THE heavy rain makes me sad. I have always felt this way every time it rains. But now, there is a valid reason to make me feel unhappy. I am driving my way to the hospital for my sister. She was in a car accident with her husband, and now... they are both in critical condition. I prayed hard and called all the saints I knew to help them survive this battle. My tears kept falling at mas lumalala ang pag-aalala ko habang lumilipas ang bawat minuto. Nanginginig ang buo kong katawan. I can't hide the fact that there's so much running in my head right now. I don't want to entertain any negativity, but I felt weak hearing Mrs. Roberts' voice of wanting me so badly to be in a hurry. I knew there was something wrong, kaya nagsimula na rin akong mag-panic. I almost hit the tree because of my nervousness. Thank God, I was still alive when I parked the car in the hospital and hurriedly went inside. "I-iyong patient na dinala dito dahil sa car accident. She's in the operating room.

KABANATA 2:I know that in time, they will become a couple. But I didn't expect that this would be that day. Mom and Dad went out on a vacation trip. It was planned two months ago when Crystal and I decided to buy them a ticket and book a hotel resto Palawan for their wedding anniversary.Since we are old enough to take care of ourselves, we opted to stay at home and let our parents enjoy their vacation without us. We have a family business and own multiple hardware stores in the Philippines. My parents are hardworking people. Ever since they started our business, they have been very committed to it, and we wanted to give them the best gift, kaya iyong napili namin ni Crystal ay package tour para sa dalawa."Crystal?"Sinilip ko sa sala pero wala siya kaya akala ko nasa kwarto pero wala din pala. I checked the other rooms pero wala din siya."Nasaan na ba 'yon?" I asked myself.Nagmamadali pa akong bumaba sa hagdan. Wala nga yata akong kasama sa loob ng bahay. I started to get panic.

KABANATA 4:BINALEWALA ko 'yong nararamdaman ko noon para sa kanya. Noong una, akala ko crush lang 'yon pero iba na habang tumatagal. Sa t'wing nakikita ko siya, iba ang reaksyon ng katawan ko.I just figured it out when I assessed my feelings. Kung bakit ganito na lang ako sa kapag nakikita ko sila ni Crystal. Back then, I realized it was not a crush at all. I secretly love him, and I immediately shut my feelings down.Pinaniwala ko 'yong sarili ko na makakalimutan ko rin at hindi ako masasaktan. I just need to divert my attention that's why I flew to Manila to pursue my dreams. Hindi lang dahil sa pangarap ko kaya ako umalis sa Cavite, kung hindi para hindi ko sila makita ni Crystal.I love my sister. I don't want any conflict so I kept it to myself. Pinaniwala ko 'yong sarili ko na hindi ko mahal 'yong lalaking mahal niya. They both love each other. Iyon naman ang gusto ko. Mahanap ni Crystal iyong lalaki na magmamahal sa kanya ng buong-buo at aalagaan siya pero habang naroon ako,

KABANATA 6:HINATID ako ni Dustin nang gabing 'yon sa condo at umuwi na rin agad. Pagpasok ko sa condo, tawag agad ni Crystal ang bumungad sa akin. She asked me questions about Blake. Of course, alam niya kung anong nangyari dahil binalita ni Dustin iyon sa kanya agad.We talked and I told her my sentiments about her husband's rudeness. Isa pa, pinaintindi ko sa kanya na pareho lang kami ng edad at hindi big deal kung makipag-date ako o mag-boyfriend na ako. Siya nga kasal na. Hindi ko nga alam na kinasal na pala. May sinabi ba akong masama sa kanila? Nangialam ba ako? Hindi naman, 'di ba?"I'm sorry. Maybe I was just too worried about you. Baka kasi masakta—"Napapikit ako bago ko pinutol ang sasabihin niya."Crystal, I won't learn anything if you guys will interfere with my love life. It's actually none of your business. We're both adult. Kung nasa college tayo at pinapakielaman niyo ko. Baka maintindihan ko pa. Pero ngayon? Ano 'yon? Gumawa ng scene si Dustin kanina. Nakakahiya sa

KABANATA 8:BLAKE and I continued with out courting stage. He exert efforts talaga at nakikita ng iba 'yon."Siya ba 'yong bago? She's not even that pretty!""Shh!"I pretended that I didn't hear anything. Nakapikit ako at inaayusan ni Mela. Dalawa kaming nasa loob ng dressing room para sa gaganaping fashion show for a lingerie. Alam ko na ako naman iyong pinag-uusapan nila. Kanina pa nila ako tinitignan.I tried to be friendly lalo na noong nagkatinginan kami ni Angelica. Iyong matagal na ring nagmomodelo at nakikita na rin sa mga commercials. Kilala na siya talaga kumpara sa akin na nagsisimula pa lang.Alam ko naman na hindi niya ako gusto dahil hindi man lang niya ako nginitian kanina at maski tapunan ng tingin. Hinayaan ko na lang. Wala naman akong ginagawang masama sa kanya kaya lang nang nalaman ko kay Emily na pinag-usapan ako ng ibang models sa labas dahil pinuntahan ako ni Blake kahit na hindi naman siya part ng show.Noong nalaman nilang nariyan si Blake, marami nang kumausa