ELLA.
I have never brought a guy into my apartment before. Infact only Chloe has been to my house before. Because of my treatments and regular hospital stays, i never really had a social life so the out friend i had was chloe. But right now one of the richest men in New York city was in my house. My one bedroom cheap apartment.
This entire day has been one bizzare moment after another. I open the door slowly making a quick scan of the apartment incase there's anything i need to hide. In doing so, i realize i just might have to hide everything and that's not possible with Jordan step behind me.
When Jordan said we will pass by my place to pick up my stiff, I thought he was going to wait in the car while i pack. But he instead followed me up claiming women take forever to get ready, he needed to come up with me to make sure i hurry up. I step aside and allow him to enter my apartment.
"Come in." i say.
Jordan walks in after me, taking in my apartment with his curious eyes. Its a small one bedroom, but with him in it it seems even more smaller than normal.
Jordan walks over to the table where there are a bunch of my bills. I quickly follow him and pick all of them up and put them in the drawer besides him. He scans my apartment once more, from my kitchen, to the living room, to the hallway that leads to the bedroom. Then his eyes land on me so hard i suck in a breath. He stares at me then my legs. I watch him as his eyes take in every part of me. After a while i finally gather the courage to go to the bedroom to pack so that we get out of my house before anything happened.
As i put some few clothes in my suitcase am nervous, but not nearly as nervous as I was putting the key into the front door. I suddenly sense his presence the moment he comes into the bedroom. He was soundless as he approached, and my hearbeat felt as if it was disconcertingly loud in this quiet room.
"I never make my bed." I blurted out loud as he was approaching me. My room was messy and I felt the need to suddenly explain myself.
"Why not?" He asks taking another step closer. I am nervous and anxious and almost speechless too.
"I just don't see the need." i say as i finish up closing my suitcase. "I need to freshen up a little, I won't be long." i point towards the bathroom and he just grins amused and nods.
I shut myself in the bathroom and stare at the closed door. For a moment i forget what am even doing here. Then i remember the sex god and well known playboy Jordan Baker is in my bedroom. I quickly take a shower then hold my hair up in one bun. I put on some joggers and i don't put on a bra, it's not like he will be able to tell am not wearing a bra, i tell myself as i look myself in the Mirror one last time.
I blow out a calming breath and then open my bathroom door.
I am not sure what i expected but Jordan still looks the same. He is sitted now at the the edge of the bed reading one of my bedside magazines. My pillows are all lined up and my duvet is tucked in under the mattress and completely wrinkle free. The corners od it neatly folded over the revealing sheet below it.
"You made my bed," i say walking towards the bed as i pick up my suitcase. "I didn't take you to be the home trained kind." i say half jokingly. "I am impressed."
Jordan 's hand comes to rest on my shoulder, i am not sure what changed in him since we walked through my front door, but i can tell something changed. His thoughts are no longer where they were earlier. His entire expression seems rife with indecision." Well i wasn't always rich you know." he sighs heavily, "Let's go." with that he gets up and leaves without looking back or writing for me to close up. He didn't even help me with my suitcase down the stairs.
Jerk!
We get back to the limo waiting outside. The driver helps me with my suitcase as i get in. Jordan is already sitted and drinking when i finally settle next to him. It is the most awkward ride ever, the silence is deafening and am not so sleepy anymore. Its like something changed, Jordan is different, his mind seems to be so far away now.
Thirty minutes later he looks at me, like really looks at me. His eyes meet mine and he just stares, hard like all my secrets are right there on my face. "What happened to you that night?"
I didn't expect that particular question, he really catches me offguard.
"That's a hard question." I rest my chin in my arms and look down at my legs. I can feel him watching me for a moment, and then he says. "No one has ever done that to me before, you kind of bruised my ego a little bit."
We are both quiet again for a moment, and then he says, "Why didn't you wait until morning for you to leave?"
I look at him for a while, "Then we would have had to have arkward conversations, so i just avoided all that. Plus i figured it was clear i was just there for the good time, you wouldn't mind which time i left."
He stares at me for a moment, "I like that you are honest."
He likes that am honest, that makes me smile.
The rest of the journey is in silence, i eventually fall asleep.
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We stayed in his penthouse in Chicago, sharing a suite of bedroom for each of us and a common sitting room. A knock in the door startled me. I had already told Jordan i was not eating i was too tired i just wanted to sleep. It was almost midnight.
"Dinner is ready." He said through the door.
"I'm not hungry." I replied starting to get irritated, "i already told you that."
"Well, you need to eat. You haven't eaten anything."
"Now you are keeping tabs on me?" i ask rolling my eyes even though he can't see them.
"Opne the door Ella,"
"Go away Jordan, take the food with you."
