I was home alone when the doorbell rang. I perked up because I was bored by myself. I did have a thought that it might be Liam there, and it was enough to have me rushing to the door. Only, when I opened it, someone unexpected was standing on the other side.“Rita?” I said, confused.She gave a wry smile. “You could at least pretend to be glad to see me, you know? Now I feel bad for coming all the way here.”“No!” I said immediately, fluttering my hands in the air between us. “I’m sorry about that; I just wasn’t expecting…”She rolled her eyes at me. “Let me guess. You thought it would be your boyfriend, come here to pull you out of your boredom.”I couldn’t exactly say no, so all I did was give her a sheepish smile. She just snorted at me as she rolled her eyes. I stepped to the side, and she let herself into the house. She’d been around to my place a few times, so she didn’t even wait for me as she headed straight for the stairs, and once I’d closed the door, I followed close behind
Rita left for a while. Neither of us wanted to speculate too much about what happened. It bothered me, but there was nothing I could do about this knowledge now. I had to think about what I was going to do with it.On the one hand, it was entirely Liam’s business, so of fucking course, he deserved to hear it. But…it would only hurt him, for one thing. For another, it would confuse him, and the last thing I needed was to have him withdraw from me.I couldn’t just keep it to myself, though. I was practically bursting to let it out, and I picked up my phone to message him.Hey, did you hear? Someone’s throwing a party! I’ll meet you there, okay?My heart was in my throat as I sent a second text with the address, then put my phone back down on the desk.I hadn't wanted to go to the party, but the crowded atmosphere would take my mind off things. I would just not drink anything the whole time.I jumped out of my chair and headed for the bathroom to have a shower. I’d been lazing around the
I was alone at home and bored. I’d been looking at college options—local ones—but there was only so long I could keep it up. At least, when I did it at Adele’s place, I could look up and see her sitting not too far away from me.She was the whole reason I was going through with this, after all. Having my motivation right there was usually enough to keep me going.Of course, I wasn’t doing it just for her. I was doing it for us, for our future. For the baby. I was still keeping it under wraps while trying to find the best time to tell Adele this good piece of news. That I might be going to the same college she would, so we wouldn’t have to be separated. At least, not for too long if she ended up waiting until after she had the baby to go. And then, we could raise him or her together.She’d been going to the doctors. Lately, I thought to myself. Is it still too early for an ultrasound? Then we could find out if the baby is a boy or a girl…I wasn’t sure that was something she’d want to
I stepped outside so they wouldn’t know I’d been there to overhear their conversation. I didn’t even want her to know I’d been there, so I was extra careful as I opened the door and stepped outside. Rita had gone to Adele with the information, and I wanted Adele to be the one to tell me herself.When Rita walked out, I was right across the street from Adele’s house, because I didn’t feel like going too far. My legs felt like jelly, like they would give up on me if I tried to walk all the way back home, so I was leaning back against a tree when I saw Rita leave.Not long after that, my phone vibrated in my pocket, twice. I figured they were texts, and I even guessed who from. Sure enough, when I pulled my phone out to check, it was Adele’s number that I saw. I unlocked the screen, opening the texts. They were invitations to some party and the address to where it would take place.A party…Was that something I could put up with, in the state I was in? I glanced down at myself. I was dre
I figured Dad would be sitting at the dinner table when I finally made my way to the kitchen. I’d been dragging my feet, practically crawling, so by the time I did walk in there; it had probably been a whole minute when it was only a few steps away. Instead, he was at the stove.My eyebrows arched, and I just stood there awkwardly, until Dad glanced at me. “Are you going to sit down, or what? I was already making lunch before you came back, so don’t think this is just for you.”I nodded in understanding. Even though it was a little late for lunch, Dad and Laurie looked like they’d been arguing for a while before we arrived, and that was probably when he’d started making the food, then forgotten it and just left it on the table. No, he was just gazing at it.“Will that be safe to eat?” I asked tentatively.“It’s fine,” he said, waving a hand at me. “I was worried it would take a while, when… Laurie said she wanted to talk. So I turned the stove off. It’s not like I would have left it
The penny dropped. I didn’t even need for him to clarify because by what he had said, the answer was obvious. He must have known I would be making assumptions and chose to say nothing, so it was probably now wrong.“Aunt Emelda?” I asked.She was the only aunt I had. I hadn't realized she was Mom’s aunt, too, maybe an older sister. So she’d…had me as a baby and given me up to Mom and Dad?I tried to think of all that I knew about her. Next to Mom, she’d been the other woman in the family I was closest to. I loved both my grandma’s, but Mom and Aunt Emelda had been my favorite growing up. Right after Mom died, I’d seen her a lot of the time. But, she had her own life, and she could only help us out for so long before she had to get back to it.At that moment, I wondered, if I knew what I did now, would I have wanted her to stay, or begged her to go with me?Well. Anyway, it guessed why I looked more like Mom than I did Dad because I was at least her direct family.“Did she not want me,
The drive wasn’t even that long, but on the way back, I didn’t feel like I was in a hurry, so we were going slower that before. I’d been right, too. Now and then, everything would hit me again, and my eyes would blur with tears. I’d remove a hand from the wheel to wipe my eyes, and go on driving.“Why don’t we stop somewhere on the way?” Adele was the one to make the suggestion.I glanced over at her. “You think it’s a good idea?” I asked, not feeling against it.“I think so. You need some time to calm down, at least, and you can't do that while you’re driving. An hour won’t put us out too much, right? We’ll get back on the road before it gets too dark. We passed a small hotel on the way; we could see if they do hourly rates…”There was no argument from me, and when the hotel came into view, I got off the road. We were lucky; they did do hourly rates. We didn’t pay any less if we stayed under the hour, but if we were over by a minute, there were extra fees. I didn’t even care, paying
It was growing dark by the time we started on the way back, but neither of us cared. And I felt much better, so I picked up the speed a bit. It wasn’t too late by the time we got back, and I decided to take us back to my house, so I could leave the car and walk Adele home, or take her on the bike if she wanted to be quicker.I parked the car in the drive where I got it, and as I stepped out of the car, I held my hand out to Adele so she could join me.“Mom could be waiting for me at home,” she pointed out.I shrugged. “You won’t be staying long, just for a little bit. You could come in for some water, at least. I’ll take you home myself in a bit.”Without further argument, she took my hand, and I led her to the door. I reached for the handle to open the door. It was unlocked, so I assumed Dad was still at home, and not out somewhere, trying to talk Laurie to get back together with him. He’d have locked the door if he left; I knew where the spare house key was.When I opened the door,