*Trigger Warning: Some sensitive and gruesome content in this chapter*Rhea’s POVI knew better than to disobey, I knew he could separate my head from my body with a single hit from him, or he could slice me limb from limb, little by little until I go crazy from the pain just to make an example out of who ever dares to defy his orders. I knew all that but I couldn’t get myself to shift.My eyes were stuck on the little boy and how big his teardrops were as they were falling down his angelic face. The biggest teardrops I’ve ever seen and they massacred my heart to pieces.“I don’t have all day Rhea. Kill them or die along with them” he said coldly with dead eyes.Hazel was whimpering in my head in both fear and pain.She wasn’t going to force the shift and do it for me unless I asked her. She was willing to accept death if it meant not getting blood on our hands, especially those people’s blood.I thought I could do this, I was preparing myself to do this for years but when the moment
Rhea’s POVIt took me months to recover from my first two kills. If you can even call it recovering when my soul was already dead.I was alive and breathing but it made no difference for I was dead inside.Alpha Victor made sure of it.Ever since that night, for months, alpha Victor would always order me to kill the women and children of each pack we invaded to ensure my allegiance to him and to break me to the point of no return.And I did it.I never defied him again.I never dared to help the innocent people I found hiding in their houses ever again.I killed with no mercy. I killed them and gave them the quickest deaths I could manage. I never looked in their eyes, I never kept their screams trapped around in my head, but it didn’t matter.Nightmares filled my sleep every time I closed my eyes. That boy’s face, his tears, his cries haunted me until I thought I will go crazy with the amount of guilt and suffering I was experiencing.I almost took my own life as I reached a point wh
Adrian’s POVI gasped loudly as I felt like I was catching on fire, burning alive even though there were no real flames enveloping me as I looked down at my body to check.A second later, I understood what was going on.“Rhea!” I called out in panic as I jumped off the bed and was out the door in the blink of an eye, heading straight to her room with a tremendous amount of dread.The last time I felt her pain in my sleep was absolutely nothing compared to what I was feeling right now.This was a million times more worse. And if the last time was any confirmation, a shallow cut won’t be enough to make it stop. Try a thousand cuts and it won’t even scratch the surface.I ran fearing the worst.I could stop her pain without endangering her life. But I knew she wouldn’t ask me if I left it up to her. She would rather cut herself than seek my help. She’s still not used to counting on someone else other than herself.We were progressing the past three days. She hasn’t seen any nightmares si
Adrian’s POV“I’m so tired, Adrian. I thought my nightmares will end if I hold on to your scent and sleep with it. I thought it was working, but it didn’t. They will never go away until I end them myself the only way I know will work” she looked at me as she said in surrender.“No! I won’t let you harm yourself anymore! No more cutting, not under my watch. I can keep them away from you, My scent will. It has been working so far but my scent must have faded from the sweater that’s why they came back” I said angrily.She looked at me in surprise and I realized my slip up.“How do you know about….about my cutting?” she stammered.I came clean, no point in hiding it anymore. The only way to work through this is to be open and honest from now on.“I saw you do it in the bathroom a few nights ago. I got woken up from my sleep when I felt your pain through the bond. I watched you suffering in there, and witnessed how you dealt with it. I wanted to come inside and confront you about it but I
Rhea’s POVHis first kiss put out the burning sensation in my heart, while his second kiss ignited the fire back into it, but I never felt happier to have it catch on fire in that sort of way before. A fire that didn’t burn me in pain but burned me with love and affection for the first time.The kiss made me believe what was real and what wasn’t. The person hugging me to his chest right now, giving me his all, he’s the only real thing in my entire life.He is my only source of light. My only source of life. And I was clinging to him with everything I had, unafraid to show myself to him anymore. To show him the real Rhea as he put it.I still don’t believe he should know about what I’ve done in the past. It still scares the hell out of me to come clean about the most disturbing things I’ve committed to a lot of innocent people.But I wasn’t lying when I said that I seriously could not go through this right now.I felt like my body and my mind have been through hell and back.“Let’s bot
Rhea’s POV“Come on! Come on! You’re killing me!” urged Hazel in my head in a whiny tone.I chuckled softly at her impatience.I was taking off my clothes behind one of the trees while Adrian was doing the same on the other side.We were in a small clearing deep in the forest of his territory. We were getting ready to let our wolves out to meet each other for the first time.It was still pretty early in the morning but I was too energetic to feel the effects of last night’s tremendous terror that left me pretty drained. Most of the energy was coming from Hazel as she complained that I was torturing her by moving too slowly to remove my clothes.As soon as I discarded my underwear, she pushed for control and I handed it to her without any more delays.We shifted smoothly and she sprinted from around the tree we were hiding behind to meet Lennox.Except Lennox wasn’t there.Adrian still hasn’t shifted as he looked at Hazel admirably. He was naked except for his boxer.“I wanted to offic
Adrian’s POVI’ve never seen Lennox enjoy something as much as he enjoyed hanging out with Hazel.He was beyond ecstatic. He was on cloud nine and so was she.We both had a feeling the poor thing never had any kind of fun before.They raced, ran, nibbled and licked each other to their hearts’ content.Lennox tried to pounce on her many times but Hazel was legendary. Her skill made her aware of his intent every time and she always avoided getting caught.We were both proud of them and thankful they had this special gift that made them almost invincible.They spent two and a half hours together before I had to call an end to it forcibly.We had to catch breakfast and head for training.“Can you give me some time with Lennox too before you shift? I’d like to officially meet him like you met Hazel” Rhea linked me softly.Lennox panted in excitement as he wiggled his tail merrily.“Sure thing”We went back to the place we left our clothes in and I waited for her to put her clothes on.She
Adrian’s POV“Are you ready? I won’t do this unless you’re a hundred percent sure” I said delicately.She gulped nervously and didn’t answer me.We were sitting in the living room alone on the long couch after we finished breakfast.I was trying to give her a little more time to be ready because I could sense how panicked she is.My hand rubbed her back gently, she looked two seconds away from a panic attack.She shook her head and stood up “I can’t Adrian. I thought I could but I just can’t imagine you seeing everything”I stood up and put my hands on her shoulders “You’re still afraid of me watching you do those things? Rhea I know you had no choice. It wouldn’t change a thing about my opinion of you”We already discussed this so many times, but I understood her hesitation completely. Fear and shame were rooted very deep inside her. It was all she’s ever known her whole life. It wasn’t going to disappear in four days, and I wasn’t going to get tired of repeating this not for a milli