I for a moment thought he had gone, but instead the door abruptly opened.
"It's my house remember," he said chuckling. "I have a key."
He said showing me the set of keys. "Dinner is ready."
I ignored him and went on to finish up arranging the few clothes i had carried in the closet. He suddenly took me by my arms and and turned me, holding me so i could look at him, and him at me.
I had already changed into a nightie, a simple long almost sheer white cotton dress that reached just above my knees. I wore no bra still, and my breasts swelled through the thin fabric. He looked at me for a moment longer before letting me go.
"Try and eat something, tomorrow we have a long busy day." with that he was gone.
I didn't like the way my body reacted to Jordan, i was glad he left. I went back to the table where he had placed my plate. My stomach growled, i hadn't eaten all day and the hunger was now kicking in.
I took the lid off one of the two dishes to find a thick steak, potatoes and mixed grilled vegetables. I swallowed, salivating already and sat down. Picking up a knife and fork. I placed a piece of the meat in my mouth, so buttery and so delicious, it melted on my tongue. A bottle of wine was also accompanying the food. I took a second bite then tasted the grilled potatoes spiced with rosemary and more butter. God! that tasted so good. I had no idea how hungry i was until this. I finished the entire plate of food and took the bottle of wine with me to my bed. I sat on the bed and poured myself a glass as i lay on my bed going through some of the documents for our first meeting tomorrow.
It didn't take long before i finished the whole bottle, i swallowed two sleeping pills, set the glass on the night stand and climbed into bed pulling the covers over me. I wanted to sleep and not think about anything.
I lay my head back on the headboard and closed my eyes. I was tired, i was overwhelmed with emotions, jet lagged and exhausted.
Darkness fell when i switched off the lamp, and i closed my eyes.
My head hurt the next morning, probably a combination of too much crying and too much wine from last night.
A knock came at the door just as i finished getting ready.
"Come in." I said, expecting Jordan but someone else came in.
"The car is ready." the man I didn't recognize said.
"Where is Jordan?"
"He was called into an impromptu meeting together with Jeremy."
"Who are you?"
"I am Ethan, i drive him around when he is in Chicago and take care of the house." he said without smiling even one bit
"Nice to meet you Ethan, am Ella. Where are we going?"
"My boss asked me to drop you off at his Chicago office, he will join you there later for lunch" and then he started walking away as I tried to keep up.
"Okay, Thanks."
I walked right behind him, and the front doors opened letting in the sunshine and the already too hot temperatures. It then hit me i had slept in, it was almost midday. Why didn't they just wake me up?
I was supposed to be here as his personal assistant, and i had slept in on our first day. Wow! Great work Ella. I said to myself.
Chapter seven. “Hey,” i said smiling at the receptionist. She was a tall brunette who didn't seem to like me very much. “Am here for Jordan,”“Do you have an appointment?” she asked me coldly. “Not officially, but he is expecting me.”“Well am not allowed to let anyone in without an appointment.” she said sitting back down. I took my phone out and dialed Jordan's number, but he was not picking up. I was about to go back down to the car, when Chloe called me. “Hey,” i answered the phone enthusiastically. “Hey baby girl how is Chicago treating you? Is it cold?”“I will catch you up on everything but i need your out of the box thinking right now.”“Ofcourse, what's going on?”“I am supposed to be in a meeting with Jordan but his receptionist won't let me in and he is not picking up his phone.” i said loudly for the receptionist who was looking at me like i was one of Jordan's sluts to hear. She just rolled her eyes. “Well that's easy, just walk right past her.” Chloe said giggling.
