53. I’m Scared, But

-Lucy’s POV-

I didn’t know where that came from, but I said it anyway and so I can’t take back the words that I said. You may not have planned it, but that’s what your heart truly desires. You love him! Why don’t you just give him a chance and make things easier for the both of you? Why do you have to keep on testing him? Give yourself a break and just let things flow. Maybe, just maybe you will really end up happy with him. If things do go wrong, then you’ll deal with it when it does happen. But what if it doesn’t? Are you going to keep on wallowing in your own misery? Sometimes my alter-ego is right. This time she is not being sarcastic, she is now doing real talk. I can sense that Conner was startled with what he heard from me. He started playing with my fingers like he doesn’t know what to do. “Baby, please don’t play games with me. You know how eager I am to kiss you right now so please let me. Please d