Chapter 41

Snow

With all that has been going on, I actually haven't sat down to think about my feelings, whether I have feelings for Cody or not. But now as I think about it, I think I do. I can't be very sure.

It's scary.

It's scary because I remember I once fell in love and I destroyed what James and I had. That was all on me. I'm scared that if I truly am in love, it might not end on a good note. I might destroy whatever special relationship Cody and I will have and that will also be my fault. I don't want that to happen, at least not to him. He's been good to me. I can't pay him back like that.

I'm supposed to think positive and hope for a positive outcome, but I can't. And I don't want to. Maybe I'll sit this out. I won't tell Cody that I might be in love with him. He'll probably get over me and find someone better than me. Someone richer and prettier than me. Someone like Kesha. Maybe I should just let Kesha have Cody to herself. Besides, we'll all go back to our old lives after the inv