ELLA. It's almost past midnight. Jordan called an hour ago and said he wouldn't be coming back to the house. I didn't ask him questions i figured he was spending the night with the blonde from the party earlier. I cant sleep for some reason, on this particular lonely night it has me thinking about Alex, my son Kyle's father.I still never got him out of my head completely, though time made things better, sometimes I would see something that reminded me of him and it would put me in a funk. I remember the day i got the call, I was six months pregnant he died in war, he was in the military serving our country.On a particular lonely night when i was almost due, i went alone to a tattoo studio and had a a heart put in the spot he used kiss me. It's a tiny heart, about the size of a thumbprint. It's not fully closed i had it like that on purpose because it's how my heart feels every time i think about him. It just feels like a little hole in it, letting out all the air.I loved him, i st
Ella. I wore a sundress. Jordan cupped my face in his hands and brushed his mouth across mine with heartrending tenderness. His gaze remained haunted."Lunch?" i asked feeling the need to cling to the connection between us."I have a business lunch." he ran his fingers through my loose hair. "would you come with? Our driver can drop you off after""I would love to come along." his haze softened.Dressed in formal clothes he looked somber yet collected. I knew he was anything but. On the drive to the business lunch he cuddled me in his lap, i didn't speak more than a dozen words during the meal, which Jordan ordered for me.I sat quietly at his side, my left hand resting on his hard thigh beneath the table cloth. A wordless affirmation for my commitment to him or is it our contract. One of his hands rested warmly over mine as he diacussed a new property he was acquiring.With each hour that passed i felt the horror of the morning, i didn't know how to get him to talk to me or even ope
EllaI am watching friends eating peanut butter and bread on the bedChloe 's wild thing ring tone makes me grinas my phone screen lights up, as usual i answer with Bluetooth to avoid using my hands. "Hey Chloe, what's up" "i should ask you that girl, you are the one with a new boyfriend" "he is not my boyfriend and you know that" "well how is the man you're having all boyfriend benefits with doing" she says laughing"He is good, actually he is out right now with his ex wife" " what? He was married?" "Yap, so yes am home eating peanut watching friends, how are you guys" "We are all good, we miss you" "i miss you guys too, can't wait to get back home next week" i sat up tugging at the shorts i was wearing tugging them up "Girl, guess what am wearing" "How am i supposed to guess what you are wearing Ella, it could be anything" "But it's not, it's your Christmas gift to me" "Ofcourse you would wear them when no one is home" "because that's the intention no one will ever see
ELLA. We are making our way into our side of the cabin house when Jordan grabs my waist and starts kissing me against the wall. He just starts kissing me out of nowhere.We have just arrived at his parent's cabin house, for the memorial of his daughter Zuri. She was buried here. "Impatient much?!" i murmurHe laughs and cups my ass with both his hands. "Nope, you just look amazing today" he continues kissing me until i push him away and walk into the kitchen and grab a bottle of wine and two glasses.Jordan comes up behind me as i am pouring the wine and snakes his arms around my waist. I hand him a glass of wine "i think you are using me to deflect from your emotions and what you are feeling today?"He steps over to me and takes my glass of wine from my hands. He sets both our glasses at the counter top, he then leans in and gives me a deep passionate drunken kiss. I can taste the tart of fruitness of the wine on his tongue and i like it. His hands go to the back of my dresser wher
ELLA My phone was puzzing, i thought i was being smart putting it out of reach. The hope was that if i couldn't reach it i wouldn't answer it.Maybe it was Jordan, we hadn't spoken since i sent him my resignation letter and left. The man is fine AF, yes, but he is taken. I'm not trying to walk on Leila's grass, though to be clear, it is a beautifully maintained lawn. Yes there is an attraction between us but i have lived long enough to not believe men who say they are going to break up with their wives girlfriends for you.I also had my fair share of secrets, Jordan didn't know everything about me he just fell in love with a part of me. He had no idea i had a son and I intended it to stay that way.I look at my phone it's Chloe asking me where am at, we were supposed to grab lunch together.Am a little disappointed Jordan has not tried to reach me at all. It's been a week since our hotel incidence where i bolted out when he was still in the shower. I knew he would be furious dissapo
Jordan .My cell phone is ringing in my pocket when we walk back into the house with Leila from our dinner. I place the deserts we ordered to go on the kitchen counter before fumbling my pockets to see who might be calling. I was expecting a call from my private investigator all day, maybe it's him.I look at the screen and it's actually Ella calling. We had not spoken since she ditched me. Leila gives me a glance that implies she was asking who was calling me this late. I direct the call to voicemail and decide not to let Ella ruin my perfect night out with Leila . Things were going well so far, i think i might be open to giving us another chance. After Ella left me in the hotel after i told her how i felt i decided to give Leila a chance."Was it that hoe Ella?" Leila fired at me almost furious "Jordan i thought we went over this?""Babe you don't even know if it's actually Ella"Instead of answering me, she scowled and shrugged her shoulders like a pelutant child."come on Leila "
Chapter FourteenELLA.I didn't expect to feel this much pain after seeing him. But it's good my heart needed closure and i needed to to know where he stood so i could make a plan for my life. Yes i am crying, but this is good. This is human nature. Chloe drops onto the couch beside me. "So how did the meeting go with Jordan" she asks. I laugh a little, "it was a complete total distater"She pouts as she pulls her legs beneath her. "I am going to need more information woman" i shake my head"I didn't even get to tell him am pregnant, he found out about Kyle and he was upset, he only came here to confront me""How did he find out?""he said he hired a private investigator to look into me. But it doesn't matter he said he does not want to ever see me again, so am on my own""You are not alone Ella" she said hugging me"we will raise that child together, i mean we have already raised one before how hard can it be"We both laughed, She left for her room. I missed Alex, today more than u