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Another fresh tear trickled down my cheek and I wiped it out for the hundredth time. I couldn't stop crying. The man I considered my savior; my knight in shining armor not only caused me physical pain but also never forgettable emotional pain and never-ending nightmare.

I had heard reports of women being physically abused but had not dreamed of it, although I would one day become a victim.

Xavier was a horrible husband. He never cared about how I felt and made zero effort to know me but I loved him with all my heart. Even after all the things he had done I still love him. As sad and crazy it sounds but it's true.

But now I am tainted by a sinner. I'm touched by another man who is not my husband. I feel cheap, dirty, damaged, and worthless. I feel like I have betrayed my husband even though I very well know it's the case. His every touch was still fresh in my head as if mocking me.

"Can you stop crying already.." She spat, snapping me back from my self-loathing thoughts.

"I-I'm sorry-y