Chapter 36

He told me that there's no time to waste, so I dated him. I was affected by the pressure and fear he showed. Because I didn't want to regret that we didn't even have to go out properly before he'd transfer and live across a distance. Because I thought it's also the best way for us, to go out despite being in a relationship.

But I was so lost, I was so confused and reckless that I accepted it knowing I've been yearning for a moment where there were no problems. Like, I just wanted to be with him where no one's stopping us. And the date was the only chance we had.

But I thought it's too simple to let ourselves go with the flow before we're too late.

I didn't even mind too much that we're just dating to not regret things even though we sincerely have feelings toward each other. That was so immature of me.

And this time, I was kept on being bugged by his words that we need to stay like that. To keep what we're doing as secrets. And it stings me especially when I saw him with Maddison