Chapter 5

As I'm waking up I love how comfy my new bed feels. I have been here for 2 weeks and today is my birthday. I dreaded this day for so long it's hard to believe that it is here. I'm not sure what is going to happen from here since I was already chosen. I hear a knock at the door and I jump up as it opens.

It's Mrs. Davis she is as cold as the breeze she let in. She looks at me disgustedly and says Get up, it's time for breakfast. '' Sir wants you to come as you are so get up and let's go."

She comes over and grabs my arm and pulls me out of bed. As I stumble "Mrs. Davis, please stop, I'm coming."

I feel a sharp pain across my face "you need to listen girl, or you will never survive this life."

I put my hand on my cheek and I can feel the warmth from her slap. I stay silent not wanting to upset anyone. Knowing that this is not going to be any better than living with my grandparents. I walk at a fast pace to keep up with her hoping I don't anger her.

As we start to approach the dining room all I can think is wow how beautiful. I have never seen such a beautiful dining area. As I begin to walk in Mrs Davis grabs my arm"That area isn't for you stupid girl. That is for the important people."

I want to say something, but I don't. I have always Felt like I was never important. This just proves that. I follow her into the kitchen. "You can get the plate settings and put them on the table, don't screw it up."

As I gather the plates I look at my Mrs Davis and I ask "how many people are attending, so I know how many plates I need."

"It's just sir you idiot."

I become confused wondering why it's just him. Such a big table for only one. I don't question her or say anything. I gather A plate and some silverware and take it out to the table. I then realize I'm not going to be anything more than a servant. I wonder what I have done so horrible in my last life to deserve this one.

I see a man that I recognized from yesterday sitting at the head of the table alone. I take his plate and his silverware to him. I haven't seen him since he brought me here. Even though he still looks as cold as he did before. I stay silent not wanting any issues especially today. As I hear my name leave his lips I'm surprised that he knows.

"Stella brings an extra place setting for yourself we have lots to talk about."

I look at him confused knowing I don't have another choice but to do as he says. I get into the kitchen where Mrs. Davis is. "Sir asked me to get a place setting for myself. He has lots to talk to me about."

As I go to get the plates Miss.. Davis grabs my arm. I become nervous wondering what I did now. "Stella, I'm sorry that I had been so cold to you. I was told that I need to be strict with you not to show any kind of compassion."

I look at her confused wondering why it would be so wrong if someone would show me some kind of compassion. " Don't worry Mrs. Davis, all is forgiven."

I turned to go out back into the dining room. I see a man. I'm curious he looks to be in his twenties, maybe. When he turns to look at me, I can feel chills go up my spine. His eyes are like ice. I can see the cold and darkness inside him. The hatred that he has for me and I just met him. "I stop, I'm so sorry to interrupt" as I go to walk out sir stops me.

"Stella come please sit we have lots to talk about."

I walk over to him embarrassed still in my pajamas, my hair not even brushed. I sit and do not speak as my body trembles as he stares at me. It's like he's staring into my soul. Knowing that whatever is about to happen it can't be good. I become more nervous just waiting to hear what awful things are about to happen. Hate knowing that this conversation is going to change my life forever.

This is Zeeland he is the alpha of The black shadow pack. Once you are 18 you will become his wife. You will stay here and be trained to know everything that you need to know. You will be welcome into your werewolf culture here, and you will be taught all you need to know what you are.

He then goes to Stand as he looks at me with disguise  on his face. I can tell that he already hates me, and he doesn't even know me. "Just know that This is an arrangement I did not choose, you're nothing to me, and you never will be. But you being my true mate is what's saved your life."

As he stops before he exits the dining room "I want a minute alone with her."

"Fine but the agreement was not until she was 18 so don't try anything."

He begins to approach me. I become frightened as he grabs a hold of my arm with such strength. "Get up, take me to your room."

I look at him with fear in my eyes. Not wanting to follow him he gets angry as my body does not move. He picks me up by my arm. "Did you not hear me? Do you already want to be punished?"

I don't shrink in pain because pain is not a stranger to me. I look at his cold face, your face not wanting to be on my mind. "Can't we just talk here, why do we need to go to my room?"

As pain shoots through my face and I fall to the ground I then realize he just slapped me. With such a force that I have never felt. I can't help as tears fill my eyes. I try not to let them fall. I refuse to speak to him, he then looks to the man and asks him "where's her room I want to speak to her alone."

I quietly pray that he doesn't tell him."It's the first staircase to your right four doors down."

As he grabs my hair it begins to drag me. I put my hands on his. "Please let me go, I will walk."

He then pulls me up by my hand to my feet "then fucking walk."

As I am walking to the room I'm going as slow as I can afraid of what is about to happen he then Grabs me by my hair from behind "go faster I don't have all fucking day to waste on you."

As we get to the bedroom door my hands begin to shake. I'm terrified to twist the knob to go in. He then puts his hand over mine and squeezes down hard and breaks a couple fingers. I squeal out and in pain as the door opens he pushes me down to the ground. 

"Get the fuck up I can't believe I got stuck with a pathetic mate like you. Just know you will live a life of misery."

As I struggle to stand as he is yanking on my body. "You don't even know me to hate me."

As soon as those words left my mouth I regretted it. As he came over I tried to back away from him as the wall stopped me. His hand went around my throat hoping maybe he would just kill me instead. As his words begin coming out of his mouth they are cold as ice. "Listen you fucken half-breed you will not disrespect me do you understand."

I want to obey him, but I'm tired of allowing this to happen to me all time. I stay silent. I say nothing I can tell that it angers him as his grip around my throat becomes tighter. I can feel my body becoming lifeless and for the first time I'm happy. I just want all of this to be over.

As I feel my body fall to the ground, I'm disappointed. I want to hold my breath and not allow myself to breathe. I want it to end, But I can't help but cough. As I put my hands around my throat to try to soothe the pain that he has caused. He then looks at me, “be ready by 7:00pm I will be back to pick you up to go to the ball.”

 As I begin to struggle to stand, I then come to the realization that I left one abuser just to be with another one. I get up to go to the bathroom as I look at myself in the mirror. I see the dark bruises around my neck and then bruises that are coming upon my cheek. 

I then strip my P j's off and turn on the shower as hot as I can get it and get into the shower. As the water is burning my skin, I don't budge. Even though it hurts, it's the good kind of hurt. I stand and allow the water to pour over my body to try to relax myself as I cry. I felt broken before, but now I really realize what it means to be officially broken.