***ESTHER***Almost after two hours of cleaning, I complete the cleaning session. It’s been long that I haven’t cleaned like this. Its kind of making me tired while at the same time making me refreshed.I walk towards my study desk and sit on the chair for rest. I pull out the drawer from my study desk and see colorful diaries of mine which I started to write since my high school, every year with every new colors.They are of brown, lavender, purple, pink, sky blue and black color. Altogether, there are six diaries which I had written in last six years. I had filled them with all the emotions at that time. My fear, my anxiety, my excitement, motivation, my frustration, my madness, my anger and the love I always had been yearning for. All of them were mentioned over there.All of the five diaries were complete but I had never been able to complete the last diary. It’s because I had never been able to write and explain the things that had happened to me after that day.It was hard, too
***ESTHER***My eyes open as the bright sun rays penetrate my skin. For a few moments, I feel motionless and then, I check the place around me. I’m still in my apartment. I breathe in giddily as I feel fresh but my neck feels pained.Wait! I dozed on the couch for the whole night. God damn! That’s why my shoulders and neck are paining like hell. I turn around to check my phone and I see the phone is still going on.“God damn! Caden!” I shout all of a sudden. What the hell is wrong with me? Why didn’t he cut off the phone?“Yes!” I hear his voice from another side of the phone.“Holy! Caden! You didn’t sleep?” I put my phone against my ear.“Did …you wake up?” I hear his unclear voice from another side.“Just go to sleep,” I say as I cut off the phone. Is this guy crazy or what? Who does this kind of funny stuff? I couldn’t help but be in disbelief. But that disbelief slowly turns to a faint smile on my face.Wait!What am I even doing? Am I smiling right now? At the craziness of that
***CADEN***Did I just hear it right? Or did I just hear it wrong? I heard her telling me it is her boyfriend and her son. That doesn’t make sense at all.She is… She is just in the first year of college and the man in the picture seems like he is a cop. And that child… It seems he is almost 7-8 months baby and if that’s her baby then he would be with her, right?“You’re joking, right? I know you regard me as foolish in front of you but I am not. You should try to fool someone else,” I smile as pick up the picture from the table and shake it in front of her eyes.She… isn’t smiling. She looks absolutely serious. Her hands are motionless with the blue cup in her hands. It seems as if she is shouting out inside her hard and trying to tell a lot of things as I visualize the way she is looking at me. But she isn’t being able to tell anything.“Something’s wrong?” I bellow. My voice turns low as I comprehend their situation of hers and without even her answer I realize that everything… ev
***ESTHER***“Why are you doing it yourself? Don’t you have the machine for this?” he magnifies his eyes as he sees the pile of clothes in between him and me.“I do have but these are the clothes which I prefer to wash,” I say as I pick them up and walk towards the laundry room.“Really? With your own hands?” he shouts behind my back. I cannot help but smile as I walk away.“I told you, you’re going to regret it. Why don’t you just return?” I tease him. I know deep down that he is never going to return.“I’m coming,” he rushes behind me. I can hear his rushed footsteps toward me. His footsteps slow down as he reaches closer to me and walks along with me.I couldn't help but smile within me not showing the happiness within me. Having someone to walk along with you is more than just a blessing, isn't it?It reminds me of him, David!********Some years ago"Why did you call me over here?" I panted hard as I crouched to touch my knees.It's been a year that I have been friends with him.
***CADEN***"Are you out of your mind Caden? What the hell did you just do now?" she stands like a scarecrow whose hands are wide stretched and her face disoriented into something, not exactly like her but her.I giggle loudly as I drench her whole clothes with water. She needs this.She can't just hear some shitty thing that the stranger just said about her and get concerned with it. She should just wash that off her mind."I think you need a wash. That lady just threw a bunch of shitty talk in you and you need to shake it off," I say as I laugh out loud."God damn Caden, I'm gonna kill you," she says and turns her body left and right searching for something. I know she is searching for something to hit me. But I'm lucky there is nothing except those foamed clothes.Wait! Foamed clothes!Don't tell me she is going to hit me with that.God damn!I did a huge mistake for god's sake."No! Don't tell me you're going to do it?" I slowly pace my steps backwards."Nothing had ever stopped m
***Caden***“Picnic? Right now?” My eyes enlarged with shock when she says going out on a picnic out of blue.“Why? Don’t you want to go?” she giggles and walks towards the fridge and takes out the bottle of water and takes a sip from there.“Why wouldn’t I go? Picnic really seems to be a nice idea,” I nod my head gently with a smile.“But where are we going actually?” I ask.“It’s a surprise. I’m sure you’re going to love it,” she says and takes out a basket from the fridge.Had she already prepared for this picnic? Well! That doesn’t matter at all. The only thing that matters right now is I am going to be with her right now.I walk towards the balcony to get my clothes but she stops me on my way.“Where are you going to?” she questions and as she looks outside the balcony she realizes that I am going over there for my clothes.“You don’t have to get dressed to go over there. Trust me, no one is going to judge you over there,” she confirms and calls me quickly.But I am in a regular
***ESTHER***None of us enunciated a single word in our whole journey. Maybe it was wrong of me to ask her that question. Maybe, I was never supposed to ask to her.God damn! Caden! Why can’t you stop yourself before yo talk shit?“Caden! Caden!” I hear her voice calling me. I turned around to her and see that she is looking at me.“What?” I ask.“We need to get down now,” she turns away and is going to get out of the taxi. I suddenly grab her arm and she faces me.Her eyes are questioning me with my abrupt behaviour but she doesn’t say a word.“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked that question to you,” I apologize. She lets out a small before she speaks anything to me.“Caden! I think I should say this. You look extremely awful when you are apologizing. Today and before too but you know what I’m glad to see you being considerate of others,” she says and gets out of the taxi.It’s not for others Esther. It’s just for you. I can’t do this to others as others aren’t you.“Es…ther…,” I hea
***CADEN***“So, I was right. You like her, don’t you?” Caisey questions me and I just can’t tell anything to her. I am speechless right now.For the first time in my whole life, I want to speak so much about her. I want to tell the whole world,‘Yeah! It’s her. It’s just her that I am in love with,’ but I can’t do that. I don’t want to do that at all.“It’s not like that. You just think a lot of things. Why don’t you just concentrate more on your studies than on me,” I throw a cushion to her side and stand up making my way to my wardrobe to change to something else.“You can’t lie to me. I can read your eyes,” she says.“Then, stop reading them. Don’t… Please… just don’t do that,” I say as I grab my T-shirt and trousers from my wardrobe.“Why? What’s the problem? She is a good girl and yo like her. You can just tell her. I am sure she doesn’t hate you,” she says.I don’t know but it is quite weird to listen to things like this from your fifteen year old sister. It sounds so immature