It was a week later when I rolled in bed at night and felt a body next to mine. My eyes shot wide open, heart already on jump start. I turned, staring wide eyed at the body next to mine. It took a second for the realization to settle and when it did I did not know what to do. I did not know if to jump, cry, scream or what. But one thing was certain, I was happy. My eyes took him in, his full body covered by the cover. I was so happy he was back. Ryan, I whispered in my head, scared to wake him. I took in his face and my gut dropped because it was sunken and he looked sickly. My eyes finally locked with his, wide open, staring at me which I had not expected, nearly scaring me. My mouth opened and closed. I did not know which look was worse, this one or the one before he left. I felt defeated. “Ryan,” I whispered out, my hand moving to lay on him. He gave me a smile but for some reason I had gained the ability to see past his facade. He pushed up from the bed and I could see the s
Whoever said rich housewives did nothing definitely lied to us because I was more than exhausted.My days were packed and busy. I had slept in a hotel for three days in the week because they were building my studio back in the house and did not want me near there for safety purposes. It was cool by me and I was so happy because my studio was large and gorgeous. Of course most of it was pink, I could not help myself. It’s not like I would have a lot of people in there, it was just mine, my personal heaven where I could record my songs. It inspired me to put out my own music under my new registered record label. I was not doing it for fame or money, I just wanted other people to hear my songs from me, with my voice. It felt so dear to me and I was inspired by the recent events of my life. We picked two brand new cars for me, all details fine picked by me and my personal shopper, Rosebella. A personal designer was picked for me, doing nothing but designing clothes exclusively for me.
I had rested plenty the previous day but I was still tired. “Someone is here to see you ma’am,” Fina said when I got out of my shower.I frowned, wondering who it was but also happy to get a break from the worrying and torturing myself.. “Maybe wear something good for going out,” She added. “Will I be going somewhere?” I questioned Fina. “Maybe, “ She said with a mischievous look which made me excited. I loved surprises. I let my hair down, wore tailored cream pants with a black cardigan and a gorgeous trench coat going with flats, before walking out. I was still trying to learn everyone's names but there was just so much staff and I was bad with names but I greeted everyone with as large of a smile as I got. I had never seen people so happy to see me. Fina walked with me to the living room. “I will bring over breakfast.” She said then took one look at the two ladies waiting there before leaving. The two women stood up. They looked lethal and ready to take over the world. Smart
Neria’s P.O.V. I woke up and was consumed with gloom. The morning sickness left me crying my eyes out over the toilet seat. I cried then just lay there, head on my arms, staring with red eyes at the white tile. When I finally got up my limbs felt the torture of the pins and needles sensation. It probably had been an hour just sitting in that position. I took a shower and walked out, not wanting to leave the bedroom. When I walked out, the bed was made and Fina waited for me. I could not even greet her, just stared and gave a short wave. She bowed her head back then followed me to the closet. None of us talked. My body was heavy. She helped me get my hair done and get dressed then tucked me back in bed. She seemed far away, her eyes nearly as vacant as mine. Were we worried about the same person? Every time I closed my eyes I saw that tortured look Ryan had worn, as if he had been broken with nothing left in him. I wrapped my arms around myself as I lay in bed. Breakfast was broug
Sean’s P.O.V. I could see it in his eyes, he had made a decision. I could see it in his eyes, he was done. If I had not seen the chopper land, he would have left me and we would have lost him forever. It had happened before but rarely had it gone to this state. It had taken everything to pull him out of this state before but this time, it seemed different.This time he was worse, bad, and at the very bottom. No one dared to talk in the chopper, not knowing where to even begin, panic heavily gripping me. Even speaking could cause a tragic chain of events but I had to. Heavily, I worried about Neria. She had seen him at his most dangerous. What had he done to her? When waking he usually could not differentiate between nightmare and real, making it dangerous to be around him..I stared at my phone, waiting for Fina’s report on Neria, was she okay? I would never forgive myself if anything had happened to her. I felt the weight of it all weigh heavily on me. My phone buzzed.Fina: She’
I tossed and turned. I could not get Sean’s words out of my head. Once again, I picked up my phone where I had written my notes. What I had thought would be a twenty minute talk turned to a two hour discussion. “When he gets anxious you will see a tweak on his right eye. His right hand will start slightly trembling. He will conceal it with his left…...” The conversation bled back into my mind. Sean taught me all the signs and how to assist once noted. He taught me which pills to give Ryan in different situations, told me what to give if he is triggered or anxious when drunk so I don’t overdose him. I stared at the long list, running my eyes through it while my heart was soaked heavily. It left me emotional, once again feeling the emotions nearly consume me. I did not know if it was pregnancy hormones or what, but I just wanted to keep crying. I don’t know if it was because this, mapped on my screen, was now Ryan’s life, pills and triggers. I swallowed, refusing to pity him. Ryan w