ChristianI decrease the gap between us and hug her as tightly as I can. Right at this moment, I don't find any words to utter but hug her to deliver everything I'm feeling right now.She's silent but her heavy breaths are telling me that she's holding her tears back. "Don't cry, please. Not again", I groan, brushing my face against her soft wet hair. "You cried enough""And you don't care", she lets out a soft sob, making me hug her more tightly. "I do. I fucking do, Iv. You know that. I care about everything revolving around you", I oppose. Her sobs don't lessen and I feel her body shivering against mine. Her body is freezing cold as if she has been in the shower for a long time. "You don't", she seethes. "If you cared, you never left me crying"It stings. I know I shouldn't have done that. I could do it in another way but I made her feel unimportant at a moment when I should have treated her better. She was already going through the lie I told her last night. "I'm sorry, baby.
ChristianShe looks away in tears."Who said this?" I blurt out. "I trust you. More than anyone, anything in this world. You know that""That's why you lied. That's why you thought I'll be insecure. This is how much you trust me, Chris", she sobs.How am I gonna explain to her that I'm doing all this for her cognitive condition? She may not know but it can affect her mental state. Even if she tries to understand me, her mind will definitely find something opposite. I wish I could tell her why I met Thea. It would give her some relief. "I'm sorry", I breathe heavily. "I was just scared. It's not like I don't trust you, baby"She has stopped sobbing and her eyes slowly melt against mine as if she has started feeling better. I trace my fingertips down to her cheek, gently caressing her skin. "You know I always try harder not to hurt you. And I end up doing that. You know that, right?" She nods. "Then smile. Please!" I plead to her, folding my bottom lip. Her lips slowly curve into
IvannaI bring Chrissie out of the washroom and plop her on the bed. As I roll my eyes around the room to find Christian, I spot him on the balcony. He's on call. The entire day was so miserable for me. But now it all seems to go. "Mama! What's for dinner tonight?" She asks when I bring her clothes out and sit beside her. "Mrs Fisher made fried rice for you", I tell her, making her wear the yellow tee. "Rice? Mama! I wanna eat pizza", she folds her bottom lip."No pizza for dinner", I scoff and cup her chin to comb her hair."Please, mama. Chrissie will be upset", she fluffs her cheeks, making a tiny face. I squint my eyes at her mischievous pout."Awww! Really?"She nods, frowning at me. "Such a naughty girl you are!" I tickle her stomach, leaning towards her. She breaks into giggles right away."Aaa! Mama!" She can't stop giggling as I keep tickling her on the bed, laughing my heart out with her."I can't see Chrissie is upset now", I stop, watching her panting heavily."Mama!
ChristianLater at night, we had dinner together and had fun at the dinner table. Chrissie was insisting on watching cartoons downstairs so Ivanna stayed back with her. I came upstairs to the room and slump onto the bed to relax my exhausted body.It was a long day but a satisfying one. I'm not sure how much time it's gonna take but I know things will gradually fall back to place Once Chrissie recovers everything will be fine. Between, I'm really curious to know about Chrissie's biological father. Even though I shouldn't be caring about this anymore, I can't stop wondering how it all happened. It's just a bitter reality that my beautiful child was born out of a sinful relationship. It was known to me that one day she'll get to know about her adoption. And we'll happily tell her about it. But I'll never want her to know anything about her biological parents and how her mother cheated on John with her father. That'll be a lot for anyone to bear the entire life.I have seen Ivanna suff
KaneI'm already feeling like throwing up while rubbing Emily's back. Well, I can't handle people throwing up in front of me. I'll just run. But the thing is I can't run this time, or else I'll run out of my life. Pressing my lips, I hold on to myself. She won't just stop. "What's wrong with you?" I shrug. "Do you want me to make a lunch box for you every day? Because I'm not letting you eat nonsense from outside anymore"She takes a deep breath while huffing."That's not because of—" she halts and throws up into the sink again. "Um— junk food, you dumbhead! Do you have an MBBS degree?""No!" I roll my eyes."Then stop being a doctor", she seethes. "Okay. When will you be done?" I ask.Instead of answering she shoots me a glare. "People know when they'll stop throwing up? Why do you sound so dumb sometimes?" She yells and again—"Stop screaming for God's sake", I fist her hair from her face and hold them tightly behind. "Now, I'm seriously worried. What did the doctor say?""She
EmilyI wake up with a voicemail the next morning."Hey, babe. Good morning. Made breakfast for you. Please eat the entire thing even if you throw up. I had something urgent to finish at the factory so I had to move quickly. But I'll be back soon today. We'll leave for the clinic. Just take care of yourself. I love you. I love you both"A blissful smile rips on my face and I hear the voicemail like an hour on loop, lying on the bed. I was so lost and overwhelmed last night. It's not like I don't want this baby. I do. But how should I feel while fighting to get my first child and I get to know I'll be bringing another one to this world?I'm still not sure if I'll ever get my Samuel back. I trace my hand down to my stomach."That doesn't mean I love you less than him", I whisper, nuzzling my belly lovingly. "It's just that I have been so unlucky"I feel sick the entire morning and unfortunately don't have breakfast. I know Kane's gonna freak out if he gets to know. He's already starte
Ivanna"I can't tell you how badly I'm feeling like dancing with you, Emily", I beam in enormous joy. "I never knew it feels so amazing to know your bestie is gonna give birth to an adorable baby""I knew you'd say that", she laughs. "I'm— still. I still can't believe it's true"Her voice slightly changes. "I know, right? Some accidents are beautiful", I get onto the bed and lean back to the headboard, trying to suppress the twisting ache inside me. I don't want her to know that I'm grieving about my experience when I should be celebrating hers. I'm happy and hurt at the same time. The moment I feel she's so lucky to be able to give birth, something strikes me harder. She had her own traumas— maybe worse than me. There's no one so lucky in this damn world. Flaws, imperfections, traumas— no one can escape the harsh reality of life. "Yeah, right", I hear her sigh. "I'm especially feeling happier after watching Kane's happiness. After our wedding, this is the next thing which made hi
ChristianAs Thea asked me to, I reached the office early this morning. There were barely any employees, and I could say none. I was being anxious about her sudden action and I feared she was gonna turn it down. She could not. After reaching so far, after giving us so many hopes, she better changes her mind. As she always did, she kept me waiting for a long hour. She didn't pick up my calls, nor did she respond to my messages. Just when I grab my phone again after finishing the last cup of coffee, I hear the crack sound of the door. I immediately look up, spotting Thea already inside my cabin. As usual, I can't expect her to knock or anything. She's wearing the same smile which creeps me out every single time I look at her. "Good morning", she chuckles, walking inside."Didn't you ask me to come to the office sharp at seven?" I grunt.She sighs. "Well, I knew you would welcome me without wishing good morning. And secondly, I asked you to come sharp at seven. I didn't say I would be