Sorry, I have a massive headache due to the heatwave. luckily it's raining now and the temperture dropped. so the chapter is a bit short. but i'd thought better a short chapter than no chapter at all. I'm sorry for making you cry last chapter and I'm also sorry if it feels like I'm rushing the story. lol that's a lot of sorry in one note. but it's hard trying to think of new ideas for this story after more than 300.000 words. and I want to finish this the right way and not abruptely, but if I don't time jump it might take another 100 chapters before we got here.
Cyrus’ pov “I have barely seen him now, for three weeks. He works and then at night he goes out and patrols. He didn’t even attend the funeral. I am so worried.” “Luna Lily, I’m sure he’s okay. He’s just dealing with Beta Riker’s death in a different way.” April said, trying to calm Lily down. Lily shook her head, “no. this is different. I can feel such hate coming from him. He’s not talking to me.” “I’ll go see if I can talk some fucking sense into him?” I suggested. I had no fucking clue if it would help, but Lily looked desperate. “Thank you Cyrus. Damian has been helping with some of the Beta duties, so has Easton. But it’s hard. Asher needs a lot of help, he has nightmares every night and I’m trying to be a good friend to Mia.” Lily started to cry, “I just need my mate back.” She said sounding so fucking sad. “We can talk to him together? Two might be better than one? Fuck, I don’t know.” I said, feeling so bad for her. Lily shook her head, “I’ve tried. But it’s like talki
Osiris’ pov “So what was the first time you felt like something was your fault?” Was I really doing this? Going to therapy? I thought I could just talk to Lily and Cyrus, but they seemed to think I need more help. That it’s not just Riker’s death, but everything that happened. I don’t mind therapy. I think it can really work for some. But I am not sure I am one of them. “Alpha?” Doctor Angela asked. I sighed, “when my parents died.” “And now, do you still blame yourself?” She wondered. “No, I know it was my brother Kendrick who killed them.” I said, showing little emotions. “But?” “But what?” I said annoyed. “You know Kendrick was the one who killed them, but does it feel like that too? Or do you still feel bad about that day?” Doctor Angela asked me, I couldn’t understand why I needed to talk about my parents. I was here to deal with everything that happened when Riker died. Not my past. I was over that. “Are you though? You don’t blame yourself a little? Even not over that
Mia’s pov “Mom can you tell us again how you and dad met?” Sierra asked me. She and Roman looked at me filled with anticipation. I had promised I would tell them about Riker and me. What he was like when he was younger and how everything started. I had been avoiding it. Scared it would make me cry, thinking back to happier times. I was so close to breaking and Sierra and Roman were the only things that kept me going right now. Rationally, I knew I would get through this, but right now, it felt like I was stuck in this darkness and I couldn’t see any light. Just a sliver of light, would give me some hope that I would be fine. “Tell your kids about their dad, Mia. If you’ll cry, it’s fine. They can handle seeing your emotions.” My wolf, Sallie said. I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself. “When I was young I lived in another pack, the Highmane pack. It was a really small pack and my uncle was the Alpha of this pack. But that didn’t mean that much, I didn't live in the packho
Cyrus’ pov “Dad, I know you have a brother and a niece, uncle Joshua and Melanie. But any more family, I should know of. I have to make this fucking family tree.” Leia said. “Language.” April yelled from across the room. I still sometimes spoke to my brother, Josh and Melanie, but not as often as I used to. It was fucking hard to keep in touch. I couldn’t invite them to our fucking pack and let them discover there are fucking werewolves living amongst them and I am one of them. “Yeah, that’s not a fucking good idea at all.” Fox laughed. I thought about visiting them, but I didn’t want to leave the farm for too fucking long. “You have a grandfather and a grandmother that you really don’t want to fucking meet. And then your uncle Joshua and niece Melanie. That’s about it. O, I had really fucking great grandparents. Grandma Edie and Grandpa rabbit, because he had a fucking rabbit.” Leia sighed, “so I have no relationship to my actual biological grandparents? On either fucking side?
Osiris’ pov “I think you should make Damian the official Beta. He’s been doing Riker’s job for almost a year now and he deserves it.” Lily said. I shook my head, “it feels wrong. And what will happen to Mia and the kids? They’ve grown up here.” Lily sighed, “you know what’s wrong? Not rewarding Damian for what he is doing. He stepped up, without having been asked to. He has done a wonderful job and he isn’t getting any credit. Talk to Mia, or I can talk to Mia, but we’ll figure something out so they can keep living here.” I had been going to therapy. Asher had been going to therapy and we even send Kate to help with her anxiety. I was working hard on myself. Feeling better. I was still sad, I was still grieving Riker’s death. But I wasn’t lost, I wasn’t stuck inside that anger and hurt. I found myself laughing at things, without feeling guilty. I could remember Riker without my mind instantly going back to that day he was shot. “Yeah, but Asher still doesn’t want to go on runs wi
The end. Lily’s pov It has been a year since Riker died. Mia is moving out next month and Damian and Kane will move in. Things are changing, life is moving on. But tonight we are looking back. Remembering Riker and the impact he had on our lives. Osiris had invited everyone that was important to us. Well, not everyone, because our pack was still heavily guarded. So my sisters, Eddie and my dad weren’t here. But I would visit them soon. I hoped. I missed them, but the pack’s safety and my family’s safety was more important right now. Everyone started to arrive. Kate was looking nervous, I knew big crowds weren’t really her thing. She had always been anxious, but Riker’s death made things worse. “She will be fine.” Arya reassured me. “Her friends will be here too.” Arya was right, because when Cyrus, April, Oliver and Leia arrived, Kate ran towards Leia smiling. Leia and Kate were so close, that we sometimes thought they might be mates. But I saw Leia staring at Asher often, with
Lily’s pov It’s always busy at the packhouse, but especially tonight. I am the fifth child out of six. My father Alpha Edward Burton has always wanted a big family and so did my mother, Luna Katherine. My parents decided after having two girls they really wanted a boy, but it took them 4 more tries. My thirteen year old brother Edward the Second, or Eddie as we call him will be the alpha of our pack one day. While we have to wait to find out mate. It feels really outdated that we can’t start our lives or careers before meeting our mate. My parents always hoped that our mate will be a Beta or Alpha from another pack, like with my older sisters. I just hope whoever my mate is, he will be kind and get me out of this pack. I love my family, I do. But I am not like the others, my sisters are all gorgeous and smart. They honestly look like models. And I lack their elegance and good looks. Maybe I am being too hard on myself, but it’s hard not to compare yo
Osiris’ pov I hate going to these dinners. I don’t even want to meet my mate right now, I am too busy making sure my pack is safe. I am the Alpha of one of the largest packs in the world and this makes me somewhat of a target. I took over the pack 4 years ago, when I was 18. I am known for being ruthless, but in reality I’ve haven’t done everything they say about me. I don’t mind people being scared of me, that makes it less likely for them to attack. I will protect my pack at any cost and I am not afraid of using violence. My Beta Riker is the opposite of me, while I hate socializing he excels in big crowds. That’s part of the reason why I chose him as my Beta, the other reason is that Riker and I grew up together and he has always been there for me. Riker is the one that made me go to this awful dinner, apparently some of the Burton sisters are unmated and they are known for their beauty and skills. They are trained in combat, excel in school and they would make sure I would have t