Chapter 15- Ryan

Chapter 15

Ryan

It had been well over a year since my heart was fucking obliterated. I missed Julia. I was tired of feeling like this, like I was suffocating. The only way to explain the heartache was that I felt like somebody was sitting on my chest. I couldn’t get enough oxygen into my lungs, and I was gasping for breath. I was gulping just enough air to keep me alive, but it wasn’t enough to breathe comfortably. That was the only way to describe how I felt. I needed to move on, needed to leave Julia and our past behind me. I couldn’t keep doing this. Julia was gone; she was not coming back.

I wanted to reach out when Emmy told me about her parents; but I decided against it. The last person on the fucking planet she would want to talk to is me. And it isn’t like I hadn’t tried. At first, I called every night. Every night it would ring and ring until the voicemail came on. I would leave a message t