THREE

"Arghhh... what happened?"

            I tried to get up from my sleeping position while holding my head which was still throbbing.

Last night I must have been drinking soju so much that I ended up feeling really dizzy like this. Even though so far I have never drunk alcohol, it was my first experience. I do remember the time a waiter walked back and forth with a bottle of soju. I then asked the waiter to bring two bottles of soju with the excuse that I wanted to drink it with my other friends. Instead, I took two bottles of soju to the back garden, then decided to get drunk there alone.

But now I feel like I'm no longer in the park. I was in a quite warm and comfortable room with a soft mattress. Then... wait! I'm not alone here.

Oh, my God!

I immediately scanned the room around me as well as a man who seemed like he was not wearing clothes under the white blanket that had opened up to his waist. Shit! Who is the man who dared to frame me to sleep with him.

Now I'm absolutely sure that I'm not using a piece of cloth under this blanket either because my skin is directly in contact with the soft surface of this blanket. Even as the man next to me moved slightly, I could feel his skin rubbing against my thigh which felt like he had been stung by a small electric current.

            "That tie..."

            Instantly I felt dazed when I saw a bow tie just seen just sitting on the floor.

I know very well who the owner of the tie is, but I don't want to admit it right now because I'm sure it's not just Lee Junhyu who have it.

Slowly I began to catch my breath to open the white pillow that covered the face of the damn man who had dared to fucked me tonight. And if that guy is Lee Junhyu, I swear I'll kill him right away.

            "Anna... are you awake?" Junhyu asked in a hoarse voice as he removed the white pillow from above his face.

Damn this man! What did he do to me last night? I slept with this disgusting guy? Oh God, wake me from this nightmare right now! Has my virginity been snatched away by the most disgusting man at Kirin High School? DOUBLE SHIT!

“Kyaaa! What did you do to me Lee Junhyu? You raped me, Lee Junhyu you... mppffhhh... mppffhh..."

            “Ssshh… you want the whole school to know that you just slept with this disgusting guy? Shut up, we're still in the health room.” He whispered frantically, covering my mouth.

But I don't care about it all. I immediately pushed his body so hard that he fell off the floor and it made me even more hysterical because the man didn't use anything after the blanket was removed.

            “I told you not to scream! You better clean up."

            For a few minutes I was silent while trying to normalize my fear. It's all still like a dream and I keep closing my eyes many times in hope that when I open my eyes later, I wake up in my own room, and don't wake up on the bed in the medical room I used to use slept with this disgusting guy last night.

            "What have you done to me?"

            "I don't know, I don't remember." His answer is short.

I furiously threw the big bolster to my side while my left hand was still gripping the edge of the blanket tightly because I had not put anything under it. I still can't accept my current condition which has to wake up with Lee Junhyu's idiot face beside me.

            "Put on your clothes on and we discuss this matter carefully."

            "How can a damn guy like you fucked me?"

            I sobbed softly when I saw traces of our activity on the bed.

It feels like I really don't remember anything last night, I only remember when that damn Lee Junhyu took my bottle of soju and took me to somewhere. Yes, he carried me last night from the back garden. So he must be intending to rape me last night.

            “I was drunk trying to stop your insane intentions from drinking all that soju. Last night I just wanted to move you to a quieter place because of your conditions. But you teased me and took off my clothes, don't you remember that?"

I shook my head limply while still sobbing on the bed. Now I only look pathetic in front of Junhyu. Whereas usually Lee Junhyu who always looks pathetic because he always gets tortured from people who don't like him, including me.

“You perverted bastard who took advantage of my condition for your pleasure. Don't tell anyone if you have fucked me, or I'll kill you!” I threaten fiercely while picking up my clothes one by one.

