I smashed my face to the pillow screaming and crying my lungs out. It was the only solution that came to my mind. I did cry more than needed since I was small. But the pain I felt that day was the worse. It felt shitty as if my whole world crumbled down in front of me. I wanted to kill myself and at least die. Because hurting him was the last thing I wanted. And somehow I did it. Because that was the only way I could chase him away from me though I didn't want to... for some unknown reason. Flashback Our lips matched with each other's like two puzzle pieces. His bow-shaped lips tugged at my lips as if his life depended on it. He nibbled at my lips giving me strange tingles inside my body. His fingers running through my hair, I unknowingly leaned to his touch. My shoulders slumped as I dropped my hands from his hair. He led the kiss and I stayed still trying my best to receive it. I didn't know what I should do since it was too sudden... I was also inexperienced. It was heavily r
I fell face flat on the floor bumping my nose and my full lips on the ground. I groaned in pain. "Oh my god I kissed the floor ..." I whined and slowly rose to my feet wincing in pain. I hissed touching my nose and a devil decided to show up just then. I shrieked when a familiar voice talked from behind. "Oh, I didn't mean to disturb your sweet time... with the floor.." I turned around and looked at the person who just talked. The same person who disappeared for one whole fvcking month. I just stood there not knowing what to do or what to say, so with both my hands rubbing at my nose and lips, I watched him. For a fact yeah, strange things happen when you see the person you like, I saw that on a poster. Guess all were true... because I was a blushing mess even before I knew what was going on with me. I never knew what it was to feel like when you liked someone. So, however, there I was being all silly. I was stupid, to begin with. It tore down my heart when he was nowhere to be s
I paced in my room, fiddling with my fingers. Stomping and kicking at the air in one second and blushing hard in the other second, I couldn't decide what I should do as the next step. It was confusing how a lot of things happened within one day. The person whom I thought I would never see again sudd
I stared into his eyes which shined in delight. Caressing his hair so softly, I kissed his nose very lightly. He was too cute. Too bad for my health. He smelled good, which was why I smelled around his neck.I caressed his cute face down to the neck and down to the back, earning a little happy sound
So one by one I told him about all the memories of the past and the feelings I've right then. His eyes looked shaken at first but then smiled at me and pressed a sweet kiss on my cheeks mumbling; "It's alright you've lied to me.. but it's really sad to know you lied to me all this time," he said, his smile was genuine, it bared all the feelings he had for me. I looked at him mesmerized, how could someone lovely like him exist in this world? Every time I thought I didn't deserve him I determined I will one day improve myself so we will deserve each other. But he was too kind... I couldn't believe my ears when he said 'it's alright' because it wasn't. Not at all. I touched his cheeks and leaned in for a kiss, his eyes didn't navigate in place they looked kind of troubled. Our faces were mere centimeters away from each other. The feeling was amazing. "I am sorry," I muttered almost inaudible but I saw his emotions change and took it as a sign, that he heard me. I wanted him to know how
I cried calling for my parents. I wanted at least one person to come to help me. I saw Joss looking at me. He stared longer. He was looking at me with pity and sympathy. "I am sorry, Win," he said aloud so I could hear.. he didn't come to me. He left. The last person whom I thought won't leave me, left me despite knowing how much his presence meant to me. Everything around me became darker. I was left alone. People were laughing pointing at me. Some were accusing me. It became darker until I couldn't see anything. "Win!" "Win! Hey! Wake up!" "Win!" I heard a familiar voice calling me. I gasped and opened my eyes. I couldn't see the darkness anymore. I couldn't hear people humiliating me either. But.. instead. I could see a pair of lovely eyes looking at me in concern. I was in a familiar room which I recognized as his room. It was Bright. He was combing my hair with a worried look. The Bright I saw in my dream was different. No, it was just a dream and this is real Bright, I th
Bentley ran around us barking excitedly about who knows what! I heard a faint dissatisfied groan escaping Bright's lip. I looked at him first before removing my hands from his neck. His eyes caught mine staring at his nearly swollen lips and suddenly I felt shy and wanted to hide under the bed. It was over. I lowkey wished Bentley wasn't there so.. yeah. But he was. Bright got onto his legs along with me and I quickly jumped to the ground off his grip. He looked at Bentley who then quickly jumped onto the couch going to sleep, I looked at it with annoyance. A pup sent by a devil! I stood there not knowing what I should do and I looked everywhere but Bright because I didn't want to get caught.. looking at him well.. staring at him. For the second time. Everything afterward happened within seconds. Bright's hand gripped around mine pulling me with him. He fastened his pace walking across the TV room area towards... his bedroom. And I followed him from behind almost running to catch up
It was this weird feeling when I woke up. My stomach was all growling inside and I could taste bitterness around my throat.Clutching at my lower abdomen I raised myself from the bed slowly keeping my feet on the floor. I winced in pain as I felt a burning in there. It was as if my insides were filled with some acid and it was eating me from inside.Deciding it was now or never I gave all my weight to the two poor legs which went jelly as soon as I stood up straight. It didn't take long for me to kiss the floor aggressively.I fell face flat on the floor.Cursing at Joss for making me eat a ton of snacks the night before I walked to the washroom looking like a hunchback.. at least it made me a bit easy to move around. By the time I neared the sink my whole body gave up and I had to lean on it for support. Different colored spots danced in my vision. It.. wasn't normal.I took one leap at the commode and put out all my dinner. Gripping at the seat I made sure everything was out.. what a