Epsd 25

Rushed into whatever was happening within the miller family, I firstly was intrigued by them. For the second time in my life, I was feeling something for another woman except Kathryn. Maybe merely affection. I couldn't tell.

when I left there place that Saturday, I was very enrolled in thinking about Beth all night. Returned home joyed and laid in bed wondering what she had done to me.

Again and Again, I caught myself smirking at how jolly she was. The millers made me realize how lonely my life was and how miserable it was to get if ever I chose the path I had started making for myself.

I decided not to give a second thought to asking Beth out. I wanted to have something, create some emotions with someone.

Very early on Sunday, my passed choices grew less heroic to me. I was feeling crappy. like I was betraying the love of my life .

the thoughts were all over me and I couldn't stand myself.

planned on channeling from it but Beth had me in fully. it w