Chapter 45

***Chastity***

The next morning I woke up more tired then the day before. I didn’t have any nightmares, but I certainly didn’t sleep well. I couldn’t get the thought of Rowen rejecting me again out of my head. I know he says he wants only me, and his actions the last few weeks show that, but it’s only been a few weeks. Maybe I should believe him, but trust is not something I am good at.

Yes I have built some trust with Molly, Jax, and Melissa, but they have never hurt me, or rejected me. Jax was always good to me when we were children, and even though I thought he would not be the same way when he returned, he proved to me that he had not changed in his love for me. Molly, and Melissa have been good to me since the day I met them. Do I trust them not to one day start hurting me? Not completely, but I am trying. Everyone else has hurt me in one way or another. Yes I love them, but I certainly don’t trust them not to revert back to their old ways.

After laying in my bed for awhile I f