Chapter 4

Fenris' werewolf form was stepping closer and closer to me while I was little by little stepping back. I swallowed deeply, looking up in order to see his glowing blue eyes that looks like they wanted to eat me, kill me, or scratch me with his pointy claws.

"You're a lot scarier than I expected," I whispered while continuing to step back little by little. "Fenris, w-what are you planning to do now?" I swallowed deeply. "Don't hurt me, please."

His looks were tolerable. It was his size that made him look so intimidating. His werewolf form was a handsome-looking wolf, a big wolf, like a fluffy dog that could eat anyone alive yet could also allure any Luna.

'Kira, don't be scared. I'm not gonna hurt my mate.'

My brows crossed. I looked around, but no one was there.

'It's me, Kira. I'm the one talking to you. Do you hear me?'

I met Fenris' glowing blue eyes.

'Yes, I'm talking through the mind.'

My lips formed an 'o'. I was hearing him in my mind without him talking. It was amazing.

'Kira, talk to me.'

"Oh yeah..." I smiled, still in amusement. "You can talk telepathically?" 

I read in books that it was one of their abilities, but I didn't know it would be real. I never expected anyone could be capable of doing telepathic things.

'Obviously.'

I rolled my eyes, even in his werewolf form, he could be sarcastic.

'Come closer to me. Feel my werewolf form, Kira.'

"Can I hold you?"

'That's what I want you to do.'

"Promise you don't bite?"

'If you're not a threat to me, why would I bite you? Unless you want me to.'

My lips thinned before stepping closer to him. I needed to look up to see his body completely. He was taller than me; he looked like an Alpha in the stories I read. He could break me in just one throw away.

His head was scary but I managed to put my hand on top of it. My hands looked so little as I caressed his head.

"You're much larger than Vilka," I whispered.

I focused on caressing his soft fur. The feeling of swaying my hand on him was relaxing, it was just like caressing a giant teddy bear. But his face wasn't even close to a teddy bear. He looked like a handsome monster that kills.

'And you'll discover why, sooner or later. Let's take your learning slow as it can be overwhelming. But I want you to be aware of the Red Moon since that's the day of your transformation. All werewolves actually transform during that night. It's a routine; a long night process.'

I nodded while he was sinking more information into my rotting brain cells.

'I'm gonna prepare you for the Red Moon, so expect that we will have more sessions."

I nodded again while walking around his werewolf form. I was caressing his whole big body, including his cute, huge tail.

I touched his ear one more time before I cupped his face like my palms were hugging a dog's face. I smiled as I get more used to his werewolf form. I let my nose touch his nose like I was cuddling a dog while I was caressing both of his cheeks. My nose got wet from his warm nose but I liked the feeling of it.

"I thought you look scarier but as time goes by, I saw your werewolf form to be much more comforting like a giant teddy bear that I could squeeze when I'm sad." I frowned, still caressing his cheeks with my nose touching his. "Unlike your human form, you're much more sarcastic and short-tempered." 

I squeezed my eyes close as I massaged both of his cheeks more, feeling the soft fur on my hand.

"You find my human form more intimidating?" 

I stopped caressing his cheeks when I felt the softness of them without fur. I opened my eyes as my heart thumped while my nose was touching his pointy nose. I moved away, realizing he was already back to his human form. 

I looked at my hands, still feeling the warmness of his actual human cheeks. Then I looked back at him but I almost cough when my eyes landed on his naked body. I squeezed my eyes closed, covering them with my trembling palms.

His chuckles made my cheeks warmer. 

"Don't panic, Kira. You have my permission to look at my naked body so yeah," his voice was smirking. "Look at me whenever or however you want."

I just rolled my eyes, seeing myself caught off guard.

For the past few days, Vilka was still caged in the underground. She was still in her werewolf form with only animalistic instinct intact in her mind. Fenris claimed that her sister was dangerous so he had no choice but to imprison her in the voice-proof cage. Our routine has been the same. He would often drive me to school and fetch me like he was some kind of a bodyguard or something.

"Finish your food. I need to show you something." Fenris emptied his champagne glass after he took the last bite of his meat.

I shrugged before eating faster. In fairness, he was really a good cook. He has been the one cooking for our meal lately and I was loving it, except the fact that he would still get annoyed so easily even if I wasn't doing anything wrong.

"What is that?" I asked after chewing the last piece of meat.

"Do you wanna see it in your room or mine?" 

I stopped drinking my wine. I froze for a second until I put the glass back on the table before meeting his brown eyes that would often melt me like a helpless dog.

"First." I swallowed deeply. "What are you gonna show me?"

I massaged my lap as it suddenly felt warm down there. Is he gonna show me his huge--- I shook my head. Quit thinking dirty, Kira. Oh please, self.

His right brow raised. "Choose first, your room or mine?"

I licked my lower lip.

Why is he always catching me with his tempting questions that would mislead my thoughts into something wild? 

He puffed a breath. "Let's go to my room then," he declared before walking out of the dining area.

My face heated. Damn, I'm a virgin. I'm not ready. How am I gonna say to him that I'm not yet ready? 

I quickly cleaned the table before following him. The door to his room was open but I was hesitant to step inside so I just stood in front of his big door, feeling the cold breeze from his room. I sniffed, his manly scent was all around the corner.

"Come inside!" 

I flinched, hearing his command. I rolled my eyes before stepping inside. My eyes glistened in amusement as I looked around his black and white room. It was nice and neat, all of his things were organized compared to my dad whose things were all around our simple, little house.

"Close the door," he commanded again.

I hugged my arms as the cold breeze travelled on my skin more deeply like it was freezing my body except for my heart which kept on thumping loud like a giant drum was inside my chest.

I didn't move, seeing him remove his polo again, he was unzipping his pants when I looked away, contemplating whether to get out or to stay. The door was still open. Should I just run? 

"Close the door, Kira." His brows furrowed, starting to look annoyed.

I held the door with my knees trembling. Am I gonna lose my virginity now? I should have lost it when I was younger. I might not be this nervous today.

"Fenris, I'm not ready for---" My lips zipped as I captured his fully naked body again. I looked away. "Can you give me more time?"

"Seriously, Kira?" He sounded impatient. "You have seen my naked body before. What do you mean you're not ready? You should be fully ready before the red moon."

I bit my lower lip, staring at the floor. "Do we have to do this before the Red Moon? Is it necessary to make out with my mate before my transformation? Before the wedding?"