"Lexi! Open this door!" I hear someone yell out.
Thoughts of Craig and Gary fill my thoughts. As they would pound on my door in hopes of getting in.
When I had first moved in with Craig, I had done something that made him upset with me. My instincts had taken over, and I ran in fear to my room, and locked the door. Hoping that he wouldn't be able to hurt me. I could hear him pound on the door. He continued to scream and threaten me, until I unlocked the door.
The more he would pound his fist and yell at me, the last thing I wanted was to give the monster entry to my room. So instead I tried to hide. My room was basic. Only a bed, and a closet. Immediately, I ran to the closet to take cover. I pulled my legs to my body in a protective manner. I tried to make myself appear as small as possible. Hoping that if he did get in, he wouldn't find me.
I remember feeling my tears hit my skin, as I continued to cower in my closet. I had hoped and prayed that h
When I wake up, everything's a blur. I try to remember what happened, but my mind is exhausted. I shift myself back under the covers and fall back asleep. I wake up shortly after."How did I get here?" I ask myself."I found you in your closet, and you passed out. So I brought you here."I look over to see Xavier sitting at my side. He moves himself across the bed, and beneath the covers, pulling me close. I nuzzle my head in his shoulder, comforted by his touch. I feel myself drifting off again. When I wake up, Xavier is still at my side holding me close."What happened?""That's what I would like to know." Xavier sighs."Are you ok?""I feel ok. Just tired.""Do you want to talk about it?"I think to myself, do I really? Honestly no. But I know if I don't, it may happen again."How come you wanted to go to the track?""Jax told you huh?"Xavier smiles, and nods his head."He sang
When I woke up the next morning, I turned to see Xavier fast asleep beside me. A smile instantly crosses my face. He stayed the entire night, just like he said he would. He kept his promise to me. I slowly get up and out of bed. Trying hard not to wake him. I head to my bathroom to shower, and get changed for work.By the time I was out of the shower. Xavier had begun to wake up."Good morning sleepy head." I call out to him, a large smile on my face.Xavier gets out of bed, and begins walking closer to me. He stretches his arms above his head, lowering them around my waist shortly after."How are you feeling?" He asks me."For the most part ok. Just a little mortified, if anything.""How come?""I'm just afraid that Jax will think I'm like a faberge egg. He'll treat me as if in any moment, I could fall apart.""No he won't.""How do you know? I know I would probably do that if the roles were reversed."Xavi
After a long conversation by the pool with Jax, I find myself relating to him. Xavier was right when he said that Jax and I had things in common. I just didn't expect us to relate in such a horrible way. I liked the stories he told me of his sister Jenny. We spent the rest of the morning reminiscing about our families. We would trade stories back and forth with each other. It was actually really nice. There were memories that I had forgotten until Jax had reminded me.After lunch, I had headed out. I had told Jax that I just needed some time alone. I had expected him to put up a fight, but he didn't. It seems that Xavier knows me better, than I know myself. Apparently Xavier had been anticipating my need to be alone, so he had asked Jax to stand down. I was thankful to both of them. Remembering my past wasn't easy. I just needed some time to think, and ultimately, just let go. I needed a release, and what better way than with Diablo.I grabbed the keys, and
It's been two weeks since I moved in with Xavier. My first day here, Xavier gave me a cell phone. He programmed his phone number, Jax's, along with Ryker's. So that way I could call them whenever I wanted. No one else had my number. It took me awhile to learn how to use the phone. I had never owned one before. So it was a foreign concept to me. I also had to keep on remembering to bring it with me. So often I would forget about it. Either at home, work, even a restaurant. I wasn't used to always having it. So I tend to lose it often.It has been awhile since we heard anything about Craig and Gary. Even though Xavier has assured me that neither Craig or Gary will manage to get to me. I'm still terrified that they will come after me. It's not that I don't trust Xavier to keep me safe, rather I just know Craig and Gary. They are relentless at making my life miserable, and there's nothing they wouldn't do to make sure I'm theirs again. In the pit of my stomach, I can't shake this
Xavier begins chasing after me in the water. We laugh as we splash each other. Xavier grabs me, effortlessly picking me up, bringing me closer to him. My legs instantly wrap around him. Feeling him so close to me is intoxicating. Xavier doesn't do anything, rather he simply looks down, staring into my eyes."Mi alma." My soul, Xavier says in Spanish.Xavier runs his thumb over my lips. His touch is intoxicating. I close my eyes, as his other hand begins to explore my body. He lowers his head resting along my forehead."No tienes ni idea de lo mucho que significas para mi." You have no idea how much you mean to me, Xavier sighs."Cuanto he soñado con estos labios en los míos." How much have I dreamed of these lips on mine, Xavier whispers to me."Muéstrame." Show me. I whisper back.Surprised, Xavier straightens himself."You speak Spanish?""I guess you can say I learned a few things
Xavier sits quietly beside me. He must have the same feeling I do.We are about two blocks away, when I realize what's about to happen."Shit! It's a trap!" I yell out. Immediately forcing the car in reverse.I've heard about these before. It's a way to block you in. A car 'stalled' in front of you, only when you realize it, it's too late. Someone has already come up behind you, preventing you from escaping.I smoothly execute a three point tun, and go up the side street instead."Shit! Shit! Shit!" I yell out.Xavier reaches over, placing his hand on my thigh. Gripping it tightly. I'm too focused on what's happening to really pay attention though.The streets light up in my mind like a map. I begin to search my memory for a way out. Though our options are extremely limited.I make a sudden right turn down another side street. All going well, we can be on the highway in no time. We just have a few blocks to go.
Without saying anything, Xavier holds me against him. As if trying to shield me from my memories."How did you know it was Craig?"I close my eyes, and let out a deep breath."I went back to the car. Hoping and praying that Mason would still be alive. Which is when I saw a note attached to Mason's chest. 'You're mine, and no one else's.' Was all it said. But it was more than enough. What happened was all my fault. Mason was a great guy, a true sweetheart. A father figure in a way, but most importantly a true friend. After that happened, I knew it wasn't safe to have any friends. I isolated myself from everyone. My only friends became the stars and my books."After I finish, Xavier grips my shoulder, forcing me to look at him."Please, don't ever think what happened that day was your fault. The only one to blame is that sick bastard Craig. I'm glad that Mason was in your life, even if just for a short while. I know that if he could talk
Later that evening, we are sitting on the couch in Xavier's living room. My legs are pulled close to me. I had grabbed the blanket from the back of the couch, and wrapped it around me. Xavier made me a cup of tea, to help me to relax. I hold the mug in my hands, taking in it's warmth and aroma.It's been a quiet evening. The events from earlier catching up to us. I stare out into the fire as the dawning realization of what happened begins to settle over me."How did they find us?""I don't know." Xavier responds, seemingly just as defeated as me."I will have Damian look into this, and until we find out how this even happened, I want Jax to stay with you at all times."Any other time, and I would've easily argued with him. But after today, I just slowly nod. Fear settling in. I begin to wonder what would've happened, if Xavier hadn't caught me trying to sneak out earlier. What would've happened had Xavier not gone with me. Part of me wo