In the darkness of the room, I watched the man that I loved sleep and the more I watched him the faster and harder the tears fell from my eyes. I failed him. He had been so excited to have a child with me, he had been looking forward to it with everything and I had dashed those hopes. Greyson had tried so hard to hide it but since I got back, I always caught his eyes moving to my stomach and the sadness that would cloud within his grey orbs when he would find the space empty usually made me hate myself even more. We were supposed to be a happy family, with two extra children along with Jessy, but now not only did I loose our twins, I had also lost my womb. There was no greater pain that the one that I was currently faced with. Not even the stabs came close to the pain that I felt now. As much as Greyson wanted to pretend, I knew that there had been a change between us and things were not as normal as they used to be. He was of course still the sweetest, most supportive, loving ma
“Are you alright?” Christie’s voice came pierced through my thinking and brought me back to reality. I offered the maid a small smile and picked up the knife that I had dropped previously to press the back of my palms to my head when it had begun to throb. “Of course, why?” I replied, trying my best to sound as cheerful as possible, but I could see I had overdone it from the way the maids face furrowed even more in suspicion. “Well I understand it’s been really hard for you recently and all, I just think you’re becoming a different person. You’re a lot more quiet nowadays and you’re always thinking. I mean I understand that everything that has happened has definitely really hit you hard but it feels even worse now, you know.” When Christie stopped talking, I paused for a couple of seconds to take in her words. I knew for a fact that I changed since after the incident, but I didn’t think that I had changed even more recently. “I-I’m sorry. I know it’s not my place. I just want you
Greyson’s POV: I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe any of it, where did I go wrong? How was I the bad person for looking out for her and making sure she was okay? I almost lost her a month ago! I had been stuck here praying to the Goddess every night, hoping that she was alive and I was the most lucky man on earth because I had almost lost her, in fact I did but through some miracle, I have her with me again and she wanted me to take risks with her safety? How did she not understand that there was no way I could live without her? If anything ever happened to Freya, I wouldn’t survive it. She needed to know it. Once the initial shock from her slamming the door in my face faded away, I pulled open the door and stepped into the night air. Freya’s scent lingered in the air and I followed it until I could see her walking just ahead of me.I didn’t try to catch up to her or try to talk to her anymore. In fact, I maintained a good distance between us and just walked behind her, ma
There was no reason for me to be crying I was after all the one putting an end to it all but as I said those words I couldn’t help the stream of tears that fell down my face. “No, no Freya. You can’t. We are a family! I love you, and you said you love me too.” “I do, I really do. I just don’t think things are working out the way they should and the way they used to, maybe it’s a sign. You had a mate and maybe she’s supposed to be your one and only.”“If that was meant to be then she would be here with me right now. But she’s not. You can’t just leave, what I’m I supposed to do without you? What are we going to tell Jessy and then Simon?” I had never seen Greyson cry like the way he currently was doing ever before. It was so saddening to see the strongest man I knew cry as much. I wanted things to go back to normal, I wanted to be wrapped up in his arms back in our room, just discussing all the meaningless things the world had to offer. There was a hole in my chest every time I tho
I couldn’t believe how good I felt. My body felt like it was lit on fire, the good kind of fire and I felt energized from the inside. It was the best feeling in the world. Even with my eyes closed I could hear the birds singing outside, I could hear the pans and pots from Christie’s cooking downstairs and for the first time in a month I didn’t feel the overwhelming need to go and join her just so I could be relevant.I didn’t feel like I was failing my family by laying in bed and not making them breakfast. I turned around in bed and the space beside me was empty, when I reached to feel the sheets it was cold, a sign that Greyson had been out of bed for a while now. My hand reached something and when I held on to it, I realized it was a piece of paper. I opened it and when I found the messy scrawl that was Greyson’s handwriting within, a smile spread across my face. Hi Beautiful, Your idiotic brother forced me out of bed very early this morning, I wanted to let you know I was leavi
Greyson’s POV: The paper in front of me was starting to blur out and I shook my head gently hoping it would start to make sense again soon. It was past dinner time and I couldn’t even make it to dinner thanks to the papers in front of me. The feast of Alphas was coming up again and this time I was the host. It had been a long time since I had to host an event such as this one and maybe I had kind of forgotten the work that comes with it. Everywhere was buzzing with preparations and as the event drawer even closer, I could feel the anticipation build even higher. Then there was this other thing that I had planned, that involved myself and my mate. I was trying to get it done before the feast of Alphas but I also didn’t want anything overshadowing it. A knock came on my door but before I could respond to it the door was pushed open to reveal Smith. It felt like the Goddess sent him to me in this moment because what I needed in this very moment was someone to talk to and maybe a lit
I was pretty sure this food tasted a lot better than it did last night even when it was the same recipe and ingredients, but somehow my tongue was watering for it. The scent was heavenly and so was the taste and I hummed with joy as I stuffed my mouth full. “Wow Freya I didn’t know you were that hungry.” Christie commented but I ignored her. The food was a lot more important to me at this point. “I just hope Master doesn’t think I don’t feed you with the way you’re practically inhaling that food. It’s just 11am and that’s your third meal.” She said again and I paused in my eating. “Aargghh since I can’t eat peacefully here, I’m going somewhere else.” I said irritated by the fact that she wouldn’t stop talking and just allow me enjoy my meal in peace. “Freya, I didn’t mean to offend you, I just wanted to be sure you’re fine.” I was already half way through the door with my plate in my hands before she could complete her sentence. I made my way to Greyson’s office, I didn’t want t
Greyson’s POV: I watched with excitement and nervousness as Clara rubbed the gel onto Freya’s stomach. It was too surreal. This had been the last thing that I expected. Freya pregnant again. After Clara had delivered the news that Freya had lost her womb as a result of the stabbing she suffered, I had truly believed that it was the end and there would be no hope of us having a child ever again. It had been very traumatic and heartbreaking to come to terms with it but I knew that Freya was feeling even worse about the news so I knew that I had to make it better for her. I had to constantly reassure her and make sure her mind didn’t dwell on that topic for too long. “Well it is amazing. There you have it, two very healthy looking fetus.” Clara said, pointing to the screen and I could hear the shock in the healers voice. This was a miracle, there was honestly no other explanation to it. “That’s it for now.” Clara said again, passing Freya a rag to wipe her tummy with. “Everything