to go to the academy, but I think it’s not time yet. I’ll leave it for when I meet William.
" Do your best when you’re training, best friend. "That’s, and without a doubt, brother Gasus, shouting like that in the corridor, is he stupid? There is no manner at all in the way he speaks. Saying these kinds of words means that he is not here for my brother, then for whom? I don’t like thinking too much. I’ll enjoy my morning drinking tea and reading a book. I had too many thoughts in my head recently that I began to be absent-minded all the time. I raise my head from my book. He is coming this way with a little girl. I presume that she is his sister, but why did he bring her here? Does he think that I am a babysitter? What a stupid thought? Manners manners, let’s not jud
" Brother Gasus! I guess I’ll leave my family in your hands. "" Why? "" I want to go to the academy. I need to gain power using my own knowledge and talent. "" It’s a good idea, considering your abilities, you’ll do better in the academy than staying here. But I doubt that your brothers will let you off. "
Living that idiotic figure behind, we keep walking towards the place where we’ll have our tests. This place isn’t that amazing in my eyes. I remember that a massacre happened here because someone tried to plot against the prince of the Azura kingdom. I remember that he was a rude and cruel person. No one could tolerate him. He came here for a visit and ended up killing a lot of students. I’ll make sure to prepare for it. The exam will begin soon. We’ll have to hurry to the examination site.Everyone is chatting. Things are lively here. I keep standing in my place, thinking about the upcoming test. I wonder what it will be. Moving my head in all direct
I’ve never considered that I’ll meet Davina early.I guess I just made a mistake, the participant that I defeated will be listed as the 200 in the ranking, his fighting style was pretty good for a student. Either way, I have no choice but to beat all of them. Seeing how the rest are acting, they won’t accept to be in the first 30th. They are aiming for the first place. Let’s show them how we will deal with them!" For now, we must find the others. It must be a priority. "
" What did you say? "" I want you to be my girlfriend. I said that if you want to go out with me. "I need to get out of here. I can’t stay with him in the same place. Every time that I see his face, I remember all his words, one by one, the sweet ones, and the harsh ones. I find difficulties in containing my tears. I changed, I am not the same one as in my last life, yet why is he interested in me?" Do I kn