Chapter 3: Disappointment

Today I was getting ready to be released from the hospital. I was a bit slow moving with my stitches, and I didn’t have anyone to give me a hand. The doctor came to ask a few questions and told me the nurse would be in with my discharge papers . I took my phone out and opened up the messages, I attached a picture of Jeremy and wrote out a quick message to my father

K: Look who I am taking home today, his name is Jeremy and he is so sweet and very healthy. I’d love it if you would meet him soon, I know your mad at me dad but I am sorry and I mean it I’m done with Darren. I haven’t seen him in months and I will be going to court soon for full custody.

I didn’t notice I had tears in my eyes when the nurse walked in,

“Are you ok dear?” she asked me.

I nodded, “Yes I’m just happy and a bit excited for everyone to meet him” I lied to her.

I was excited for people to meet him, but I was very scared and nervous about taking Jeremy home it was a big deal to be responsible for someone else for once. I heard Jeremy whimper and I immediately picked him up, I would do everything it takes to make sure this little boy was safe, I was so in love with him.

I grabbed my bags and set Jeremy in his car seat as I managed to carry everything and walk out the door very slowly. With every step I could feel my stomach tighten. I dropped everything as soon as I was release outside the maternity ward to take a little break, I looked at Jeremy and he was sound asleep, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket,

Dad: He’s beautiful Kay, I’d love to meet him! I’m excited, I’m officially a grandpa! Are you ok to get home? Where are you?

I felt the tears begin in my eyes,

K: Daddy I’m really scared and alone. Can you please pick us up, I’m at Bracely hospital.

My dad didn’t know where I moved, I didn’t tell anyone, but I moved much closer to him.

Dad: I’m leaving now, I’ll be there in 20 minutes.

Flashback

I starred at my dad as he looked down at me with disappointment,

“What have you done Kay! You have completely ruined your future! First you lost your chance in the academy and now your pregnant? Do you think he will take care of you two? He can’t even take care of himself!” he was now shouting at me.

I put my head down, I knew my dad was right but after everything I’ve been through, I couldn’t just leave. I was having Darren’s baby, I gave up so much for this relationship to just throw that all away would be pointless.

Regardless of everything and I wasn’t sure why I was crazy in love with Darren. No one in their right mind would be standing next to him after everything he’s done to me.

I looked at my father in the eyes,

“I’m sorry I disappointed you daddy. But I do love him and I’m carrying your grandchild. I hope you will be able to be part of our lives.”

He shook his head,

“If your still with him there’s no way I can be a part of your life Kay. I’m sorry dear, but this is all a mistake. I can’t be around him ill murder him I swear I will.”

I thought about it if only my dad new it all he wouldn’t hesitate to go after him with a shot gun. That was the last time I saw my father, he looked at me with disappointment and anger as he stormed off and hasn’t talked to me since.

End of Flashback

I was sitting in the lobby when my dad walked in, he saw me and the little boy in the car seat, I seen him eye around as if he were looking for someone as he walked towards me. He gave me a big hug and looked down at Jeremy,

“He’s even cuter in person Kay, God I don’t remember babies being so small! Look at those little feet.”

For a first time in a long time I seen a proud look on his face. He picked up the baby carrier and my bags and walked me towards the car. He buckled Jeremy in with all the extra straps making sure he was secure. I loved seeing him like this he looked like a proud and protective grandfather.

We talked about my hospital stay and the birth a bit without the extra details. I gave him directions to the apartment I was renting, it was in a bit of a rough neighborhood. I could see my father eyeing everything.

He helped me with my bags as I walked him to the door and unlocked it. The first thing he commented on was the amount of locks on my door, I know it was excessive but I had deadlocks from the floor to the ceiling.

He looked around the small 2 bedroom apartment, he walked into the baby room where he saw the used crib and the few bits of clothing I had for him.

I lost everything and have been hustling my money to even afford the little bit we had.

“Does Jeremy need anything Kay? Do you?”

I shook my head, I was just happy my father was here. He walked over to my little kitchen and opened my fridge he looked up and down,

“Kay I think you’ve been robbed, there is literally nothing in here!”

I immediately panicked and wanted to save my pride,

“I knew I'd be at the hospital, I didn’t go shopping yet. Don’t worry I will.”

That was all a lie, I had an entire $6.03 in my account until the end of the month. I snatched all the diapers and formula they gave me at the hospital, I was hoping it would last until then.

My father offered to pick us up some lunch and said he would be back in a bit he had a few errands to do also.

I fed Jeremy a bottle and when he was asleep I decided to lay down a bit also, when I felt my phone vibrate, assuming it was my father I immediately opened it,

Unknown number: You had my fucking son and didn’t even bother to send me a picture. Where are you Kay? I want to see him! He’s mine also you can’t fucking keep him from me. You are both mine don’t fucking forget it, I’ll find you before you know it.