Chapter 6

Kate’s pov

The dinner was nice. I know that’s weird to say about a dinner that is in memory of someone’s death, but it was really nice. Nice to remember Riker together, to share memories, to see everyone. To see Sierra. She looked really beautiful and she was always really kind to me. She treated me more like a little sister than a friend, but to her, I probably felt like one.

I noticed Asher was drinking a lot though. This day was always hard on him, but when I tried to talk to him about it, he stormed off.

Ash didn’t come back to the dining hall, but Leia did and she looked really weird. Like in a sort of trance almost. She didn’t want to tell me what happened with everyone there, werewolves have very good hearing, so I asked her to spend the night. Maybe she would tell me when we were alone.

Leia finally admitted that Asher had kissed her and I didn’t know if I was pissed at Asher or happy for Leia. Probably both. Leia always had a crush on Asher and this must have felt like a dream come true. My brother was a good friend and a good brother, but he was not a good boyfriend. He didn’t have relationships longer than a few weeks. Most of them lasted only a few days, he probably dumped them after having sex.

Leia was a virgin and she was in love. My brother couldn’t just kiss her when he was drunk and made her have hope for something more. Leia wasn't someone he could just have sex with and then dump, like the rest. I was getting angrier thinking about it, but Leia had me swear I couldn’t say anything to Asher. That she wouldn’t tell me anything else if I betrayed her.

“Don’t think of him like your brother. Just be my fucking friend. Could you imagine if Sierra kissed you?” She waited a bit for me to think about it, “yeah, that’s how I fucking feel. Asher finally showed interest in me. All it took was your damn dress and a lot of drinks.”

After talking some more we went to bed. I woke up bright and early and couldn't sleep anymore, so I decided to head down to breakfast. We didn’t have school today, so Leia could sleep in.

When Leia did come down an hour later, she looked sad.

She whispered, “he doesn’t remember. He was so fucking drunk that he doesn’t remember. It’s like the whole fucking thing didn’t even happen.”

I didn’t know what to say, so I gave her a hug. To make matters worse, Asher came down and practically ignored us. He was busy on his phone and when he was done eating breakfast, some pretty looking girl came inside the packhouse.

She gave him a kiss and gave me and Leia a nod with her head.

Sierra was shaking her head. “I am so stupid. So stupid.”

Then suddenly she turned red and laughed, “you know what’s fucking worse? I think I flashed Asher?”

“What?!” I almost shouted.

“Ssst. I didn’t mean to. But he came in and asked for mouthwash and I only wore a towel. I tried to shield my boobs, so I pulled the towel up. When he left I checked in the mirror how I looked. I don’t fucking know why. Probably because I felt a fucking breeze near my ass.”

“Okay?” I didn’t know where she was going with this.

“I pulled my fucking towel up too high and I even ducked down to grab something at one point. He must think I am fucking desperate. Showing off my ass. Like I am a fucking baboon or something. Fuck. I am such a fool.”

I tried to hide my laughter, but I kept picturing a monkey with Leia’s face.

“He probably didn’t notice.” I told Leia, hoping it was true.

Leia sighed, “I should just give up. Find some fucking guy who likes me and push down whatever I am feeling right now. That kiss was soooo good. But fuck, this hurts.”

I gagged, “I love you both, but don’t need to know any details.”

Leia ignored me, “he did this thing with his tongue, -“

“Leia please!” I shouted, now picturing the two of them kissing.

“Okay. Fine. Fuck. We should make a pact. We both forget about our crush and focus on something or someone else. You get yourself a nice girlfriend and I find some guy that actually remembers kissing me.”

Maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad idea. We were both pining for someone who was unavailable. But it wasn’t like we were rejecting other people. No one had shown any interest in either of us. So forgetting about our crush might be possible, but getting a new one? Highly unlikely.

“Fine. We forget about our crushes.” I said. “Don’t know about the second part though. Maybe I’ll just wait until I meet my mate.”

Leia rolled her eyes, “no fucking way. You don’t have to have sex with the first girl you meet. But there is no harm in kissing someone else and having some fun before you meet your mate. It’s at least two fucking years before we meet them.”

I shrugged, not really caring about meeting someone.

“Your hands need a break Kat. Let someone else take over.”

It took me a while to realize what she meant and when I did, I hit her arm. “Gross Leia.”

“What you’re more of a vibrator kind of girl?”

“Leia!”

“Fine. I’m going back to the farm to help dad today. Want to join?”` Leia asked.

“Sure.” I replied, not having anything else to do.