Chapter 43

After my father was laid to rest, my brothers pleaded with me to stay a while in the house before going back to my house but I did not agree. I had already planned to go home after my father was laid to rest, but I didn't want to spend time with my brothers. I was not going to listen to any of them. The only person I ever listened to was dead and gone.

I was much angry with myself as I was angry with Francis and Gabe. I was angry with Gabe because he didn't listen to my father and Francis was the main cause of my father's death. If only he had not done what he did, I wouldn't have come home ranting like a mad woman. I just needed somebody to blame for my father's death.

If only I had left when I said my mind, my father would not have been six feet under. If only could not bring my father back, he was gone forever and I was never going to see him again probably till I die. My father was my rock, my adviser, my father, my everything. He has been the one taking care of us for a very lon