(UNFINISHED DEAL) ‘YOU DO WANT TO BREAK FREE FROM THIS DARKNESS, AREN’T YOU, AIRA?’ I had enough. Too much, right? ‘DON’T WORRY AND DO WHAT WILL I SAY, AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY, AIRA.’ Something snap out of me, as those words are too tempting to even resist, nor ignore anymore. With my hands forming into a tight fist, everything of the once darkness faded, as my reality faces me. With the courage, yet something like a provoking nature that wasn’t good, but that is what I needed right now. I screamed. “I didn’t steal anything from you. I even don’t know where you kept your money.” I cried begging, begging them to believe me. Yet, more likely half standing for myself, as the other half is still quivering under fear. A giggle echoed, but only I can hear. Wherein those words and strength is someone I do not even know where it came from. No, I know and am very much aware of where it all came from, as it is from that voice. ‘THAT’S IT. BREAK FREE AND JUST
(THE NAME’S ENVY) “YOU DID SUCH A THING?” Not even wondering, but more likely intrigued by the surprise that HE just detonates in front of everyone. By means the few who are watching and carefully eying the birth of the sin. HE giggles as HE admits it. All the while as HE is loving the excitement that HE wrote HIMSELF, for the world and loop that is getting more and more exciting. “What do you think?” HE asks back to her, the Mistress who has never been surprised by HIS actions. HIS writings and script that was unpredictable, and quite playful in the sense that it is dreadful. But all in all, and especially at the very end, it is what they all needed. “Interesting.” She then and immediately replied. Drawing a sinister smile on HIS face. HE answers the question that is only running inside her mind. “Pauleen knew and all along is playing with it. It may take Alliah and JK by surprise for seeing everything unfold like this right now. But not Kyle.”
(CONTINUED LIES)I open my eyes taken back from the tragedy that is happening to me, and the fact that I will lose everything, even my dignity and purity, worsen the down fate everyone deems my life to be.‘WELL, WELL, WELL. SHALL WE CONTINUE AND GIVE LIFE TO LUST, AIRA.’Hearing the same voice that’s been provoking me. Where and when something from the back, deep down and dreadful is laughing, with the amusement of seeing everything unfold. The horrors of my life suddenly flash and ring.“Remember this, no one and I mean not a single person would dare to even look and help a useless s*** such as you!”More than hunting me with those words. Was it even a counted horror, but worse than that? Everything is somewhat spinning to the desire that I could not fathom, when the same voice, no, someone else says.‘NOW, NOW, NOW. I NEED SOMETHING TO EAT. MY DEAR AIRA.’I stop thinking as my body falls limp, as I heard one of them scream. Looking ahead and up, I froze in shock as one by one they
(FANTASY AND REALITY) ‘THAT’S RIGHT. DO NOT THINK ANYMORE AS YOU DO NOT NEED IT. JUST FOLLOW OUR WORDS AND YOUR WORLD WILL BE AS PERFECT AS YOU WANT IT TO BE.’With the words that never fails to hunt me and provoking me to take everything in exchange of the whole me. The both of them now is playing with my feelings, as I do not mind such. For all along the voice of her and her push saved me somehow, or did she? Now as the both of them are telling me. Pushing me for one thing to have the thing that I could only have if I will only listen to them. As it is the only path of my reality.“I give up, as you can have everything in exchange for what I desire the most.”Unlike giving up and more likely a chance that I ca grab as long as I become a puppet. I didn’t have to think about it, as it will all be the right thing, one I have the thing that I deeply desire more than anyone and something form this filthy world.“Come with me.”With the stranger’s hand that’s reaching towards me, and the
(DARK SKY) “WHO ARE YOU?” Asking the question, yet more like a taunting doubt that I have in mind. By which I was being played and everything that just happened is all a lie. Those voices, no, their voices made me think otherwise and back to what they wanted me to think. ‘DO NOT THINK ANYTHING ANYMORE AIRA. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS LISTEN TO OUR VOICE AND BELIEVE AND ONLY TO OUR WORDS. IF YOU WANTED TO BE HAPPY. YOU DO WANT TO BE HAPPY, RIGHT?’ Realizing my wish and what I’ve been through are the necessary things that I should not be questioning. Especially since both of them are my savor and the reason for this hope and comfort that I have now and deep inside my heart. There is nothing else, but to trust. Right? “I do.” I then and immediately answered back. With their giggle and proud heart that I could hear, knew, and somewhat recognize. My world is turning into the right place where it should be. But then deep down inside of me is te
(FALSE PAST) “THEN I WANT YOU TO BE MY FRIEND! BE MY FRIEND, AIRA.” I shouldn’t have listened as I shouldn’t have been too naïve to believe you. To trust and fall for someone who treated me all that I ever wish for, for someone. But I couldn’t be too hard unto myself and to who am I, as I have been through all the darkness of the world, where you are the light that came and suddenly gave me the warmth I desperately needed. But then everything of this is nothing, but a play, a false past, and just a romantic nightmare, right? ‘DO YOU WANT IT ALL TO BE?’ Hearing their voice again, as I am in the middle of seeing the past that is tearing me even more and apart. Their giggle echoes unto my ears, as the other, the male voice echoes. ‘JUST WHAT DID WE TELL YOU? YOU DO NOT NEED TO THINK ABOUT ANYTHING. JUST RELIEVE THE PAST THAT ‘YOU HAVE. THE PAST THAT WILL AID OUR BIRTH.’ “Okay.” Heeding as I do not have a choice by any of this right now. Every
(BIRTH) “MICHAEL ANTHONY KEITH, THAT’S MY NAME, BUT YOU CAN CALL ME,” Just how could I forget? The person who first became the most important person in my life aside from my family and the real one. The little boy that I meet then. The one who had those warm smiles and comforting eyes that eases away the fear that I had back then. “Hold my hand, and I will take you back to your mother.” The very first person reaches his hand to me. The one who only hears my cries and came to my aid. The little boy made me feel comfortable immediately despite him being a stranger. A stranger at first. “Don’t worry, I will be here until you we will find your mother.” His first promise. The words that remain inside my mind and heart for a long time. Even though I forgot about him. The words and his promise made me believe that everything will be okay, as long as someone will lend their hand to help. “Trust me.” The thing tha
(PERFECTION) IF ONLY I COULD TURN BACK THE TIME AND RELIVE THOSE DAYS, I WISH TO GO BACK TO THE TIME AFTER HE CAME AND SAVED ME. ‘FINALLY.’ I could hear the two of them saying that particular word, which was then followed by their giggle that turns into a peal of maniacal laughter. A demonic way by the least, yet it didn’t scare me, anything, not even a bit. For maybe I was already used to it. Now treating it as a normal way in this charade. But perhaps I am long gone deep into the darkness and insanity that is just lurking in secret. “What should I do now?” I asked the two of them, as everything in my world turns into nothing. When the only person that I ever believed in, left me alone and completely. “What should I do that everything comes into nothing right now?” I ask once more as I couldn’t hear anyone of them like they suddenly fell into silence. A cold silence. “He is already gone as everyone is pushing me away from him for good. Tel