Despair

Despair

By:  Doreen  Ongoing
Language: English
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a story of a love triangle with a touch of soreness. a story of Spanish- Indian girl living in states. her life revolves around her dad and her best friend Josh and Joshua. Josh's younger brother, Joshua is kind of dark horse of his house, a rebel kind of teen who has a secret. his connection with Babi is different. see what future holds for three and what is written Babi's destiny or lets see if she makes her own destiny.

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Mohd Salim
good story
2022-02-24 02:45:15
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Smriti Singh
awsm can't wait for next chapter
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17 Chapters
from where it all started
“Hello Babi darling, it has been so long since you have been here, where have you been” said Josh’s mother as soon as she saw Babi at the front door of her house. Mrs. Crane adores Babi so much as she doesn’t have a girl child. She only has two boys Josh and Josha. She has known Babi since she was seven when she moved to states with her single father. Babi doesn’t have mother, so she has been a mother figure for Babi since then.Babi hasn’t visited their home for like a month and Mrs. Crane feels like she hasn’t seen Babi since ages.“Mom can you stop saying those cheesy lines. We are adults now. Babi come here.”    Josh yelled from his room while rolling his eyes in the air.“So what you are adults. She is still kid to me and why is she coming here after a month?” Mrs. Crane.“I don’t know ask her.” Josh said with a grumpy face.“N
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Is it what I think?
Chapter 2 BABI POV He dragged me in the corner and pinned me towards the wall said, “Shhh! If somebody hears, I will be in trouble.” He was covering my mouth with his left hand. I removed his hand and patted his head “then don’t do such things besides it doesn’t make you look cool at all.” “Ok I will cut it down” “Why did you start it in first place I don’t understand?” I asked him. The kid I saw growing up is so big and taller than me is now smoking and stuff makes me worried. “Off course you will say no reason is good enough to smoke and all that bullshit but you won’t understand” he told while giving me a look. “I am just worried. The amount of cigerattes you smoke in a day is concerning. Leave it let’s go they are waiting for us” “Not me, only you. It’s only you who cares for me” “That’s not true you know that, right? Now stop with those sad statements and let’s go” We started walking again and reach
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affection
Chapter 3As soon as they reached to school, they heard the bell ringing. She ran towards the door. She reached the class right before teacher entered. Alright submit your assignment. As soon as all students heard this they started creating ruckus in the class.“SILENCE!”“Submit it quietly in my desk and come one by one in my cabin.” Miss moly, their science teacher said this and went to her cabin.“Thank god I was on time” Babi said while sighing from relief.“You look hot today. Is it a special day?” Megan said while glancing at Babi.“Stop it! I was in rush so I wore whatever I got.”“I am not saying anything. I just said you look hot. You will kill more boys today than usual”“I already have many things in my mind. So can you stop being a bitch and listen to me?”“Ok ok tell me” “I have already promised
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you make me believer!
Chapter 4JOSHUA POVMostly I’ve seen that the smallest kid is dearest to parents but why is it opposite in my case?  Why is it that they have to compare me with him? Do I have to be him?There’s nothing new about it.Babi.. What should I say about her. First she was just a person who takes side of me but she is much more to me than words can define. She was the only person who genuinely used to listen, all banters and chit chats when I was a kid. When I was growing up I never saw my father home and mother also started working again. They never had time for me. I was left alone with babysitter and Josh.as he was elder then me, and he is book worm, always used to study. Whenever I went to him talk to him or play with him, he just scolds me. But Babi she was always by my side whenever I needed somebody.                  With pass
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I was feeling...
 As soon as she saw the message, she panicked. She couldn’t get how Josh knew about all this mess. She was trying to come up with good reason for all this but she couldn’t. And just then she heard knocking over the door. She went to open the door; josh was shocked to see her. In this entire ruckus, she forgot that she didn’t wear anything after coming from the shower. Josh quickly turned back. Though they sleep together, they cuddle but he hasn’t seen Babi like that. He felt current flowing through his whole body. Babi realized what she has done. She quickly went inside the bathroom and wore her night dress while thinking about what just happened!She felt like she should dig the whole and bury herself there. Even after waring the clothes, she couldn’t mutter the courage to go out. After a long time she went out. Josh was sitting over the chair near her study table.“I am really sorry. I had something in my mind. I forgo
