Chapter 3 The lost love

  When was I was in Junior high I met my bestfriend Rosa. She was approachable and easy to get along with. I'm introvert while Rosa is Extrovert. I'm outdated while she is fashionable. But our differences make our friendship stronger. I treated Rosa as my little sister. I treated her as my family. We both dreamt to became a Doctor so we decided to went on the same Medical School. We loved to stick together. During Internship we assign on the same hospital. And this was crazy we reaching our dreams together. We are really best buddies.

  After so many years of hardwork we finally became a residence doctor. I am became a Surgeon and She became a Anesthesiologist.

   Our friendship started to get bitter when It happen to run on my old acquaintance. It's my first love "Justin" a guy who always put butterflies on my stomach, a guy with a blue eyes blonde hair and one of the Top player on basketball in our campus. I was skeptical! He's heading his way to me. That smile makes my heart beat faster.

 "Bettina!! Its been a long time! How are you??"  he smile. I find him become mature and I guess he is a lawyer now base on his suit.

  "Yeah! It's been so long, I’m okay!!" I smiled and raising up my shoulder

 "You!?How are you?"a question that cause silence to both of us.

  Yes how are we now Justin after our break up we never talk again. I might say I never talk you anymore because I felt hurt so badly when you broke me up. I stay positive and compose I am now okay. I move on now and I had my own life now.

  Justin was about to answer suddenly Rosa came.

 "Hey! Justin it's been a long time! The last time I saw you was your last game, I remember you having that 3 point shots make our school champion for the finals!!" Rosa was overwhelmed seeing him again since she had a crush on him. She confess it to me when we where in Junior high but I'm not intimidated since I trust Justin a lot. And it's normal since he is the captain ball of the team.

 "Oh yeah!!" as he was smiling and brushing her hair feel a little shy. He stares at me, trying to talk in the eyes. I still had my presence of mind so I stay calm and normal. I'm not affected seeing him again. But I cannot denied this my heart is stumble in happiness seeing him again but this is ain't right. I had a boyfriend now It's Travis. I cannot hurt him he such good person. I can't ruin everything what we had now.

  "So when did you came back?!" Rosa asked him and I listen in silence those question bring back all the pain in the the past.

  We met on the summer of 2001. I might say I had a bad impression on him. An arrogant kid but later I knew him, he is not. He's nice and cool one. He loves to surprise people in a generous way. We became close friends and end up being my boy best friend. We talk about a lot in the future. Our dreams and what we want us to be when we're already an adult. We went on same school on Junior high. During our second year Justin confessed his feelings to me. I in return without even hesitant answered him a "Yes!!" for all he knew I already had those magical feelings the first time I saw him. We became official and that is the most memorable moment in my life. I know I will never regret this moment ever!. During school days we're always together, during lunch and after school. We are inseparable. Rosa was started to sulking at me since I was always with Justin.  Everyone was envy with me but I don't mind it. Who would know Justin is MVP in our school while I am just a plain simple girl. But we don't mind it at all.

  On one morning during lunch, Justin was in his practice. Me and Rosa are having lunch, she repeatedly telling how she was envy to me for being with Justin. But I didn't mind to care at all since she is my best friend. I told her one day she will find her man to, just don't be in hurry.. Don't chase for love let love chase you. And she answered  me "Whatever!!" and we laughed as soon as we finished our lunch Justin came.

   Saturday morning, me and Justin decide to spend our weekends on one of their resort "La Soleo" a place where everyone wants. A cool breeze, a nice wave, white sand and they serve different cuisine. A really 5 star resort in the province. Justin's family is somehow well knowed in the city. His Mom is a top lawyer in the province while his dad is a business man. In the east side of the resort, their rest house located where we decided to stay. He the one who cook our lunch all my favorite dish Paella and Arroz ala cabaña. He even made me a homemade pizza.

  "Beef and mushroom?! You really know how to make me happy! I’m impressed!!" gave him a thumb up sign. He smiled and say

 "It's my job to make you happy that's how I love you!" those charming smile really melt my heart. "I love you too Mi Amor"

 After our lunch we decide to take a walk on the shore. He hold my hands and hug me so tight. I was confused those hug was different like before but I don't mind to bother. I don't like to spoil the moment. Then suddenly he pulled me and carry to the sea! We enjoy the water and breath the cool breeze. We had so much fine. Everything seems so fine I never knew that, that will be our last day together. I never had idea.. On the afternoon we watch the sun set's, It's our favorite time everyday.. Seeing the sun set remind us everything what was happen bad or good will have to let go and will have a new beginning.. I was talking to him and telling what Rosa told me but I never heard any word from him Until.. "I'm leaving tomorrow"  I stare at him he never dare to look at me but I saw sadness in her eyes, earlier.  Yes earlier! I knew something wasn't fine but I never spoil the mood. So I rest it all to him. I was starled but I decided to stay calm I had no any right to take away this opportunity to him. I know this is his dream but I’m the only reason why he always refused the offer. I don't know what to say Justin told me once that his Dad wants him to study abroad but he refused it. He doesn't want to leave me. He promised to me he will always be by my side that he always want us to be together. He want us to go on the same school on college. But deep down inside of me I felt betrayed he never told me he changedhis plan. I wishing he did so I can prepare myself. So I still had time more tome to do things I want us to do. A place where we want to go a more time to be together. My tears keep falling in my eyes.

 "What time is your flight? I stay composed but my eyes mingled with tears.

 "7 in the evening, Are you sure is it okay to you?" Babe, I will be away for four years!" It's a long time, I am not able to be here to you anytime you need me!" he talk to me calmly trying to console my feelings.

 "It's okay babe! I trust you! I had faith on us!" It's short time we can always talk, you can send me email. Don't worry about me I will be fine!" "We need to sacrifice for our future right?!" "You dream for this Right!? go on Harvard and be a lawyer too just like your Mom. I had no any rights to take it away to you!" "I trust us!!" talking him confidently

 "I love you Bettina! I will be back and I will marry you" "I love you more Justin, everything will be fine"

  When I went home I look for Mom. I asked Kyla "Where is Mom?" She just said "Mom left in the morning" she look at me and she comfort me. Kyla knows everything without even a word that I ‘am in pain.. She comfort me until I settled down. The next day I woke up early It's Sunday. I'm supposed to take a mass but my head hurts I feel I was still in a sleep.  I search for my phone 12 miss call. It's Justin, I was about to call him my phone rang again. "Babe, Good morning" "Good morning too babe, Are you ready to your flight later?" "Don't forget your aspirin for your migraine  okay?!" "Yes babe, I won't okay. Are you going to come later? I want to see you before I leave??" he ask me calmly but I feel a hope in his voice "I’d love to but my head hurts, I felt like I’m going to have a flu"

 That day I let my love go. I started crying, I’m started to miss him. Oh how in the world this thing happening to me.