I don’t know how long I sat staring at the door after Umiko left; all I know is that I think I might have ruined whatever we were building up by allowing my emotions to cloud my judgment.As much as I hate to admit it, everything she said is true; I chose Mia over her when I should have stayed here. I still don’t even know why her father placed that bind on her, but I decided to go halfway around the world in search of a maybe.I fucked up. Royally.Sighing, I get up from my knees, throw on some clothes and walk to my office, where Andreas should be waiting with the twins. I only managed to tell him that they were our new charges before I passed out from exhaustion.The twins were like newborn wolves once they shifted, and I can tell you now that looking after literal newborn wolves is not an easy feat. They’ve always been confined to their basement cell, so they’ve never felt the pull and sway of the moon on their bare skin. So once they felt it, they went ballistic. It was a good f
This city stinks of so much greed and lust that I have to restrain myself from vomiting. And yet here I am, surveying it all in the highest building right in the middle of it all and queen to this kingdom of decadence. Nothing about being here has made my head clear, and I still don’t know how to feel about this. My stomach randomly growls in protest, and I can’t help but chuckle at the normalcy of it. I suppose I haven't eaten since Andreas and I had lunch together before Fenriz arrived. So I order some food to be delivered, then sit down on the leather couch in front of the large floor-to-ceiling windows.Obviously, I feel hurt by everything, but what exactly is the reason Fenriz tried to keep this from me? I would have understood his reasons for going if he had just told me about it. I mean, he might have had a child out there that he knew nothing about; of course, I would have understood his need to find out. Not only that, but if he told me Mia was still alive, I would have und
“Ah! Fuck!” Fenriz and I hear when we approach the mansion and make a beeline for the front door. As soon as it’s thrown open, we spot Andreas holding his hand to his chest, and it drips blood while the two blonde teenage girls hold one another. The Beta looks at Fenriz with fury blazing behind his eyes, and he growls.“She fucking bit me!” he cries out, then holds up his hand to show that it’s slowly healing. “Your fucking feral child bit me!Fenriz tries and fails to contain his laughter and shakes his head while approaching his Beta. “Thank you, brother. I’ll deal with them now,” he says, clapping him on the back and then walking towards the girls who seem delighted to see Fenriz. He speaks with them in a different language, then turns to me. “I’ll put them to bed, then join you. Andreas, get five guards to follow me to be stationed outside their rooms,” he says before leading them upstairs. I frown at the scene in front of me but shrug it off. I am confident that Fenriz will ex
I’m laying on the cool desert floor long after the sun has set, splayed out on my back, and breathing heavily. Baron’s anger is a lot to bear, especially when I willingly release it. We have a handle on some of it, but we still have to fight the urge to return to the estate to kill Umiko. Baby steps, I guess. Baron’s conversation with Loki comes to mind as I lay there. My beast had been consumed with years of hurt and guilt because he got captured, and Loki traded his life for Baron. That, coupled with being betrayed by his mate, just added to everything, so I understand more of why he’s always acted this way. People would not have gotten killed if he had been honest about things from the start. Getting to my feet, I decide to call it a day and get back on my motorcycle. I know this won’t take a day, but I can feel this anger bubbling to the surface at every provocation lately. One day I won’t be able to control it anymore, and I would rather not have anyone around me when that happ
Ahmya has her ears down as I get down from Fenriz’s motorcycle, and I can’t help but feel sorry for her. She’s about to face her mate, the one who supposedly betrayed her so many years ago. I don’t know how to feel about this, to be honest. Fenriz says he’s struggling with controlling Baron’s anger, so what will happen now when his rage comes face to face with its cause?“Are you okay? Your heartbeat spiked there,” Fenriz asks me when I put the helmet on the motorcycle seat, and I nod.“Ahmya is nervous,” I say as a shiver shoots up my spine. “I have a feeling that this might come to a fight.”Fenriz breathes out a long sigh. “I have the same feeling,” he says, taking my hand in his and leading me away from the motorcycle. He was here for the entire day yesterday and still didn’t manage to get a hold on Baron’s anger. It worries me more than I’ll admit because what if he snaps entirely at the first sight of Ahmya, then I’m dead.“Hey,” Fenriz says, bringing me back to the present. He
Fenriz fell asleep a few hours ago, but I am still awake and staring at the ceiling. For the first time in years, my mind is a den of solitude as Ahmya rests comfortably with no apprehension in her scent. I should be resting as well, but I cannot seem to shake this bad feeling from my heart.I sigh and move closer to Fenriz, slipping my arm around his waist and kissing his back. He was there for me every step of the way today, and I have a feeling that he had a part to play in keeping Baron’s rage at bay. Tomorrow we’ll discuss a way forward without my father finding out what we’re up to. Ahmya has said that he and Kenji have no way of keeping in touch with her other than coming here, so we would have to invite them here after I’ve had my baby. Speaking of which… I should probably go see a doctor soon.Fenriz groans and turns on his back, so I snuggle into his arms, and he immediately pulls me closer. I love how our relationship has progressed from predator and prey to Alpha and Luna
For the past five months, things have been quiet in the pack, but instead of being relaxed, an uneasy feeling has coiled right in my gut. Peace doesn’t come easy, so I keep waiting for something to happen… something that will take this happiness away.The weather is warmer, so Umiko is currently sitting in the garden with Yui. They’ve become closer again since Umiko fell pregnant, and now her handmaiden is a little more than overprotective of her. Apart from that, Umiko looks absolutely beautiful as her belly grows each day, and she’s come to terms with the fact that she won’t be like her parents.On days like these, I still cannot believe how lucky I am to have someone like her in my life. How she’s ripped open my chaotic world and gave it meaning, and now she’s about to bless us with a child. I pray to every single deity out there for sending Umiko to me, and even more so to the Goddess for blessing me with the perfect mate.“Ah!” My head snaps up when Umiko suddenly cries out and r
Naked, I stand staring at myself in the mirror, and the shocking awareness hits me that I haven’t seen my feet in over a month. As much as I enjoyed my pregnancy thus far, right now, I feel as swollen as my Pilates ball. Fenriz says that I look radiant and glowing, but all I see is a puffy face, exhausted eyes, and pale skin. Gods, can’t I give birth already? I throw on my cotton nightdress and waddle over to my bed with the intention of calling it a day, but just then, Fenriz walks into our bedroom, and the look on his face tells me that I can forget about a peaceful slumber. “Is everything okay?” I ask, sitting up in bed and gesturing for him to join me. He breathes out a long sigh, then falls down on the bed next to me with a grunt. “No, we might have a war heading our way,” he says, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Someone has sent a shapeshifter into the estate, and after Andreas and I spent the afternoon searching for more, we discovered at least 20 of them in the pack.” “W