CHAPTER 42. Surprise Party!

 I did came out of the door, closing it behind me, trying to hold back on my tears which I don't even know why are clouding up? It's okay! It's okay! Roseanna. Do you remember your words in the car? No matter what happened after that? We fought again and got distance, so it's just right and makes more sense that he is trying to get himself a girl! Don't be hurt or bothered by it. It's you who gave him the permission. It's you, who needs to talk with head and mind, calming them down. That you don't feel anything about it. I thought to myself and reelaced on the wall beside his door. She was the not the woman I saw when I came back from New York. It was someone else. Someone New. 

I was just convincing myself as a tear rolled down my eyes, making me feel really pathetic. Shut it up Roseanna! Shut it the fuck up! 

I told. Myself. And looked up, but heard the door opening beside me. 

Oh fuck! 

I need to be away r