Simula

“Amelia, pwede akong paabot nyang stapler sa tabi mo.” I smile at ate natie saka inabot ang stapler, she’s my sister. Kasama namin ang kaibigan namin na si Feline na nag gagawa ng thesis nya.

“Ate Natie, gusto ko na maging kagaya mo. Sana maging Magna Cum Laude ako kapag ggraduate ako next year.”

I’m listening carefully. Feline is a good friend of mine, kaklase ko at malapit na kaibigan namin since grade school palang ay kakilala na namin ito, her mother works under my parents. Pero palaging sinasabi nila mama at papa na huwag itrato na iba sila kaya ito ang nang yare.

It’s my third year in business administration, I didn’t give my best yet i have everything that i need in my life, money, power, intelligence and popularity.

“Don’t worry Feline, alam ko na kaya mo yan. May tiwala kami sayo ni Amelia.” Tumingin ako dito at nag thumbs up, maybe ginagawa ni Feline ang best nya. Pero bakit mo ipipilit kung wala naman talaga, she always try to be the best. Hindi naman yon masama, but why? To prove that she can excel? She’s good at everything? Or to impress other people so she can recieve praise and more.

“Yes, i know that you are good at everything Feline, kaya kayang kaya mo lahat ng iyan,” I said while smiling, damn. How long I can pretend that I am nice person. Nakakapagod maging mabait lagi sa paningin ng ibang tao. Sometimes, i wanna throw insults to all people that i know, insults na totoo at hindi insulto lang na pwede ko maipang lait.

“Thank you talaga Amelia, isa ka sa inspiration ko, kahit nasa iyo na ang lahat ay mabait at humble ka padin. I’m so proud na kaibigan kita.” Feline hug me and I want to push her pero I can’t.

“Anak tara na, uuwi na tayo.” Lumabas ang Mama ni Feline at ngumiti saamin. Her mom works under my Papa’s management, katulong sa bahay.

Mas lalo naman na akong nainis ng nakaabang sa garden namin ang manliligaw ni Feline, well she have a lot of suitors, yung isa ay varsity player na hindi naman mayaman. At yung isa ay transfer student na ubood ng yaman, somtimes i think why she have a lot of suitors, napaka plain nito, kung ako ang magiging manliligaw nito ay hindi ako tutuloy.

Feline is such a Manang, morena at higit sa lahat ay walang kabuhay buhay, that is why I want to ask them, “Pahiram lang ako kay Nemar saglit. I want to ask him.” Nauna akong lumapit kay Nemar at hinatak palayo.

“What are you doing here, sino nag bigay permiso na pwede ka tumungtong sa pamamahay ko?” I asked and he look at me with disgust on his face, “Kung alam lang ni Febi na napaka sama ng ugali mo, at ganyan tingin mo sa-“ I cut off what he is about to say.

“I don’t care, saka tigilan mo nga panliligaw kay Feline, there is a lot of fine women in university, humanap ka ng babagay sayo Nemar!” I hissed and he laugh and look straight to my eyes.

“Kung kaugali mo naman yung finest woman na sinasabi mo Amelia, huwag nalang.”