~Uncover~ A secret relationship is that Which is known to them But unknown to people ~ Tanveer Singh ~~~~I'm laying still in my bed, reminiscing what happened yesterday. Ryan kissed me. We finally kissed and it felt so good, more than I can ever imagine. It still feels surreal and I'm constantly reminding myself that it happened. I keep asking myself what would have happened if I walked out of the door without being courageous enough to ask him to kiss me, would we have even been where we are now? Or would we have gone back to being strangers? I'm glad I asked him and even though I was nervous, I'm glad I didn't let fear get in the way. Recalling what we talked about after the kiss, a smile breaks out on my face -- tugging the corners of my lips. My heart is overloaded with emotions -- feelings I never thou
~Ride~ Away is a place where it's not just about The money you spend, It's about the moments you share ~ Unknown ~~~~Upon getting in his car, I click my seatbelt in and push my hair back. When he starts his car, he glances at me as he gently squeezes my hand with a smile -- reassuring me that everything is okay. After driving blocks away from our neighborhood, he takes my hand and locks it in his and peppers soft loving kisses on it. "Are you okay?" his voice is laced with concern. I'm certain he's asking me because of how silent I've been for the past couple of minutes he's been driving. "Yeah," I smile at him, "I'm just wondering where you're taking us," "The beach," he replies immediately though his eyes are fixed on the empty road that's stretched ahead of us. This route is familiar I don't know why I asked him such a question
~I Hold You~ Shake me from my sleep Whisper in my ear, Tell me it was all a dream, And you're here to make the nightmares Go away. ~ Unknown ~~~~The ride back home was quiet, and as much as I tried to talk to her, my efforts went in vain. I felt bad for bringing up such a sensitive topic, and I hated myself for making her upset. The date was going so well until I messed it up. What was I thinking?I've indeed been quite bothered about us and even though I've had my concerns, maybe I should have waited for the right time to talk about it. Seeing her laying beside me as we stargazed while she sang sweet melodies to my ears, I couldn't help but wonder why she chose me of all people. I'm far from perfect, and yet she treats me like I am. Why?She knows about my life,
~Sirens~ Keeping a lot to myself, Because it's hard to find someone Who understands. ~ HopeQure ~~~~Going back home upset was not how I imagined our date ending. The boat was sailing smoothly till he decided to rock it causing it to tilt to the side -- nearly capsizing. What he said about having reservations about us bothered me a lot I couldn't cast the memory away no matter how many times I tried to. He had sent me apology texts the second he dropped me off but I was too upset to let him off the hook yet. Upon arrival, I took a hot shower and spent a couple of minutes preparing a meal before heading to my room while Mom was still out working. His words played back in my mind vividly over and over like a song that was on replay and I hated that I couldn't rid of that memory; so instead of forcing myself to sleep, I decide
~Freeze~ Darling, can we freeze? Let me save this perfect memory Remember how it feels like flying in the dark? Like I must be awake inside a dream ~ Kygo ~~~~As the sun begins to fall asleep, the slanting rays of the setting sun give a warm orange flicker to the sky. The blazing circle is shielded behind sloping, dark-green mountains, each smaller but rigid than the one before. The trees are strong and raven and are standing in an unmoving row and bringing a calming breeze. We're sitting in the back of a pickup truck I rented earlier today -- appreciating the picture that the setting sun is leaving behind while we're embraced in each other's warmth. After a long week, I thought of escaping reality for a while and treating her to a beautiful date in the mountains. We hardly
~Empty~ That feeling when You're not necessarily feeling sad But you just feel really empty. ~ Unknown ~~~~Tessa, Jake, and I walk towards the cafeteria, our faces are worn out and our bodies are weakened from Mr Duncan's long session. I've always enjoyed his English class, however, today's different, with Ryan constantly on my mind I can barely concentrate.Tessa's nudging causes me to snap out of my thoughts and face her piercing blue eyes.She definitely knows something's up and as much as I would love to tell her, I can't."You look different," she says as her prying eyes linger on me."No, I don't," I reprimand. I know she's not talking about how I'm physically looking, but rather how I'm acting. There's been a switch to how I'm behaving, how I'm talking, how I'm thinking, the tone in my voice -- it's all so conspicu
~Trauma~ The unspoken words held the most painful Feelings of their heart. ~ Lonely Bird ~ ~ ~ ~A couple of days have passed since I talked to Carter regarding his odd behavior. While working on the project, I've tried as hard as I can to pin down my concerns even though it's killing me inside. He's been distant, and always in a hurry to go somewhere. He barely looks at me when he's talking to me nor does he pay much attention to his surrounding. He's simply unbothered about what's going on around him including the project we've been working on for weeks. I wonder what's wrong with him. Upon quenching my thirst, I put my glass of water down and prop my chin in my palm as I start to scroll through Instagram with my elbow resting on the island. With high school coming to an end very soon, I can't help but wonder what I'm going to do during sum
~When God Made You My Mother~ When God made you my mother He knew who I'd need When he picked you from the others He could already see ~ Riley Roth ~~~~With her hand in mine, I keep up with the nurse's pace as they lead her to a wardroom on a stretcher. Tears are streaming down my face and I'm praying so hard that she'll wake up, that she'll be okay and we'll go back home and I'll prepare her a nice meal. When we reach the entrance, I'm prohibited from going further so I stand back and wrap my arms around my body as I watch them disappear. I feel an arm wrap around me and it doesn't take me long enough to realize that it's Ryan's. My mind's been so lost in the chaos I forgot for a moment that he is here. "She'll be fine," he says softly against my hair as he gently strokes my arm.When my mom collapsed to t