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Volume 2: Ch. 10.5
Some memories are hard to forget.
I tried to fall asleep but every time I close my eyes I see those faces. Fear, Guilt and Terror only God and my dead sister knows my struggles. I've kept my mouth shut, carrying it on my back and ignore the word call justice and what's right. In the end I realize that I couldn't fall asleep cause my past has haunted me.
It's 1 in the morning already.
She probably showed up right now, but she didn't and now I'm alone in the dark.
I had the fear to walk outside, I might feel a hand grasped and take me inside the endless void. If ghost of revenge were real then could have hunted me by now.
I grabbed my phone to have some light. I tried to squeeze my hand underneath bed, I know that I hid somewhere.
Alas.
There is it, Benzodiazepines.
It is also known as sleeping pills. I knew that I would need this tonight, I took 1 pills and felt nothing, so I decided to take some more and more till I rea
LeGrinchThis happens before the events of the date of April and Wayne
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