[JANE]
I couldn’t utterly express how I felt the moment I opened my eyes. With the light shining from the room's ceiling, I adjusted my vision. I can feel my tears running down on the corner of my eyes, and I let them be. The bed was sufficiently comfortable to keep me from moving a muscle.
I failed to notice that someone was here all along, not until I felt them caress my hand. My eyes widened as I noticed the familiar pair of doe eyes worriedly staring at me from my side. She was as taken aback as I was. She opened her mouth to speak, but when she uttered my name, it came out as a sob. She’s still wearing her hospital gown. I couldn’t help but to pour all of my emotions and sat up despite my dizziness just to hug her tightly.
"Khali," I whimpered, repeating her name over and over. I couldn’t believe that she was finally awake. It didn't matter that I was witnessing her emotional state for the first time. That no longer surprised
[JANE] When I regained my consciousness, the doctor asked me to take a rest for a while. At first, I didn’t agree because that means I won’t be able to visit Khali for a few days. Jey and Khali's parents, on the other hand, were adamant, and they assured me that they would take care of Khali. Even though it was against my will, I took a three-day rest. Reese stayed with me the whole time. She cooked for me, took me for a walk in the park, and made me laugh when I was crying again. This endless nightmare is killing me. The feeling of not having Khali around is enough to make me want to die. “I miss her, Reese,” I muttered under my breath. She brushed my hair as she tried to put me to sleep. My eyes were closed, and all I could hear was her lovely gentle voice humming a melody not too familiar to me. But it sounds soothing that my eyes started to close due to drowsiness. “You’ll see her tomorrow,” she said. I couldn't help but smile as I envisi
[JANE] Staring at her lifeless body, holding her in my arms – she’s not breathing anymore. I didn't care whether I had puffy eyes, dark circles under my eyes, or unkempt hair anymore. She was gone, and all I could feel was regret. My mind is filled with what-ifs and wishful thinking that she could live again. An impossible wish to bring her life back. Will God hear me this time? It was the second time I grieved this much. My heart was broken once again. When I thought someone finally mended it, she broke me again; much even broken when my mom died. I can never be mended again. "Jane, they need to take her to the morgue," Jey managed to utter. Her demeanor mirrors mine. I can feel how broken she is. I swallowed the lump in my throat, wishing Khali would stay a little longer. I've been at the hospital for about half an hour. I didn't mind if I hadn't showered in a while. This nightmare is causing me too much suffering. “I can’t le
[JANE] The road I'm driving seems endless. I have lots of options to end my life, so I can be with Khali. I could simply drive over the speed limit and just let myself get into an accident, but it doesn’t guarantee that I will die; I could simply jump off the bridge and drown in the deep ocean, or I could slit my own throat with a sharp blade, or I could poison myself. If I die, I want to be buried next to Khali’s grave. In that way, maybe I could find her in the next life easily. It may sound absurd, but I don't care; at least, that's what I believe. When I heard the loud beeping sound of the horn in the back, it jolted me out of my reverie. I immediately recognized the car; it was Reese’s. Jey's caller ID displayed on the screen as my phone began to ring. I declined to answer her. Reese's car attempted to overtake mine, the window rolled down, and Jey was yelling words, asking me to pull over. “Jane! Please pull over!” Jey yelled from
[JANE] I can say that moving on is not that easy. There are a lot of adjustments and things I need to get used to, including waking up without Khali every day. Jey and Reese were there to help me every step of the way when I was on the point of losing my mind. They were by my side throughout the entire process. While attempting to get back on my feet, I realized a few things: change is the only constant in this world, hence the only way for me to live my life is to move forward, but not entirely. Khali may not be here, but she will always be in my heart. Khali's parents decided to cut all ties with me the moment I began to move on with my life. They insisted it was for my safety, and they couldn't let me get involved again with the Mafias and dangerous stuffs. It was as if I skipped the point where I met Khali, except that I got to meet Jey. I tried to act normal each time I woke up. I opened the blinds in my room and ended up staring
[JANE] My palms felt cold as my hands fumbled with my camera. Her full lips extended into a smirk as she meekly continued what she was doing. Her prominent nose that had just scrunched made my heart pound big time. Those doe-like eyes and Barbie-like features – It can’t be her. I felt like a statue when I just stood there staring at her. I couldn’t even move a muscle, and my mind couldn’t process anything at all. I saw her look in my direction again, and her brows furrowed, probably in confusion. I opened my mouth, but nothing came out; just a small sigh as I felt my heart stuck in my ear and my throat. I gulped and took a step forward, cursing my trembling knees as I got closer to the pink-haired girl. “K-Khali? Y-you’re Khali, right?” My voice wasn’t audible enough to make her look in my direction again. My heart stopped when she closed her notebook and heaved a sigh before focusing her attention on me. She looked good on her pink hair, and
[JANE]“What’s your novel about?” I inquired as I took a sip from my coffee. Luna looked at me for a second before she squinted her eyes and hummed as if she’s trying to recall what her novel is about. Her tongue clicked before she spoke.“My novel is about two people who met in an unexpected situation. One made a bet and the other agreed, one life is at stake. I don’t want to spoil that much because I want you to read it yourself”, she smiled but I was too distracted to smile back. I was once again terrified at the thought that this is somewhat connected to me and Khali. Who is this person in front of me, sipping her coffee, wearing a cheerful and attractive smile on her face?I gulped, too aware of the loud beating of my heart. It was too loud that it almost deafened me as it’s the only thing I could hear at the moment. I fiddled with my cup and I bit my lip as I tried to stop my trembling hands.
[JANE] The loud music filled my ear as I entered Le Bridge. It is located at the right bank of Pont Alexandre III, in front of Faust. The strong scent of cigarettes irritated my nose a little. I felt Luna’s hand holding my arm and eventually pulled me closer as a large group of people tried to pass between us. She was fast to pull me closer, and I shyly looked down when I felt I was leaning too close to her. I heard her chuckle and leaned closer to my ear as she was about to say something. “Just stay close to me,” she said, and I felt like something crawling inside my stomach; some called it butterfly, and I just rolled my eyes on myself, basically suppressing the growing smile on my face. “Come,” she said and wrapped her hand around my waist as she walked me towards the counter. The crowd was wild as the DJ turned up the beat. Ladies in sexy costumes started dancing on the elevated platform as the blinding colorful lights flashed ins
[JANE]Luna, name that I never thought would ring in my ears. I tried to shift my position in my bed as my mind still couldn’t grasp what happened this day. I suddenly met the girl with pink hair that looks exactly like Khali. I went through an emotional roller coaster and it was a little exhausting for me.I want to see her again. That’s the first that came to my mind. But somewhere between those thoughts, I feel like I don’t deserve to be happy. I feel like I can’t be happy without Khali. Am I even allowed to feel these things? I swallowed the lump on my throat and kept all of my emotions aside.“I’m sorry”, I muttered as I closed my eyes. I feel like I shouldn’t entertain anyone in my life. I’m afraid of the possibility that I might forget about Khali. Tears streamed from my eyes and I covered my face with my palm. I bit my lip as my chest tightened a bit.It’s been a while si