I look up into his eyes. "Pleasure. I rarely get hurt for punishment. I try to be as good as I can. Usually Dean's form of punishment is withholding pleasure. I can't... well... you know..." I blush, unable to form the words.
"Come?" Holden asks, smirking.
I nod. "Yeah."
He chuckles. "That's one of my favourite pastimes! Orgasm denial is rather enjoyable for the man."
I gawp at him. "You... you enjoy that stuff too?" I ask.
Holden shrugs. "Not the whipping and caning, but the fun stuff like handcuffs, toys and well... orgasm denial. Are you into the pain?"
I bite my lip and nod. "It's a fetish I guess. There's a fine line between pleasure and pain. If you find that middle line, it's incredible!"
He kissed me and I knew what would happen next!
After close to two hours, we were both lying exhaustedly on the bed.
Holden grins, his head on my shoulder, I drift off into an exhausted slumber.
I fall asleep trying to determine whether Dean or Holden was better in the sack. I come up blank, and conclude that they're both incredible in their own ways.
How could that be possible??
Why did I have such a powerful connection with Dean, who isn't my mate??
A week off work was quite relaxing! I got to rest, recuperate, sleep in and have baths and naps whenever I felt it warranted.My depo appointment was boring. Just the usual. Bend over and get a needle.Easy work.Thursday evening I went to the local salon and had my waxing done. Legs, underarms and pubic area.Being hair free makes me feel sexy, I have no idea why.The guys had left me alone to rest and recover for the entire week. I felt lonely for the first time in ages. I have no female friends as I got hurt so much by bitching and lies when I was a teenager, so I took comfort in men and their weapons between their legs.Once I was out of school, women saw me as a threat, thinking I'd steal their boyfriends or whatnot because of my reputation. That's not who I am. I always made sure my sexual partners were single first!!Now, Saturday night, I am sat in front of the television with a large pepperoni pizza, popcorn, a bottle of diet coke a
When you're alone inside your head, and unable to pull yourself out of the funk, you end up going crazy!!So far, I've been alone for a total of 2 weeks and 4 days.I've pushed away Dean and Holden, not letting them near me. I'm not doing anything apart from going to work, acting like a zombie, just about handling my duties and jobs. When I go home, I stay in my room and huddle up in the duvet.I'm just about managing a bunch of grapes or a satsuma a day. I've already lost 9lb!As a wolf, I should be eating a lot more, and as I haven't been keeping up my usual diet, my wolf has gone into hibernation.Like me, really.I don't know why I've turned into this emotionless soul, I just can't get over how a human could get inside my flat without me--a shifter--knowing, and was able to freak me out and scare me like he did.I've dealt with the threats and blackmails from other Doms, but this was one step too far. Making somebody come to my home for
"Try, Dean! Please try!" I whimper.I need him right now.I am burning up beyond anything I have ever felt before, it's as though Dean has brought this on!It only started when he put his arms around me.He caused this!!"Dean! NOW!" I scream, my back arching as the pain spikes furiously.A loud sexual moan emanates from Dean's parted lips, and his self control waivers as he crashes his lips to mine again.All I can feel and think of is him.The way his hands touch me, the way his lips move against mine, his weight on top of me, his musky sweet breath, the feel of shirt and tailored trousers against my over sensitive bare skin.It's like the most intense feeling I have ever had the pleasure of experiencing. I just don't want it to end.Not only the pleasure from Dean's incredible loving, but the feeling of intense love and emotion for this man makes this act of fornication a whole lot more incredible.My lips start to
Back at work, finally out of my funk. I feel more positive. Still confused, but positive.I'm sat there at my desk typing out a letter for my boss, Mr Fray.Mind numbingly boring but it keeps my brain busy.Just as I press print, the office phone rings. I clear my throat and take my professional mode."Good morning, Mr Fray's office. How can I help you?" I speak politely."Lizzie? It's Holden!"I grin, hearing his bright voice."Hiya!! What's up?" I ask."I err... was err... calling to err..." He hesitates, stumbling over his words.It's cute!Adorable.I smile."Just say it, Holden." I murmur gently, trying to encourage him.I hear him down the line taking a deep breath. "I wanted to ask you on a date." He rushes out.I blush at the request."Ask me properly and you might get an answer." I tease.Holden chuckles slightly. "Sorry, I'm just a little nervous.""I was wondering if you'
I was awoken by my phone ringing with a high pitched shrill.I rolled over and grabbed it drowsily."Mmm?" I answer."Lizzie Knight?" A powerful voice questioned down the line."Yeah? Who's this?" I ask, trying to sit up.I hear a chuckle. "Frank Paulson, you left a message about your... predicament?"My eyes widen, and I leap off the bed, bounding around."Hello! Oh, thank you! Thank you for calling back so quickly!" I rush out, begging for answers."Right, Lizzie. I would prefer to discuss this matter in person? Are you free at some point today? From my records, you are located in Nottinghamshire?"God, he's formal!"Yes, yes I am. I live just outside of Newark."Our conversation ends after we decide on a cafe in town at 4pm.I am on edge all day!I have a half day at work today as Mr Fray leaves for a business trip to Vancouver at 11.30am.Just another bonus.I rush off to the bathroom, show
"It's a very unconventional solution though and can end up with the mates fighting for attention."I swallow back bile at the idea of Dean and Holden fighting each other for my attention. I couldn't handle losing either of them. I couldn't imagine it!"Right... so, how would it work? One of my mates is an Alpha? How could I be a Luna if I'm another wolf's mate as well?" I ask with a shaky voice.My heart is pounding out of my chest, I feel beads of sweat trickle down my back, and my heart aches painfully.I am so confused!"It just would. His pack would accept you as Luna because that's your right as his mate.""The only problem I can see presenting itself, is your mates not accepting the situation you're in and making you choose."I shake my head, not wanting to picture the scenario in my fragile mind."I'm still confused. How can Holden AND Dean both be my mates if my wolf hasn't stated Dean is? She feels pleasure and excitement by h
Six long weeks since that fateful night.To my dismay, I am still alive.I haven't seen Dean nor Holden since I gave them the soul destroying news.I go to work, do my job, return home and huddle up on the sofa until I fall into abyss.Sleep is my only friend. It blocks out the pain.Why can't the wolf spirits let me die?Today, it's just another boring day. I arrive at work to start dealing with meetings and clients, making calls and typing up letters like always.I sip on a strong black coffee while typing an email reply, when my stomach churns.Eurgh!I leap up from my seat, sprinting full pelt to the ladies bathroom, throwing myself at the toilet. I vomit violently, so bad that my eyes stream with pain.That's how the rest of the day continues; working and throwing up.I have no idea what's going on.Wolves don't get sick!We have an unusually high immune system, so no human bugs or viruses effect us.<
Last night was wonderful. I finally slept with Soul and oh wow!He wasn't as good as Dean or Holden but it was still intense and he was so soft and romantic.Rose petals all over the bed, candles everywhere and fizzy grape juice--a pregnant craving--with chocolate covered strawberries!It's as though he read my mind, followed my heart and was making up for all the shit I'd been through over the past few months.In the middle of the night, I'd also woken up to fluttery kicks in my stomach!It was the most amazing feeling!I get my first scan next week as my doctor couldn't fit me in for one until then.The idea of seeing my baby for the first time is so exciting and heartwarming.Would it be a girl or boy?Would they be Alpha blood or not? Thus meaning Holden's or Dean's?I couldn't care less either way. They're both my mates and they both rejected me at the same time.I thank the heavens I didn't let them m