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is it even sad?
Chapter 6 Joshua POV   Mum left after cleaning the wounds and lecturing me. I don’t get it, how can she always manage to see bad in me. While smoking standing in the balcony, I was thinking what life would I had if Josh wasn’t born and I know this is not right to think, but all I could think that he is the main reason of my miseries. He has never ever understood me; all he does is scold me and taunt me. I have seen any brotherly bonding between us and he contributed to it equally.                  It kills me from inside every time I see him coming near Babi. I know she is his friend first but that doesn’t mean that I cannot love her. In this whole world she is the only person who understands me. She is literally my anchor who stops me from falling from edge.  Tears were rolling from my eyes while cigarette smoke
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more sufferings......
  JOSHUA POV As soon as Joel blew the whistle, all the bikers start to fly their bike. 3rd rider was the one who was ahead of all of us. I was at last. I don’t show my potential just right at the beginning. It’s fun to let people believe that they are winning and enjoy their reaction at finishing line.  While I was moving ahead, I saw the biker next to me looking like at me and passing a snarky smile. It was a smile that I couldn’t get at first but next he did was push me, trying to get me out of the race. Suddenly I was the picture of Babi and my brother together in my mind.  All the anger and feeling of betrayal came rushing through my veins. I don’t know since when I started to lover this much but with each and every passing moment, it is starting to get harder to see them together. I know she can’t be mine. I know what I want is the exact thing I can never have. It’s like having a best friend that you love but can’t tell her that you lov
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should i call it hope..
JOSHUA POV I went in and next thing I saw was my father and Josh leaving for the trip chauffer was getting the car ready. In order to avoid them I decided to go from back side of the door.  It’s right where the garden ends.  I parked my bike and I pumped up as soon as I can because I didn’t want them to notice me.  It’s been such a mentally and physically exhausting day, I needed to roll few cigarettes and let it all out. Back door opens directly near my room.  When I went in my room I was everything was perfectly placed, it looks like mum cleaned it herself. I went in to take a cold shower. In this cold chilly winter I still feel hot. I don’t know why may be because of lava I have inside it’s been really long day.     While I was taking shower, I heard my phone ringing. I decide to ignore it as I was enjoying me time with myself. Washing me is the thing that I never forget. I often wash myself with too vigour and
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i love her
JOSHUA POV “Ok, don’t waste more time huh” I said to her while walking upstairs. I went inside her room. It was just like it always has been small cozy place. Strange thing is I feel more comfortable has been. May be because of the person it belongs. It had small comfy bed with dark coloured sheets covering all over it.  I sat on the bean bag near the bed. After five minutes, she came with a plate of food. Strangely we never conversed about me being hungry but somehow she already knew. My heart skipped a beat. “Who told you I was hungry?” regardless of the feelings. I decided to throw a pun to cover my mushy feelings. “So you are telling me you ate already? I know you haven’t. But if you saw so!” she said while placing the tray over table and sitting on the other bag. “I will have them.” I saw she prepared my favourite bacon cheese sandwich with mustard sauce and noodles with no soya sauce. She knows my taste bud very accurately.  Sh
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new lives...
Joshua POV "Joshua! Joshua!  What you doing" suddenly I heard Babi screaming over me. I was astounded for few minutes then I came back to my senses. Dream... that was damn dream... off course that was. I happens to be that my mind was being little bitch. The devastation was literal all over my face."What happened? I thought we were taking a break." Babi screamed at me again except this time her louder than last time. I had to save my face and rationalize my behaviour.” stop yelling!! I ain't anywhere. Just right here. I was thinking what I am doing here with all those stupid books and all? "“Hey you stop throwing an attitude. You are not alone sitting here at almost three" her face was telling how much she was hurt with my words. That’s when I realized how rude I was. She was awake at this hour for me.       "Sorry sorry, it’s just I couldn't get this question and
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