I saw he was just silent and seemed not to put up any resistance. He's probably cheering right now because he managed to turn things around so badly. Humph, but I won't just give up that easily. It's just an accident, nothing will happen to me after what I did last night with this bastard guy. I will definitely be fine. Well... I'll definitely be fine. Nobody will know about this as long as that freak doesn't tell anyone. So I'm going to keep an eye on his movements after this so that he doesn't try to reveal this disgusting secret to others.

"If you dare to tell everyone this disgusting thing, I will definitely sue you in court."

"Whatever, you better tidy up your appearance immediately before the picket teacher enters here."

You son of bitch! How dare he leave me after what he has done to me. His heart must be very happy when he managed to put me into his trap and screwed me without getting a fight from me. Aarrgghhh you idiot Im Anna! Stupid! Foolish! I shouldn't have taken the reckless act of wanting to drink two bottles of soju at once, when I had never drunk alcohol before. I really am stupid, and Lee Junhyu is using my unconsciousness for his pleasure.

            "Drink this to get rid of the dizziness you feel."

            I stared fiercely at Lee Junhyu who was handing me a glass of water and a yellow tablet. What if this man wanted to poison me after he got my body? However I can't believe it in the slightest. He even took the opportunity when I was unconscious, so it's possible that he might poison me.

            “You will definitely poison me with that tablet. I know you have a deep grudge against me because all this time I have made you suffer."

"I am angry with you for all the actions you and your lover did. But at a time like this do you still want to accuse me of going to harm you if in fact I could have reported it for sleeping with you. Please don't make things more difficult Anna."

I chuckled annoyed at his frustrated attitude. There is no other choice but to accept the medicine so that this damn headache gets better soon. Then what should I do after this? What if I get pregnant after this? My mom and dad would have had a heart attack if they found out that I had committed deviant deeds with a futile man who had no future like Lee Junhyu. God help me.

“You don't want to go home? Or do you want to enter the classroom like this?”

I glanced at the clock in the corner of the room, exhaling softly. There's no way I could enter the classroom like this either. I better go home to calm down. Luckily the school is pretty quiet outside, so no one will see me come out like this.

"Aaahh..."

What is this? I feel that something is off when I walk, it hurts a little and I feel it will become even more painful when I come into contact with water.

"Are you okay?"

            "Don’t touch me! Get fucking away from me, bastard man."

I brushed his hand roughly and immediately walked quickly leaving the health room. I will not let him touch me again even if only the tip of the nail. And I swear this will be the last time he can abuse me like this.

-00-

Ever since that incident, I have always tried to avoid that guy. If Jihoo oppa and his friends would beat him or do anything to him, I chose to go to the cafeteria with Tiffany and Jessica. It felt better not to see his face than I was always thinking about what happened that night. Even though I was drunk, sometimes I could still see hazy shadows about the events that night that traumatized me. I'm afraid of my future. What would people say if I ever got in touch with the idiot guy at Kirin High School.

"Anna, you haven't talked much lately, are you sick?"

I shook my head slowly at Jessica who was eating her sandwich next to me. Today I chose to stay away from Jihoo oppa who was about to beat Junhyu in the back warehouse. The stupid man again maintained his ego not to give Jihoo oppa an answer when the Math test in the first hour. Whatever he does to that stupid man, I don't care. As long as I don't have to see his face, that's enough.

"I'm just feeling bored with my life, I'm lonely." I said honestly.

Last night my mother called me and said she couldn't return to Seoul because there was still a lot of work to be done in Australia. And I feel like you always give me the same excuse every time you can't go back to Seoul at the end of the month. Even though I really miss their presence at home. I really hope they can return to Seoul later this month to celebrate my birthday. Maybe my wish sounds very childish, but what's wrong if my parents come to commemorate the birthday of their daughter. Didn't they really look forward to my presence? But after they got me, they just forgot about me, as if never existed in their life.

"I'll go to the toilet for a while, if Jihoo oppa is looking for me, tell him to wait here for a while."

