The Past

I tried a lot to sleep after the talk with mom but I couldn't. How would I get some sleep, when those depressing thoughts kept coming back to me. 

I was a burden to them? I was a burden to my parents? I have to payback my own parents? They had problems with my profession is what I thought the whole time. 

But, in reality they cared more aboyt what others said, and because of that I won't be married. I can't believe this. This makes me feel worthless. So worthless. 

I couldn't just be here. The same place where I am a burden on someone. I got up and picked out some shorts and a tank top. If I live here I will die with the thought that I am being a burden on someone. 

I am unwanted here, they don't need me. They don't. I wipe the tears that betrayed my strong self and rolled out of my eyes. I shouldn't cry. It's not my fault. It's not. 

I quickly dress up in a denim shorts and some white sneakers and pair it with a simple black ta