JOSH’s POV
Honey snuggled closer, her small hands wrapped around my neck carrying her, as I walked to the cold park today. It’s too cold to play here so we’re heading to the mall to watch a movie this afternoon.The wind was fierce and frigid as it whipped past us. Honey cowered closer to me, hid her face in the crook of my neck. “Daddy Josh, it's making my face cold.”Because of her frail body, she’s now afraid of the cold, so she always wore a lot of thick layers, a thick fur jacket, knitted hat, scarf, and gloves.“Hold a little more baby, we’re close,” I told her as I walked the remaining fifty feet to the movie theatre.“Daddy, can you sing me a song?” she then whispered, her head lying weakly on my shoulder.I started to hum her favorite song, and started singing. I couldn’t stop a tear that slipped from my eye when I remembered my last conversation with Yoo-Mi before she leftJOSH’s POVWhy did you lie to me Yoo-Mi? I swiftly wiped the tears on my face with my right hand when I finished singing Honey’s favorite song.I was so surprised when she clapped her hands weakly and gave me a warm kiss on the cheek. “You’re always my favorite singer daddy.” She beamed and I laughed softly kissing her hair. But then she noticed my teary eyes and she cupped my cheeks gently. “I know you miss mommy. I miss her too.” She rasped wiping my tears with her thumb.And I burst out sobbing. My shoulders were shaking as I pulled Honey’s head on my shoulder caging her in a tight hug. I couldn’t take the pain I was feeling inside. The ache in my chest almost seemed to explode.“You really love mommy,” she said, her tiny hands caressing my back trying to calm me down from sobbing.These lies were slowly killing me and will surely make my loved one’s hate me once they learned about th
YOO-MI’s POVI got up slowly, my hands trembled as I gripped the towel tightly on my body.I pulled out a pair of jeans and a shirt inside my suitcase and dressed quickly. As I exited the bedroom, my feet found the kitchen and there was Yoon Jeonghan sitting at the table, his hands were on his face.He glanced up a second later, his eyes instantly locking onto mine. The smell of coffee and bread hit me and made my mouth water. I was in dire need of some coffee and breakfast.He quickly stood up and pulled a chair for me. Once I sat down, I noticed there already were two coffee cups at the table.“I’m sorry, I don’t have a chocolate with me.” he took a seat next to me, his chair perfectly close yet far enough away it didn’t feel crowded.I don’t like chocolate anymore Jeonghan.“It’s alright.” I eagerly grabbed the cup and brought it to my lips. It was still hot.As soon as I took my f
YOO-MI’s POVI slapped Jeonghan hard across his face making his cheeks red all over. “How dare you Jeonghan! How dare you decline your own daughter just like that!” I screamed, the tears just can’t stop falling down my face. I gritted my teeth and clenched my hands so tightly while looking at him murderously. “And to tell me that you’re infertile is too much! This is too much Jeonghan!”“Yoo-Mi, please listen to me—““Damn you! You are Honey’s father! Why can’t you just accept it!”“Yoo-Mi—“ he tried to hold me but I stepped back. “This is painful for me too, but I’m not her father. Listen--”I shook my head slowly. “No! No! No! I will not listen to you! I will never listen to you!” I screamed as I slumped on the floor sobbing. I clenched my fist so hard that my nails dug my palms painfully.“Yoo-Mi, I am telling the
YOO-MI’s POVJeonghan helped me get inside the bathroom to clean myself again after our fight. He carried me back inside the room and laid me on his bed. I heard him rummaging around in the closet as the sun sets over the mountains. The night has fallen.I felt his fingers graze my skin as he removed the towel on my body. He put on his shirt on me, something with long sleeves covered my body as I laid back down. It smelled like him. Just like him. He pulled out the towel and threw it in the basket together with his dirty clothes.My hands reached for him as soon as I felt his side of the bed dipped. He’s warm, feverish. I could feel the weight on his shoulders as I scooted closer. I wanted to be closer to him, right next to him.The moment my head found his chest, it felt like every broken piece of my heart was instantly healed.“We need to talk,” I exhaled as his hand rubbed the back of my head. The other links with mine on his stoma
YOO-MI’s POV“Jeonghan..” I whispered. I couldn’t think straight. I couldn’t believe this was happening.The first man that I loved, my first kiss, my first heartbreak, my first in everything was setting me free.“Why?” my voice broke. I shouldn’t be asking him but I want to know.“Why?” Jeonghan repeated. His voice was shaky and trembling. “Why not Yoo-Mi? You’re happy now with Josh. You’re happy without me, you can live without me and I am too. I had lived without you. You don’t need someone like me who’s coward, useless, and mentally unstable.”“You had lived without me, but were you happy?”“It doesn’t matter if I was happy or not. I’m alive, see? Without you.”It’s different now that he was saying goodbye in front of me. it’s different and it means more and hurts more, it hurts like hell.“I
YOO-MI’s POVJeonghan’s hand found my chin and he lifted my face. I gave him a small smile, decided that I don’t really want to talk about this. I closed the remaining space between us and kissed his lips. They still tasted like him. Minty, dark, and dangerous.This is dangerous. Too dangerous for my heart. We should stop.But I don’t want to.His arms wrapped around my waist and he walked me backward until my calves hit the bed and I fell back, floating through the air, finally landing somewhere warm and soft. I think I’ve been falling for a long time.I felt his hands wrapped around my knees as he spread me wide open. I felt another tear escape as he settled between my legs, kissed each hip bone, my inner thighs, my lower stomach before his breath fell on my center, my core, the place only he’s ever been.I shuddered, shivered, felt my body sing for him as the wiry hair of his beard tickled my skin. My muscles clenc
YOO-MI’s POVJeonghan heaved himself up as he slid out of me before lying on his back beside me, his hand over his stomach. He was smiling as he stared up at the ceiling.My hand drifted across the cool, stiff comforter in search of his skin. The moment my fingertips connected with his arm, a prickling sensation overtook my entire body. I rolled onto my side and gazed at him.Jeonghan looked at me, the smile still plastered all over his handsome face. He’s really the most handsome man I’ve ever seen, even with dark circles around his eyes.“I’ve missed doing that with you,” he said.I knew I should feel hurt that he didn’t say he missed me. Maybe it’s because I felt the same way. Knowing that no one will ever make me feel the way he does.My hand found the rise and fall of his chest, his abdomen, his hips.It’s been a long time since I’ve felt him. My hand wrapped around the base of his ma
JEONGHAN’s POVThe moment I opened my eyes, she was gone. Yoo-Mi’s gone.What will I expect anyway? Her promises? Did she even promise me anything? She told me to help me with my condition, that we’re going back to Seoul together and talk to Josh, then what?Damn!Yes, I do. I expected her to still be here, tucked against my side like she used to be. Back before I ruined everything. Before I left her, left her safe from whatever was going on inside my head.After the way she reacted last night, I would say I did a really shitty of leaving her.I rubbed my hands over my face, rolled over onto my side, ran my hands over the cool, white sheets. I thought they would still be warm. Guess she’s been gone a while. The pillow still smelled like her. Something fruity. She has changed perfumes. Just like she has changed her hair color which is black.I didn’t expect to see her here in Los Angeles. Not on this side of town. Not t