Without waiting for an answer from Jessica, I immediately stepped into the toilet which was located right next to the canteen. I seem to have to wash my face with cold water so I can think clearly. Since that promnight incident, my mind has become more chaotic. No matter how hard I try, I always can't forget that incident. Especially if I saw that lousy man from a distance. All my fears just appeared so that I felt cold sweat.

"Cough.... Cough...."

I paused for a moment in front of the men's toilet when I heard such a terrible cough. No matter who the guy is coughing, I feel like he's not okay. His cough sounded very loud and occasionally I also heard a groan.

"Hey, are you okay?"

I don't know where I got the courage, I just went into the men's toilet to check on the man who had just coughed. It's a little strange that I did this, because before I had never felt empathy for anyone. I more often show my indifference than empathy because I myself feel that my life also needs pity.

"How are you Anna?"

Reflexively I shuffled back towards the wall when I saw the man's face was bent over the sink. I could vaguely see the red liquid inside the sink which was almost covered by its wide body, but I'm not stupid, I know it is blood. Then when he looked up his face, staring at the reflection of my face through the large mirror in front of him, I moved further toward the wall because I felt very sad seeing his condition. I don't know what just happened to him, but his nose and lips were bleeding. Then there was a large bluish bruise along her cheekbones that felt so painful when I saw him.

"You were beaten again?" I asked a little absent-mindedly.

The rancid smell that wafted on my nose suddenly made me nauseous and dizzy. Lately I feel like my sense of smell has become sharper. Not infrequently I feel nauseous when I smell the aroma of cooking by my servants at home, or when I cross the canteen at lunchtime.

"I used to it, this is normal."

He coughed and he wiped his mouth which was still bleeding, then washed it repeatedly with tap water until the blood stream was sucked into the drain. A speck of pity suddenly flashed across my heart. It was anxious to see him always end up like this. Even though he might not be that weak, but he always chose to remain silent when those people started hitting him without the slightest resistance.

"Wipe your wounds with this."

I handed a packet of wipes towards him to clean all his wounds are pathetic. But for a long time he just looked at me without taking the wipes from my hand. Finally I threw the wipes towards the sink and left it alone which was still frozen in place for some reason. He may be surprised by my attitude suddenly becoming pretentious like that. But believe me, I don't understand myself lately either.

I often experience strange things, one of which is my sense of smell which suddenly turns sharp. And one of the reasons I rushed out of the toilet was because I couldn't stand the rancid smell of blood coming from his wounds anymore. It gave me such a headache that I had to find a handle before I went into the ladies toilet. Unfortunately the dizziness kept shackling me and made me unconsciously squat under the toilet sink with limp legs that I could no longer use to support my body.

"Anna, are you okay?"

            That guy, why did he go into the ladies's toilet? Unfortunately I didn't have the energy to answer his question, so I could only surrender when he lifted my limp body out of the toilet to be taken to the health room. When I crossed the canteen, I was a little grateful because the bell for the class had just rung five minutes ago. So nobody will see me lying helplessly in the arms of this lousy man. I can't imagine how people would react if they saw me like this. They will definitely think I am hypocritical because all this time I have always tormented Lee Junhyu with Jihoo oppa.

“He nearly passed out on the toilet."

"Son, you were beaten again?"

I vaguely heard the doctor in the health room who sounded worried about Junhyu. But she first handled me who was already looking weak in the health room bed.

"What happened to her?"

"I don't know, I found her limp in the toilet."

"What are you in the ladies room for?"

"Just a coincidence passing by after cleaning my wounds."

 “You've been beaten up since first grade, I got tired of treating your wounds. Ah.. this girl is just tired, stressed, and not eating enough, her blood pressure is very low. He needs rest."

"Then let her rest here."

"You also have to rest, I will treat your wounds."

In the midst of my consciousness that was almost thinning, I glimpsed Junhyu's face was looking down in front of mine while looking at me with worry. But I couldn't see it clearly because after that my eyelids felt heavy, and the darkness started to hug me slowly so I couldn't see anything in front of me anymore.