2: "Why can't it be with him?"

I woke up with a serious headache. I couldn’t get myself to fall asleep at all last night.

You know when something weird happened and you are really tired but you just can't sleep because your brain keeps racing. 

I heard a knock on the door. Then someone opened it.

"Hey, you're ready for school?" Toby asked, leaning by the door frame. His voice is low and soft. Different from any other mornings when he’d usually force me to wake up with his loud and annoying voice.

"Can I just skip school today? I don't feel well." I asked, still laying on the bed.

Toby sat on the edge of my bed. "You okay?"

"No."

"Don't overthink about it." Toby said quietly.

"I’m just really confused," I whined. “I should be happy that the Alpha wants me as his mate, but the fact that i did not feel anything is rather disappointing and confusing.” i groaned before covering my face with my blanket.

“Don’t say that, anyone would be lucky to have you as their mate, Mitz.” Toby stood up and smiled at me. "Don't worry. I will talk to Alpha Flynn and...i don't know, settle things down. Okay?" He said. "You just stay here and get some sleep. You’re turning into a freaking Panda." He teased then walked out of my room.

I put the pillow over my face and screamed out loud, trying to take away this heaviness from my head.

I close my eyes again, trying so hard to sleep but still can't. I've stayed in my bed for 3 hours now since Toby left.

I finally decided to get up from my bed and took a shower. I walked down the stairs and headed to the kitchen because I know my mom is there.

As I expected, my mom was cooking in the kitchen.

"Mom.."

My mom turned her body to face me and her face turned sad all of the sudden. "Oh, honey. Are you okay?" she opened her arms to me. I walked to her and hugged her. I just sighed. "Sit.. i made soup." She said. I sat at one of the chairs and she put a plate of mushroom soup infront of me.

I started to eat and my mom just staring at me with a small sad smile at her face.

"I'm okay, mom."

"You look tired." Well, i am tired.

"I'm fine. I just didn't get much sleep last night." I didn't sleep at all actually. I sighed and covered my face with both of my hands. "Mom, what did you feel the first time you meet dad?"

She smiled softly. "I...i know right away that he is my mate. My heart started to beat really fast and i just want to be with him all the time. Even when he was sweating like a pig, he smelled like mint." She explained with a sad face. Dad died 4 years ago. It must be hard for her to go back and remember all these things. But i just need to know what is it really like to find a mate. "Did you... uhm, did you not feel anything when you saw Alpha Flynn for the first time?"

I shook my head no. "Nothing. Nothing but fear. He was so...intimidating and he stormed out of nowhere." I supplied, looking down at the mushroom soup, just keep stirring it with the spoon in my hand. "I don't know, maybe i was just surprised."

"Mitz, I'm just guessing, okay? But is it possible that....you can't recognize your mate because you haven't shifted yet?" She raises both of her eyebrows then she shakes her head. "Oh, no, no, no... that's stupid. Just forget what i just said, okay?"

"No, mom..." i look at her surprised. "T-that actually makes a lot of sense. That makes sense... maybe Alpha Flynn really is my mate." I stood up from my seat and kissed my mom on the cheek.

I never really thought that i have a mate. I thought that i will live my life alone forever, just like what everyone expects. But maybe I was wrong, maybe they are all wrong. 

I went back to my room and mind l**k Toby immediately.

"Toby..."

"Yea, Mitz?" He answered back.

"Where are you?"

"Alpha's office."

"Is something bad happening?"

"So far, he seems chill. Why?"

"I'm going there right now."

"What? Why?"

"I have something to say..."

"Then I will come home now. Just stay there."

"No, I also need to talk to the Alpha."

I took my phone and put my jacket on. I went back downstairs.

"Mom, can i borrow your car?" I shouted.

"Where are you going? You want me to drive you?" She shouted back. I can hear her footsteps.

"No, it's okay. I can drive on my own. Okay bye!" I said quickly, I walked out of the house with my mom's car key. I head to mom's car and started to drive.

"Mitz, where are you?" Toby asked suddenly.

"On the way."

"Stop the car now." He sounds serious.

"What's wrong?"

"We need to talk." I slowly stopped the car.

"I'm just about 5 minutes away from the pack's house that we went to yesterday."

"Oh, near the lake?"

"Yes."

"Stay there!"

"Okay."

I'm starting to get really nervous. Toby is not a serious person but he sounded very serious. Then i saw Toby, in his wolf form, heading to my car. I got out from the car and open the back door.

"Shift back inside of the car. I don't want to see you naked." I said honestly. Toby is always careless about me seeing him naked. But no, not today Toby, not today.

I heard he growled, but he got into the the car still in his wolf form. His gigantic body struggle to even fit into the back seat of the car. i waited outside until he came out in his human form, dressed.

I turned my body to face him. "What's wrong?"

"What exactly do you want to say to The Alpha?" He asked, looking really serious.

"Well, mom came up with this idea that, maybe, Alpha Flynn might really be my mate." I explained.

"But, you clearly didn't feel anything yesterday." he responded.

"I know. But maybe, that's because i haven’t shifted yet. That makes sense right? I can't recognize him as my mate because i don't have a wolf. But he recognized me as his mate immediately because he has his wolf with him."

"That doesn't make sense." He said without hesitation. 

"What?" i’m actually disappointed to hear that from Toby. He could at least give this theory the benefit of a doubt.

"I mean, i don't know." Toby brushed his hand over his hair. Then he looks at me, and suddenly he pulls me to his arms and hugs me tightly. "Mitz, you can't be with him."

"Toby.. are you being serious right now? Why?" I pushed his chest rather offended by his statement. He let go of me, looking disappointed. "Don’t you think it kinda makes sense?” 

"Even if your theory was true, you still don’t want to be with him."

"Then tell me, why can't i be with him?" i demanded with my voice a bit raised. "Toby, why?"

"Do you want to know what happened to your real parents?" he looked straight to my eyes and took a deep breath.

My heart dropped.