7.1

Hey. 

I almost ended this here, because you did say to say just 'hey' in my next letter so you'd feel better. But I need to clarify some things first, because I don't like the fact that you're feeling guilty for hitting the nail on the wall. Because that's the only thing you did, and that's not exactly offensive. In fact, it's not offensive at all. 

I'd say you should go with psychology. It seems like a talent, just like writing is for me. Don't let it go to waste, Nate. 

Lemme start off by apologising. I sent you an email late, way late( though we don't exactly have a schedule for this, do we?)You felt bad, and that's probably the only reason I'm apologising right now. I'm sorry for not sending you an email sooner. I wanted to, but I couldn't find the right words. I stared at my computer (I don't know the actual number of times) about seven times before deciding, what the heck!!

I don't even know why I told you this. Feel free to laugh. 

You're right. What happened to me happened right after middle school. i won't go into specifics because I spent the past three days trying to push down those memories, but my mum died. She was my best friend, and I just feel like, it's suddenly hit me this year in particular. The fact that she's dead. 

I'm not like my mum in anyway. Where my mum was outgoing and easy to talk to, I was the exact opposite. But she was still the best person I knew, till cancer took her away from me. I heal when I write poetry, which is prolly why I write more often nowadays. I need to heal more nowadays. 

Okay, I'm done with the depressing stuff. And I'd like to say that I'm shocked at my actions right now. Usually, anyone who asks me this would get a cold shoulder from me, but you got an answer, and in the shortest amount of time possible. We've known each other ( will I call is talking via email knowing each other?) for less than two weeks. 

Huge achievement on your part. 

I don't really care if I chase anyone away with my tiger. I think that's one of the reasons why I'm getting my tiger in the first place. And I think I'll name her Katy Purry( you know, like the tiger in Katy Perry's "Roar"). Help me, I'm terrible with names. 

Besides, I don't think risking your life just to talk to someone you might end up not being friends with is pretty dumb. Really. I shouldn't need to tell you this. 

Okay, I won't even comment on your hatred for English. You seem to hate the good things in life really. I'm guessing your best subject is Math. The one class I always pray to sleep in. I absolutely loathe that subject. 

I don't think you can really fool anyone by telling them you aren't smart. That's pointless. I'm far from you( or so you said) and I can tell already. You're a smarty pants, accept it. You just said you don't sleep in class, God! Who even does that?

I think I'm a solid 8 when it comes to volleyball. I've been playing the sport for four years now, and I know I'm good at it( been told that countless times). I won't flat out say a 10..that's ridiculous to me. 

Besides, I watch TV. A person can break his legs just by playing football. Even the strongest of guys. Big no no for me, sorry. Well, unless I'm paid a ridiculous amount of money. 

I thought as much. I don't know what to say to you wanting to find out more about your dad while playing football, but I knew you played football for a reason other than the sheer fun and thrill of the sport. Fun and thrill I doubt I'll ever see, by the way. 

And it's very clear you miss him. I guess I should count myself as lucky, since my mum stayed with me much longer than your dad. 

I'm not trying to be snarky. Not at all. I'm just saying you've probably had it worse and you're perfectly fine. And here I am, sulking. 

Thank you, Nate. For trying to get who I am, and why I am the way I am. You're among the very few who managed to scratch past the surface, and the first who did that in a short amount of time. 

Though you might still be an old weirdo, you're a cool one at least. 

Emma. 

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