We walk silently and every time the wind blows Vicenzo hand instantly rubbed my back slowly and I can't help but to frown because of discomfort.
We walk for more seconds and stop when I saw the small ballerina statue that was place in front of the grave of my mother.
Automatically my lips curved into a smile and walk closer.
"It's been a long time Mom" I greeted with a smile and sitted on the ground "I'm sorry, I didn't planned my visit that's why I don't have flowers with me" I smilingly mutter
My hand trace her name that was carved on the stone. Dad doesn't want me to visit her, I don't know her reason but he's not allowing me to visit Mom even on her death anniversary.
"I'm a prima ballerina now. Dad permitted me to dance in the famouse Zeneca Theater, and it feel so great. I was like floating" I said chuckling pulling the grass on the ground.
The night breeze is giving me comfort although I'm shivering a little.&n
"First posistion, Second position, Third posistion, Fourth posistion, Fifth posistion... one, one two four. one, one two five. one, one two lift" I spin using my one foot extending the other one. I do it continuously until I reach the barre.I inhale and exhale and hold the barre tightly, bending my body extending my legs on my back trying to reach my toe with my hand before I turn around lifting my body with my haft bend feet after a successful move. And then I collapsed on the floor breathing heavily because of exerting too much energy.I groaned because of the muscle ache on my legs. I've been practicing since this morning. I gained weight a littl maybe because I ate a lot lately so I need to burn some fats, also my mind is in chaos right now. I still can remember the last time I saw Vicenzo, it's been two days now. My father is not talking to me, he is mad obviously but then I don't understand.Why would he get mad at me? It should be the other way around be
"Vicenzo came here before he left the country. Is that true?" Dad confront me in strict voice giving me a suspicious stare.I studied his face and he really aged a lot. The wrinkles on his face is enoughed for me to conclude that he is really getting older. The sign of aging is so visible on his face yet it can't conceal his strict looking face.He's still the father that I used to adore. But then, I don't know if I still adore him after what he did to me."Svanna, are you really going to continue this stubbornness? Don't you know what Santorini could give to our family? Zeneca will be prosperous once you become his wife" he said in frustration when I didn't open my mouth to answer him.I shook my head feeling the disappointment towards my father. Am I really nothing to him?"Your sister Aliah. If you just know how she beg to me, for her to marry Vicenzo, because she knows what kind of honor she could give to this family if she was just you" he fru
"What if I am force to trust him?" I whisper when the car stop in front of the coffee shop."Then you must find a way to protect yourself Young Lady, because everyone are watching you now" he utter making me fall into silent.I heard him unfasten his seatbelt but I remain not moving. I just realize that, if things get out of control I'll end up trusting Vicenzo neither I like it or not because that's the least thing I could do for myself. That's the only way for me to protect myself.We are not in control of everything. And no matter how I tried to resist the fate that they wanted me to have, if that was really meant to be, then I'll end up losing because that was bound to happen."I wanted to understand the reason behind the action. I wanted to validate Dad's reason because he is my father. As much as possible I wanted to seek an answer even if it was just a lie, for me to believe him" I mumble under my breath " If they were struggling because I keep on
"What do you mean?" He ask in alarmed tone which made me shook my head.I breath heavily and hide my hand under the table. I shake my head- no, I am just making conclusion and accusing him. Yes, at first look Vicenzo is really intimidating. As what I define him, his unlawful beauty is screaming with roughness and unyielding authority. The way he stand speaks for power, he stand like a tyrant king. His mere presence is enoughed for you to doubt your safety and his voice that could send chill to your body.Although he is like that, I think it's too much to accuse him of something like putting my family in danger once we tangle our name with him.That's too much I guess, because as far as I can remember he didn't dare to hurt me when I was with him that night. I know he was a bit stern and he also look scary. Even just the way he speak with hardening tone, but it was a bit harsh that Gianni accuse him like that."Svanna Rose" Gianni called me making me sighe
I wave my hand to Gianni and he also did the same thing. I watch him leave while I'm standing on the balcony of my room. I grip the coat he gave me, it is indeed cold. The weather is gloomy, the wind is cold . All the broad sky was grey indicating of coming rain.I raised my hand on the air and stared at the bracelet Gianni gave me. It is really beautiful and fascinating. My lips curved into a haft smile but I stop when I notice someone is watching me across the street. I stood straight when I saw a man and narrowed my eyes trying to recognize him but then he's too far from me and I can't even figure out the detailed of his face. I watch him as he turn around and walk away until he disappear on my sight."What was that?" I mumble to myself and walk inside my room.I stumped across the window-seat pulling my legs up and covering it with Gianni's coat. I stared out the beautiful flower garden of Mommy Adeline while listening to the soothing sound of piano keys com
"You're silent" he stated roughly which made me back to my senses.I took a deep breath and sit on the window-seat, actually this is my favorite spot in my room. There are days when I just wanted to read a books and sit here not wanting to do anything even dancing."Svanna Rose, why the fuck are you silent?!" He growl in controlled anger and I can't help but to rolled my eyes.He sound so demanding and I hate him because of that. He wanted me to follow him and that's really annoying!"Because I have nothing to say" I respond plainly not giving any hint of interest to have a conversation to him.I heard him exhale roughly and hissed a series of curses. I'm really good at making other people annoyed and that's nice because I can use it against Vicenzo.He seems like a short tempered kind of person, he's hot headed and impatient. I could easily irritate him- well maybe, maybe I could."Where have you been today?" He ask in modulated voic
"Dad!" I called my father walking fast towards him.I glance at Aliah and Mommy Adeline who's sitting beside my father. I don't know this house and they surprisingly here already talking in the living room."You should go upstairs and rest Svanna, the maid will led you to your room. I already prepare it for you" my father said calmly not bothered if at all.I licked my lower lip and shake my head. I have a lot of questions and I wanted to demand an answer from him."I wanted to know what's happening" I confront him following his gaze as he reach the wine glass."Nothing, so go to your room and rest" he replied in low toneless voice."Your father is right Anna, you're just paranoid hija" Mommy Adeline seconded and then she gave a glass of wine to Aliah who's smiling at her.I sighed still not convince. I am not a fool, although they don't explain everything in detailed still I know there is something wrong happening."I know the
I am comfortably laying on my bed staring at the white brown ceiling enjoying the soothing sound of piano keys that keeps on playing to lessen the tension of my body. I need to relax that's what the doctor instruct me to do when I woke up after I collapsed yesterday.I admit, I am restless these past few days after the sudden declaration of my marriage with Vicenzo Santorini. I keep on overthinking and I also didn't ate properly because I can't find my appetite to swallow my food. I think I really overstressed myself because of the sudden happening of my life.I know I can't blame myself, I was beyond shocked with those revelation and realization behind the marriage. And also the confusion I experience. I am mentally exhausted because of thinking too much and I've been crying every night thinking why did Dad betrayed me.A soft knock on the door dragged me back to my senses and then followed by the sound of opening door. An unfamiliar face of a woman weari